CHANYEOL POV

'I love her YES I love her actually. But when she say she want a break up, I feel like angel of death had take my soul away from my body. NO i cant i cant let her go. I love her. I dont want the same things happen again. but if she knows about that secret..will she stay? will she accept it?i know she will leave me, Thats why i would rather hurt her now than let her hurt for the rest of her life in future. i dont want to break her heart anymore.its hurt to see her tears.i feel like my heart tear bit by bit when her tears dropped. BUT i love to see when minji playing around with her. The way she treat minji like she's really suitable to be minji's mother but what is her reaction when she knows that minji is my daughter?' That things always haunting and playing in your mind. you keep on murmuring and you tears finally rolling down on your cheeks. the rain poured heavily and you stayed there for about two hours regretting for what you had done

'im sorry..im sorry shinbi.you deserved someone better than me" suddenly you feel your world turned darker and in a split second you are unconcious

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-flashback during you have been unconcious-

flashback 5 years ago

AUTHOR POV

Canyeol was left on the heavy rain like this. The girl that he loved the most got into an accident in front of his eyes. Soyu is the name of that girl. Chanyeol was  crying hard when he saw soyu lying weakly on the road and blood covered all her blouse and her long skirt. Chanyeol quickly embrace soyu's body and put her head on his lap.

"Soyu no Soyu please open your eyes" Chanyeol screamed "Someone please call the ambulance!!!!!. My love is dying right now, SOYYUUUUUUU !!!!! " Chanyeol scream out loud along with the thunder and the lightning

After 10 minutes, the ambulance arrived.Soyu still conscious but she looks so weak.She want to say something but Chanyeol cant heard it clearly. The paramedic team put soyu on the stroller pushed ot to the ambulance and chanyeol follow them

On the way to hospital, Chanyeol keep praying to god that soyu will be safe.his left hands interlocks with soyu's hands and his right hand caressed soyu's tummy..suddenly Chanyeol feel soyu's hand tighten both of their hands

"Soyu please Soyu dont leave me.You cannot die now. I still need you Soyu I still need you. Please soyu you are like the light that always brighten my life. If u go who will shined my world?I dont have anyone in this world except you.Please Soyu, our baby need you too. Please God save my baby and my love". Chanyeol keep praying in his tears

Soyu wiped Chanyeol's tears with her right hands. Soyu loosened their hands and cupped chanyeol's cheeked while her thumb wiped the tears again. "Chanyeol if i leave this world, it doesn't mean that i don't love you anymore. I love you with all my heart and soul. But please dont hold me anymore .I cant handle this pain. If our daughter still alive please promised me that you will take care of her. Dont abondened her like what my parents did to me. i will save our child. She is the proof of our love" Soyu smile weakly even she cant talk properly while the paramedic team trying to save her and clean her wound.

'NO i wont abondened her..i love our daughter like i love you . NO ! Soyu i wont let you go soyu NOOO !!. you are the only one who can make me smile.You give me spirit to live everyday,to stay in this cruel world" chanyeol cried hard,..really hard till his eyes turned red

Soyu still smiling even sometime she's frowing because of the pain "Please remember i will always love you my dear.no matter what i will still be in your heart" Soyu's hand touched Chanyeol's chest ."i will always stay in here no matter what.even you had found someone that can replaced me but i will still be here and i will always see you from heaven. Sorry chanyeol for burdening your lives. God loves me more' Suddenly Soyu's hand dropped weakly and his eyes closed tightly . At that time they already arrived in the hospital

"NOOOOOOO!!!!!! DONT LEAVE ME SOYUUUU!!!!!' all the doctors and nurses rushed to the emergency room. Chanyeol keep wandering outside the room. He keep praying for god to save Soyu's life and their baby's..Chanyeol didnt tell anyone what had happen to Soyu. He dont feel like he need to tell his hyungs and dongsaengs.

After 15minutes the doctors came out form the emergecy room "Sorry Mr. Park we couldnt save Mrs. Kim"  Chanyeol feel undead  . His head lowered down. "But we can only saved her baby" Chanyeol lifted his head back "What? Rally the baby is save?" the doctor nodded and patted Canyeol's shoulders "congrats Mr. Park you got a baby girl..You can take a loot at her in the room but we will removed Mrs. Kim's  corpses first.

Chanyeol cannot hold his tears anymore.he's crying hard ..crying of joy and sad.. this is too much for him too handle. he doesnt have any strength anymore. when they pulled out Soyu's bodies.. chanyeol blocked them and asked for a minutes to stay alone with Soyu's bodies

Chanyeol bent down her body and leaned closer to Soyu's ear 'Soyu,my loved ones,you still look so pretty hmm Finally u left me alone in this world..how dare you did this to me but im not mad yeah how could i'm mad at you naughty girl.As your wish i will raised our daughter well. May you rest in pease.Please watch me from heaven. i will always love you". He knows he only can talk with Soyu's bodies and he guarantee that Soyu can hear him.Chanyeol leaned closer to Soyu's head and kissed her forhead for the last time. Then the nurses asked Chanyeol's permission to pushed the stroller off to the mortuary

a few days later after the funeral ,Chanyeol heading back to his house.but he didnt bring along his daughter.since chanyeol had an apartment.he hired a few maids to take care of his daughter.chanyeol doesnt want onyone to know about minji. when he reached home he got a big fight with his parents. chanyeol parents really against his relationship with Soyu because his parents said that Soyu have a bad background that will ruined their generations. after chanyeol had a big fight he doesnt have any choices than let them know the truth that Soyu had died a few days ago. they felt so shocked and guilty. chanyeol doesnt give a to his parents anymore. he decided to moved out from the house and his parents just respect his decision.but their parents still dont know the reason why he want to moved out.

day by day passing by.chanyeol raised his daughter alone even its hard at first but he need to survive and sacrifice for his loved..luckily he have his maids to help him. fo chanyeol money isnt everything because his father was the richest man in korea. he doesnt have problem regarding his savings. hes trying to raised her child alone because he loves minji so much.he would do anything even he need to pay it with his life

this would be the secret that he hides for about 5 years now..he afraid to open his heart while he didnt realised that he already falling love with Shinbi. but he's being a coward now..he's afraid to lose someone that he loves like he lose Soyu. but its been 5 years after all and soyu still in his heart Now, he realised that there's one more girl that can shined his world back after Soyu's left

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end of chapter 3.. double update <3

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and im sorry if my ff is too bored

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