Refusing
Right Next To You~Selina~
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In the morning I started to feel different. Not awkward or so just .. different
I opened my eyes and looked around and soon i recognized myself lying in JaeJoong's bedroom with his big T shirt on. I sat up slowly and I looked at the clock..
10 am..
The guys must have probably gone to school by now.. as for me.. I didn't attend anymore. The time was running out on me and I couldn't afford to loose a second of it..
I got up from bed and walked straight to the bathroom where I washed myself and straight after, i changed clothes and went to the livingroom
It was quiet as usual, not a single sound could be heard and I entered the kitchen to see a small note along with a tray, food prepared ready to be eaten
I opened the letter and recognized JaeJoong's handwriting
"Mornin' ! I'll be back by 11 am since I only have one class today. I made you and Yunho some breakfast.. Although, I guess you will be the only one eating it.. I'll see you soon..
- Jae"
I smiled slightly at the letter
"What are you doing here?"
I spun around and heard the hoarse voice, tired and exhausted. He entered and dragged his feet towards the zink, grabbed a glass and poured some water
"Yunho.. You're up" I mumbled
"Mhm.."
I sensed that something was different with him.. really really different
"Gwenc...hana?" I said slowly
He finished the glass in one shot and then he looked at me
"I'm fine.. why wouldn't I?" He said
This isn't Yunho.. Yunho's kind.. and warm.. not cold ..
"What's wrong with you? did something happen?"
He looked at me weirdly, as if he was trying to figure out something but then he just shrugged, left me in the kitchen and went back to his bedroom
"Yunho.."
I followed him and when I got close to his door, he just slammed it in my face and I heard the key twist and then.. the door was locked
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~JaeJoong~
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"She's .. HERE! She really is!!" Junsu squealed happily as we were carrying the bags and walking home.
I looked at the clock again to see it was almost 1:30.. I had written in the letter that I'd be back at 11.. but the class.. well.. it ended later than usual and then all three of us had to go to the grocery store to buy food... or else.. we would probably starve
"I mean.. she's really.. here.. ALIVE!" Yoochun said happily
I laughed with them as Changmin couldn't hold back his happiness as well
"I'm so happy!!" Changmin cheered
We couldn't stop laughing . Seriously, we hadn't been smiling like this.. ever since.. we.. 'lost' her..
"You think .. she'll make it?" Junsu said and broke the silence
"Make what?" I asked
"Yunho.. time.. the days?" Junsu asked
"She has to" Yoochun said
"We'll help her" Changmin said
"But.. she said.. we cannot tell him..and we.. I don't know.." Junsu stammered
"We'll just.. stay around and help her. Whatever she tell us to do, we'll do it.. This is a second chance guys.. We cannot screw it up" I said determined
"I agree with Hyung. We might not be able to tell Yunho but we are able to help her.. and I guess.. all we have to do is.. to force Yunho to kind of.. spend time with her or something.. in that way she will realize that it's.. her" Changmin said
"Well .. it's been hard lately.. He barely leaves his room" I said
"Not really.. he's comfortable around Yuki.. isn't he?" Yoochun said
"Yes.." I said slowly
"And.. he do likes her.. and cares about her.. He changes.. when .. she's with him.. right?" Junsu said
I nodded
"We'll.. that's basically.. it. The more she spends time at our house.. the more.. he will get to know her.. so it's just a question about time until he finds out" Junsu cheered
I nodded
"But it's.. less than 2 weeks.." I sighed
"Omo~~ I don't even want to think about it.." Changmin said
I shook my head
"What do you think will happen.. if.. she really.. doesn't..make it?" Yoochun asked
All four of us stopped right away and faced each other. Yoochun swallowed hardly
"What if.. she.."
