Blood

Seung Ri let the blood run through his wrist, he smile himself and drink another shot.

Seung Ri, I love you

I just also need some other muse.

 Another shot

Hyung, can you promise me. You won’t let me see it.

Even you betray me, don’t let me see it.

According to the news, today, the famous singer G-Dragon have been caught sleep over at Kiko’s house. Their secret relationship has been the hottest topic throughout Asian.

Waiting, he was waiting so badly for a message.

I wish you could call me and said all of this just a misunderstanding. I will belive hyung, I will.

Nothing, just nothing happens.

Seung Ri closes his eyes.

Hyung, it’s over.

2005

 Seung Ri first met Kwon Ji Yong

Seung Ri used to like Kwon Ji Yong much, like a kid admires his father. At that time, he still young, he neither try to control his emotion nor afraid being rejecting, he like Kwon Ji Yong and didn’t heritage showing off his feeling.

But that time, Seung Ri  is nothing to Kwon Ji Yong. He love the beauty of HyunSeung,  the cool and charm of TOP, the natural smile of Dae Sung and Yong Bae is his best friend. Seung Ri is nothing to him, just a bastard kid who doesn’t have much talent and always act overconfident.

Seung Ri was 14, actually 15 and half.

2006.

Seung Ri grows up, somehow. He know be about feeling fear. He is afraid looking at Ji Yong cold eyes, seeing Ji Yong’s smirk, a disregard and annoyed smirks. But Seung Ri still a kid, a meek kid. He does nothing, neither angry nor getting mad with Ji Yong, he just slowly stay away from Ji Yong, keep the distance and try to pay attention to another thing but Ji Yong.

Ji Yong starts noticing him, but Seung Ri no longer pay only attention to his leader.

Ji Yong start to know, Seung Ri acts so overconfident  because he thinks the only one who love him is himself, he’s actually a lack-of-confident kid.

He always smile, and pretend as nothing happens when people citric him; however, he will hide somewhere and cries silently, without letting people worry about him.

Seung Ri is also a kid who always want to win. However, he never plays a dirty trick, he always try to success himself. Even when he loses, he blames nobody except himself. He will pledge his opponent by all his heart.

Ji Yong starts caring; Seung Ri doesn’t dare to receive that attention.

2007, Want You concert

“Seung Ri, I like you, very like you

When you going out with Dae Sung, I was jealous. I am really lonely.”

“So what do you think maknae?”

“Think what, hyung?”

“About what I did say, I like you”

“I thought it was a fanservice.”

“No, Ji Yong pin Seung Ri to the wall behind, I really really like you”

“Hyung, what are you doing??”

“Touch you”

Seung Ri was 16. He was become GD’s, except his heart.

It took Ji Yong 2 years 3 months to make Seung Ri believe him.

"Hyung, I love you."

"Finally, I have been waiting so badly, maknae ah."

Can you trust me? I just need more muses for my music, that’s all.

…

Seung Ri?

Can you promise me, not let me see it?

If one day I see it, I will think that you want to break up with me.

I promise.

Ji Yong was, is, always selfish

Seung Ri was fool in love

“The day you smile at me, said you’re fine and turn you back, I regret already

Please”