Chapter 25: Closure
Rainy Day RomanceCharlotte's POV
When I got home, all I could do was laugh
"Did I just go back in time and switch places with Kai?"
I felt like I was in a movie or something. This couldn't possibly be reality
I was in denial.
How could he be getting married? He's only 22 years old"
Coming from the girl who got married at 23, such a difference
The only thing I could think of was going over to Woonha's and hear it from someone I know
"Yeah, he's getting married. I'm sorry Charlotte" he tells me as I'm sitting across from him on the couch
"He's already going to marry her?" my reality check was slowly sinking in
I feel myself lay down on the couch, my head was spinning.
"You know, we're both about to hit our mid-twenties and I've been looking to settle down. We could always get married to each other" he tells me with a smirk
"Thanks for the offer Woonha, but I don't think I could marry someone I wasn't in love with"
"Charlotte, I think it's time I've told you, I think I'm in love with you" he says
I look over at him and he starts laughing which makes me laugh a bit
"Stop joking around, my heart is vulnerable again, I could take that the wrong way"
"I just wanted to cheer you up a bit, but hey, I've known you for a while and I know you'll find a guy better than Kai and Jinsang combined. You're a joy to be around, you have a good sense of humor, and you have the body of a goddess"
"You sure know how to make a girl feel better"
"Well they don't call me a ladies man for nothing" he folds his arms to emphasize his point
"Thanks Woonha, but if you weren't a ladies man, maybe we could of had a future together" I joke
"I'll drop all of them right now if you're serious" it seemed like he took me serious
"I was only joking, but I do feel better. Maybe I should come by more often" I say as I get up to go home
"Please feel free to do so, any time of the day, you could even spend nights over"
I couldn't help but laugh, "I'll see you later Woonha" I leave out and of course I run into Kai as I'm opening the door.
"Hi" is all I say and make my way past him, except this time he chases after me
"Charlotte, you can't avoid me forever"
"I think I can" I walk faster
"Charlotte, please talk to me"
"I can't" I ultimately end up running, those days at the gym were paying off because he couldn't keep up and I made it all the way to my car.
Before I could hit the gas pedal and roll off, he jumps in front of my car.
"If I wasn't a good person, I would have ran you over" I say out the window.
He opens my car door, pulls me out and drags me back inside, his grip was too strong to yank away from
"Woonha, could we have some privacy"
"Sure, but before I go, Charlotte my offer is still on the table" he winks at me before he leaves the apartment
I laugh a little
"I don't even want to know what he's talking about"
"I wouldn't tell you anyway" I mumble under my breath
"Charlotte, I know you must be upset with me but-"
"I'm not upset, I'm over it"
"Then why do you keep avoiding me?"
"Because I can, it's a free country"
"Wow, totally mature"
I just roll my eyes
"Okay, when you were upset, I know how it all happened was terrible, and I didn't plan on telling you like that"
"What situation are you talking about? When you told me you moved on, or that you were getting married?"
"Both I guess"
I truly must be going mad, because I start to laugh again like I did earlier
"This must be payback for falling for someone else while I was married"
"Why are you laughing?"
"I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm delirious or maybe I find it hilarious that you took part in ruining my marriage, now here you are getting married!" the tone of my voice got serious
"It wasn't all my fault, no one held a gun up to your head and told you to fall for me"
"You're right, it's all my fault. I ruined my own life, I guess I probably deserved it"
"Charlotte it wasn't your fault"
"At this point, it doesn't matter who's fault it is! All I know is that in the end I ended up alone and heartbroken"
"I felt the exact same way when you were getting married"
"So this is payback? Oh I'm sorry I married my fiance I was engaged to before I even met you!"
"Charlotte, you're taking this the wrong way, and if you don't want to listen, then there's no point in talking to you"
"Fine by me, I didn't want to talk to you ever again anyway"
"Can't we still be friends? I still consider you my best friend"
"No Kai, we can't still be friends. You'd be the first person to know it's hard being friends with someone you're in love with"
On that note, I leave the apartment
I see Woonha on his phone outside of the building
"How'd it go?"
"Terrible, I just want to go home and be miserable"
"Hey, don't do that. My schedule is free, we can hang out"
"It's fine, you don't have to do that for me" I walk towards my car
"Wait, before you go, I want you to take this" he hands me an envelope
"What's inside it?" I hope it wasn't money, my love can't be bought
"It's Kai and Emilee's wedding invitation, I think you should come"
"You're kidding right? I think I'm the last person who should be at the wedding"
"You're wrong, you should come. Kai sent this to you but I stopped the mailman and stole it"
So he did invite me
"I'll think about it" I take it and go to my car
When I got home, I just laid in the dark, is this what true misery felt like?
I had drifted off to sleep, and was awoken by the sound of my ringtone
"Hello?" I say into the phone, looking over at the clock, it was four in the morning
"Charlotte?"
"Yeah, who is this?"
"It's me Kai"
I stayed silent
"I had a nightmare"
"Okay well call Emilee with two e's" I hang up
Minutes later my phone goes off again but I ignore it
But Kai would not stop calling so I finally answered
"I've figured it out, you must hate me" I say into the phone when I answer
He laughs, "Charlotte, I don't hate you, I just want to be friends again"
"I can't do that"
"C'mon, I was you friend after you got married"
"Wouldn't it just be easier to just forget about each other?" I could hear my attitude come out in my voice
"How could I forget about you Charlotte?"
"I don't know, figure it out"
"Don't be mad at me please, I miss having you around"
"I don't know what you're trying to do Kai, but you're only making me miserable"
"I'm making you feel miserable?" he sounded hurt
"Yeah" I try to keep up the attitude, but I was getting weak
"Well the last thing I want to do is make you feel miserable. If it's better for you to just forget about me, then I guess this is goodbye"
"Goodbye" I say and we hang up
Now I felt bad for saying that..
But why? He hurt me too
But I hurt him too
But I didn't do it on purpose
He probably wasn't doing it on purpose either
I call him back, and I grow anxious for him to answer
When he does, I apologize for saying what I said
"It's okay, but I honestly didn't mean to make you feel miserable. I don't know how but I just ended up falling for Emilee, I didn't do it as payback or anything"
"I know" was all I could say
"Are you going to come to the wedding? You don't have to if you don't want to, but I would like for you to be there"
"Yeah, I'll come"
"Great, I'll see you then?"
"Yeah" I felt a knot in my throat as I hang up
I guess the best way to get closure was watch the love of my life marry someone else, then maybe I could finally move on.
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