"Don't say it" I said
"But.. we have to be realistic" Yoochun said
" We are.." I said
"Not really.. We're just thinking about how to help her. but we have to plan, adjust to the time and really think about it carefully.. if something goes wrong.. we WILL loose her again" Yoochun said
I dropped the bags on the green grass and stepped up to Yoochun
"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT AGAIN!!" I said frustrated
"Yah.. Yah.. Hyung! CAlm down!!" Junsu said and walked in between us
I controlled my breathing slowly and I closed my eyes just to take a deep breath
"Sorry.. I.. didn't know.. what got into me.." I mumbled
"It's ok.. We know.... You do care a lot about her.. But so do we" Yoochun said
"Let's.. just go home.. first ok?.. and then talk to her about it.. she must .. have some ideas.. or anything.." Changmin suggested
We agreed to talk to Selina and hurried home. As we got into the dorm, I started to feel that my hart started to beat faster again and I started to get excited since I was going to meet her again
All four of us passed the livingroom and as soon as we entered the kitchen, we saw Selina sitting by the dining table, her hands covering her face as she was braething heavily
"selina?" I asked
She looked up
"Oh.. You're here"
I saw the tired face, the exhausted expression. I looked behind her and saw that the breakfast I made earlier was untouched
"Gwenchana?" Changmin asked
"You..look.. devastated" Junsu asked worriedly
"You.. haven't eaten" I stuttered and looked at her
She folded her arms tiredly and walked towards us
"I couldn't.." She mumbled
"wae? Something happened?" Yoochun asked
"Yunho.. it's something.. wrong with him" She said
"Mwoh? NOW? What happened?!" I asked
She shook her head
"Not in that way.. more like.. he has changed"
"Changed?" I asked slowly
She nodded
"He was so cold to me.. this morning.. and he locked him inside his room, and.. hasn't left ever since" She said
I looked at the rest of the members and they were surprised like I was
"But.. I thought you.. two .." I said but Selina cut in
"We don't get along.. not anymore.. I can't even talk to him.."
"But.. what.. in.." Yoochun started
Selina sighed
"That's exactly what I've been asking myself too.." She said tiredly
"Where is he now?" Changmin asked
"His bedroom"
"But.. He likes you" I protested
She shook her head
"He hasn't answered or anything when I knocked on his door .." Selina said
I grabbed Selina's hand and walked towards Yunho's door with the others. I knocked on the door and no one answered
"Yunho.. It's me" I said and knocked again
No answer
"Hyung!!" Changmin said and knocked
"HYUNG!!!" Junsu said and started to bang the door
"He won't open" Selina said
I sighed
"YUNHO!!!" I shouted
"DO YOU MIND LEAVING ME ALONE?!?!?!?" I heard Yunho shout from his bedroom
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" Yoochun shouted
"WHERE'S YUKI?!"
I looked down on her and she shook her head
"DID SHE LEAVE?!" Yunho shouted
Selina nodded and gestured me to tell him that she wasn't there
"YES!" I shouted
I could hear that Yunho were approaching the door and Selina instantly ran towards Yoochun's bedroom and hid behind the door
The door unlocked and I saw YUnho open it and he really.. really.. looked.. I don't know.. Terrible?
"What in.." I stuttered
"Don't bring Yuki back here" Yunho said coldly
"Wae?" Changmin asked
"I thought you guys.. were comfortable with each other" I said
"Not anymore.. I have to stay away from her"
All of us quieten
"Mwoh?" I asked
Yunho nodded
"When she's around.. I.. keep forgetting.. Selina.. and I can't do that.. I can't forget her.. It's not fair to Selina"
"But.." Changmin started
"NO BUTS! JUST DON'T LET HER VISIT ME ANYMORE!! SHE'S MAKING ME FORGET SELINA AND I EVEN HAD THIS WEIRD DREAM ABOUT ME KISSING HER!! I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT! I'LL BE UNFAITHFUL SELINA THEN!!" Yunho said angrily
"What the hell is wrong with you man?!" I shouted
Yunho glared at me
"Just .. tell her to stay out of my life ok? I won't let her into my life"
Like that he just shut the door right in our faces
"What has gotten into him?" Changmin asked
"He's.. scared that he might loose Selina.." Yoochun whispered
I could hear something.. a very sad sound
I followed it to Yoochun's room and of course.. no other than Selina.. were standing there and crying silently
I knew that this were going to be hard.. but I thought.. that it would be easy.. somewhere since.. after all.. Yunho and 'Yuki' did get along well
I walked towards Selina and took her in my arms
i sighed frustrated as I was hugging her, comforting her..
23 days.. and now.. Yunho refuses to see her..
And I thought this were going to work out..
What do we do now?
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