All Night Long – 2PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lddHQ44WciA

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The sunset filled the room with a patient and soft hue. The walls turned a shade of red as I waited for you. We hadn’t talked ever since you started practicing for your upcoming concert, but now that that was over, we had one night together. One night to catch up on lost time. One night to be with each other.

The truth is, I wished you weren’t an idol. I wished you were just some ordinary guy who could have free time. I wished you were simply Kim Jaejoong. Not Kim Jaejoong from DBSK. Not Kim Jaejoong from JYJ. Everyday, I missed you with a heartache. It burned and ate at me from inside slowly, as I saw you fake that smile on TV, during interviews. You were lonely, sad, yet you wanted to continue to smile for your fans.

What about me, Jae? What about me, whom you said you loved?

Do you wish I was there right beside you?

Do you wish time would stop whenever we would kiss?

Do you wish to stay with me forever?

Because all those things, I’ve wanted them. But it can’t become our reality. Because you’re an idol. And I’m just a normal person. That’s the sad fate that rules our lives, the sad commandment that shapes our paths.

It’s funny though. As soon as you came in, panting from running as quickly as possible after the concert, all those worries faded away in an instant. You made my happiness absolute, just by letting me look at you. I stood up from the couch, and your arms soon held me gently, quickly, as if you couldn’t live without me for another second.

“I saw some crows today.” you said, smiling.

“What did you tell them this time?” I replied softly.

“That I’m going to see the one who’s haunted my dreams without rest every night.” he whispered.

I couldn’t help but feel weak in my knees. As soon as you felt me crumble a bit, you held me against you. I held on to you as if you were the only one who could save me from falling. From falling into a world devoid of you.

“Are you tired?” you asked, worried.

“I’m tired of being without you.” I answered, tightening my grip on you.

You smiled at those words. “I must be eternally tired then.”

I looked up to you. Your eyes expressed all the love and care you had for me. I couldn’t help but reach out and wrap my arms around your neck as I kissed you gently, lovingly. You answered back just so tenderly and my heart pounded quickly, earnestly. There were no words to describe this moment but love. Pure, intoxicating love.

As our lips gently pulled away from each other, I couldn’t help but utter those words with a hidden, silent passion.

“I love you.”

You smiled at those words calmly and picked me up like a princess, as if I was the most fragile thing you could ever hold. As if I was your one and only treasure.

“I love you more.” you said, rubbing your nose against mine. My heart skipped a beat at those words.

You carried me with strong arms into my room; the dim light of the moon gave a dreamy, hazy silhouette of you. As you gently placed me on the bed, I gazed into your eyes. They had a longing, loving passion burning in them. I wanted to be the only one who would bring that fire into your eyes. I wanted to be special, unique to you.

“I want to hear you say it once more.” I whispered, despite me.

“I love you.” you said softly.

You slowly lowered yourself on me. I could feel everything around me slowly fade away; nothing mattered but you. Nothing could make me live at this moment but you.

I wrapped my arms around your neck and pulled your lips to mine. I wanted to convey all these feelings that welled up in my heart, all the passion I had for you. I could feel your heart beat at the same rate as mine. It made me happy to know you felt just like I did.

I didn’t feel time pass. I didn’t want time to pass. I wanted to be with you forever. As our lips parted, I gazed at you beside me, out of breath. We held on to each other as if we could stop time this way, hoping time would take pity on us. Never would I let you go at that moment. For you are mine at this moment, as I am yours.

“Never let me go.” I whispered.

“I’d never let the miracle that you are fade away.” you replied softly.

I wanted to lose myself in your eyes filled with love. I wanted to make this night eternal, so that you’d never leave again. But I knew you’d have to leave early. I knew that I’d have to wake up and find you gone, as if I had lost you. So many times had I lost you before and the thought of one more time made my heart ache.

I buried myself in your chest, as if I wanted to make myself realize you were really here with me. As if it could change the fact that you were going to go away at the break of dawn.

“Please… Don’t leave me.” I begged in a whisper.

I felt your arms wrap themselves around me tightly, as if I could be taken away from you at any moment.

“I won’t. If you want me by your side, I’ll stay forever.” you reassured, fading away all the anxiety I felt.

