"We're not going to work out if you're like this, Chanyeol! This is your fault!" 

The words rung in his head to no end; drowning him in unwanted anger and glumness. Kyungsoo still gave him that sweet asphyxiation when he'd cross Chanyeol's mind and disrupt his thoughts. His eyes would unfocus, his mouth goes dry and his chest tightens, all the feelings being trapped inside his lungs. It failed to leave him, abandon him, it just wouldn't disappear. 

The longing was always there, and he knows it forever will be.