~JaeJoong~

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I was watching Yunho heavily from afar as he was fixing his clothes.. really.. .. he's not really going to the rooftop.. is he?

"He's really.. going.." Yoochun mumbled behind me

I nodded

"He's blinded by his grief and love.. Otoke?" I mumbled

"Let him go.. It won't do him any harm if he.. goes.." Changmin said

Junsu then walked up to him and tapped him on his shoulder

"Looking hot huh?" Junsu smiled

Yunho winked

"Of course!!"

All of us chuckled and even though the laugh wasn't really.. out of happiness.. but more of awkwardness and being worried about him.. it was such a relief to see him smile a bit..

"I'll.. go then.." Yunho said

"Knock her out!" Changmin cheered

"Make her happy!" Yoochun cheered

"Yunho Hwaiting!!" Junsu cheered

Yunho's eyes landed on me and I nodded slowly

"Tell her your feelings.."

Yunho looked at me as if he was hesitating because of my words

I smiled

"Girls will never get tired of hearing what you feel about her.. " I said

Yunho's facial expression showed me relief and he nodded

When we heard the door close Junsu spun around

"It doesn't feel right.." Junsu said sadly

"Pretending and all" Changmin agreed

I tapped Junsu on his shoulder

"In order to make Yunho happy.. I guess.. we'll just bear with it.. The reality is right around the corner.. No matter how far he's running.. He won't be able to escape from it.." I said and sat down on the couch

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~YUnho~

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I stopped myself from walking up to the door, to get out on the rooftop

"What.. am I doing?" I whispered

I looked at the gift in my hands as I sighed heavily. There's no way.. that she'll.. be there..
But even though the brain was trying to persuade me.. to go back.. my heart kept telling me something else.. and I guess.. I wanted to follow my heart

My feet started to move again and soon i was outside . I looked around and then back on the gift.

"Why am I doing this..?" I mumbled

I took a deep breath and closed the door and looked around. I decided to walk around the corner as the darkness were surrounding me

Just as I expected.. nothing... here..

Even though I knew there was nothing here.. My eyes kept flicker around and search for something

All of sudden the whole place lightened up and I stared at the lights that were hanging freely from the poles on the rooftop

I dropped the gift to the ground as I stared at it

There was some kind of lights , hanging on the left pole to the right, following some kind of rope

But my eyes stopped at the heart shaped, red lights in the middle

I stared at the heart shape light as I saw a sign standing on the ground with red letters

"Saranghae~~ Y<3S"

Tears started to fall as I saw the picture hanging in the middle of the heart shaped lights. The picture that I treasured the most.. Us kissing from all four seasons at the same place

I covered my face as I started to cry harder and I kept staring at it

How .. did this happen?

How..

I fell down onto my knees and started to cry harder as I looked at it

"Selina.. this were suppose to be our.. Valentine.. right?" I sobbed

I looked at the picture.. and everything

"Am I dreaming or is this really happening?"

I started to cry harder as I felt my heart starting to ache. I should've never gone in the first place to the rooftop. It just made me realize how much I missed her.. and loved her.. how I longed for her voice.. Longed for Her..

"HYUNG!!!"

Changmin's frightened voice was heard from behind but I couldn't respond

"WHAT THE....." I heard JaeJoong mumble

"Hyung...!" Junsu said and bended down next to me

Once again I broke down and I leaned onto Junsu embrace as I was closing my eyes and crying

"I miss her so much... I miss her.. terribly.. Otoke?" I cried

Soon I could hear Changmin sob and Junsu as well. Junsu were shaking because he was crying and I felt his arms around me tightened

"We know Hyung.. We miss her too" Junsu comforted while crying

"Let's take him out of here.." JaeJoong said

The members helped me up and took me away from the rooftop and down back to the dorm..

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~Selina~

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I started to walk towards the spot where I had just seen the guys take Yunho away and with an aching heart as well as tears falling I approached the big golden box on the ground

"Maybe.. this.. wasn't such a good.. idea after all.." I sobbed

I pressed the button and all the lights went out as I looked at the gift..

I'm pretty sure that.. this gift was mean for me.. wasn't it..

I touched it slightly ...

I decided to not open it until I got back to the house so I put it in the big bag I had brought along and then i stood up to look at the lights and the pictures..