I lost myself as you held me against your heart. But the thought of you leaving tugged at my soul, making my fear grow even more. I didn’t want you to feel burdened by me. I wanted to be with you eternally, always by my side. But you had to go sing for them, your fans. You loved them so much; I felt jealous, incredibly so.

As the thought of seeing you in another undetermined time broke my heart, I clung unto you more, feeling a sudden surge of tears well up in my eyes. You felt me tremble; you got worried. You tenderly held my chin and gently lifted it, concerned. Your eyes interrogated me for this change in my mood. I couldn’t help but look away as I felt a tear escape.

You wiped it away slowly, asking me with your angelic voice what was wrong.

“I only want you for myself…” I whispered, ashamed of my jealousy.

You kissed my nose softly and looked at me with affectionate eyes.

“And you have me. My heart belongs to you only.” you answered lovingly.

I couldn’t help but melt at those words. You took a hold of my hand and kissed it tenderly so. You then lead it gently and placed it against your chest; I could feel myself fall in a daze as I felt your heart beat at an erratic speed.

“You’re the only one who makes my heart beat this much.” you told me with passionate eyes. “No one will ever make me look away from you. Ever.”

My heart fluttered; I loved every single word that left your lips. I had no words to answer. I could only take a hold of your face as I pressed my lips against yours with the fever of true love. You kissed me back with just as much passion, tightening your grip on me.

At that moment, you were the only thing that kept me alive, driving me insane with your love and passion. My other half, my missing puzzle piece. You gave meaning to my life, to everything I felt so confused about. I felt like my heart couldn’t contain it, like it would explode so much I loved you. But I didn’t care.

I just wanted you.

Forever by my side.

The sun’s rays shone on me; it kissed my skin softly. I slowly opened my eyes; everything around seemed hazy. As my mind slowly recollected itself, I remembered the night before. You and I, kissing under the moonlight, as if the world only consisted of us two.

I reached out for you beside me.

You weren’t there.

I knew you would be gone and bitterness filled me. Another period of longing, of waiting for you. I closed my eyes shut and placed my hand against them; the sunlight couldn’t reach them as I did. Another period of darkness stood in front of me, another period without you.

The silence comforted yet frightened me. I wanted to hear your voice, to feel your touch.

I love you, Jaejoong.

I love you so much…

I felt someone hold my hand and uncovering my eyes; the sunlight came back. I opened them slowly, weary. Your mirage appeared as if in a daze in front of me. You held a plate with various fruits, delicately sliced, and an angelic smile adorned your lips.

“I made breakfast for you.” you said sweetly, gently, as you placed the plate beside me.

I couldn’t believe you hadn’t left. I couldn’t believe you had stayed with me. I felt happiness welling up inside my heart; I sat up slowly as you gazed at me with tenderness. I took a slice of fresh mango and, instead of eating it, lead it towards your mouth.

You couldn’t help but laugh gently before opening wide. I placed it into your mouth slowly and watched you chew it, giddiness filling my mind.

“I thought you left for your upcoming album preparations.” I said simply, a smile on my lips.

“Nope. It’s all about you today.” you whispered lovingly.

Those words made me feel weak, feverish. You had woken up early to make me breakfast, slicing various fruits. You had taken a day off work for me, to spend time with me. You were smiling at me, just like the first time we met. Little had I known that this would become our everyday reality, as you asked for my hand a few years after.

Even now, as our first child made her first steps, my heart still skips a beat as I see you hold her protectively, as a father. You then look at me and give me that radiant smile I could never get tired of seeing.

Our relationship had endured separation and insecurity, but we have held on through the end. Even as we go a long while back, I know that our life together was just beginning.

I hope to grow old with you and, even if our hair will be sparked with white, I won’t forget to love you. Even if death nears us towards the end of our life, I will hold your hand tightly and face it together, as soulmates.

I love you, Jaejoong.

Eternally so.

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Thank you guys for reading! I hope you enjoyed it~.

I wasn't a fan of Jaejoong at first, but I think I became one, just a little bit by writing this. xD

Please do comment <3 I want to know what you guys thought of it, so I can improve for my next oneshots. :3