Maybe.. it was too painful...
I started to feel guilty as I looked at the lights..

I shouldn't have done it..

"Who are you?"

The sudden voice gave me a fright as I spun around in fear to see yoochun standing there looking at me

I didn't say anything as he approached me

"What..are you doing here?" He asked

"Uhm.. I was just.."

"Taking some fresh air?" He smiled

I chuckled and nodded

"I see.. well..it's beautiful at night.. isn't it?" He said and looked all over the town..

"Nae~~"

He looked around and sighed heavily

"Why are you sighing?" I asked

Yoochun started to kick something invisible with his feet as he looked at me

"Nothing.. "

"Something's troubling you.."

He chuckled

"How do you know?" He asked

"Feeling.." I smirked

He laughed again

"You're really observant.."

"Maybe.."

I can't express with words how happy I was to talk to Yoochun.. But I have to watch my words..

"Did you see.. my friends.. here earlier?"

I quieten and looked at him, the lights and then back at him

I shook my head slowly

"Well.. I kind of missed the whole thing the guys told me about then" He said a bit disappointed

"Missed the thing?" I asked

He nodded

"You see.. One of my .. friend's.. girlfriend.. passed away.. her funeral.. was held yesterday.. and he's.. not in a very good shape.. .. aish.. it's a long story" he said and scratched the back of his head

I looked at him

"I have time.."

He looked up at me and somehow, I felt that his eyes were searching for something

"What is it?" I asked

He looked away and laughed embarrassed

"Mianhe~~.. It's just that.. I have a hard time to open myself up to someone.. but for some reason.. I kind of.. just talked to you.. and I don't even know you.. kind of weird..since there's only one person that manages to do that.. " He confessed

JACKPOT!

"Oh.. really..?" I asked

He nodded

He then laughed embarrassed again

"I think I'm talking to much.. Mianhe~~" he said

"It's ok.. Whenever you feel like talking.. just talk.." I encouraged him

He looked at me again a bit confused..

"Scary..." He mumbled and looked away

"What is?"

"Uhm.. uhh .. Anyway.. I went to the rooftop since I'm looking for a golden box.. really big one.. Have you seen it?" He said avoiding my question

I remembered the box that I had put inside my big bag

I looked at him.. and then pretending to look around.. I knew that the box was for me

"Uhm.. Aniyo.. I just .. got here.." I lied

"Oh.. Well.. pity.. " He said

I nodded

He then looked at his clock and looked at me

"I guess.. it's my time to leave.. Nice talking to you..." He said waiting for my answer

"Se..."

He waited

"Uhm.. Yuki!" I said

"Seyuki?" He asked a bit confused

"No.. Just Yuki!" I said a bit fast, trying to cover it up

"Ahh.. I see.. I'm Yoochun.. Nice to meet you.. and good night!"

He soon left and I let out a sigh of relief

That was close.. way to close

I decided to leave the lights til' the next day and I hurried down to my car and went home

AS soon as I got inside the my new apartment, I locked the door and changed into Pjs . I brushed my teeth and walked over to my bed with the golden box in my hands

With shaking hands I opened it and looked at the big bear

Inside the bears pocket I saw something brown and golden and I took it out. I gasped as my eyes widened. I stared at the small photobook
Afraid of opening it.. afraid of.. seeing what was in it

Feeling my heart's beats I opened it slowly to see the first page

I recognized the picture from our first date

I started to look through the photobook and as I kept looking tears were streaming down .. I wasn't able to hold it all back in

But the last page was the most beautiful picture..
The same picture that I had put inside the red heart shaped lights.. on the rooftop, the same picture was inside the photobook..

I guess that this picture was the picture that we cherished the most..

Picture of us, with the sunrise going up as the background with the us kissing each other...

The text under it.. made me cry even more..

"As much as the sun rises above you, I'll keep you safe. As much as you've waited for me.. With this glaring heart, All the dreams I've prayed for, they're going towards you with my sincere scent, More than the air I breathe.."

I closed the book and pressed it right where my heart was beating

I think I've never realized how much.. how precious he was to me..

It all just made sense and everyday that passes becomes so clear..

I put the book back inside the bears stomach and looked at the bear while crying

"I won't loose you. I refuse to.. Just wait for me.. a little more.. Yunho.. Just a little more.."