Yoseob POV.

 

  2 months, 2 whole months without him. Without his cuddles, hugs, kisses. 

 

 

I made the wrong decision after all.

 

 

Why would he love someone like me? I can't even let him go.

 

 

Junhara. Yes, he's dating Hara. 

 

 

Of course. Why not? Hara. She has the perfect body, perfect voice, perfect everything. 

 

 

Me? Perfect nothing.

 

 

I've moved out of the dorm, I just can't stay in the same house as him. I just can't. He'll bring Hara back, kiss her, hug her, cuddle her. 

 

 

That should be me, not her. Blame me for not being as perfect as her. She'll make him smile right? She'll help him forget me right? He'll forget me right?

 

 

Of course he will. I sigh, letting the tears fall, wetting the pillow even more. If you haven't figure it out, yes I'm crying. This is how I spend most of my nights, crying over him. Childish right? He was my life, he still is, but now he's gone. My life is gone. 

 

 

Why am I still in this world? I don't even know. I should just..disappear.

 

 

I used to not care about anything that can hurt me. But Junhyung. I can't. He's my life. I don't know. If I disappear, maybe the pain will disappear too. I won't have to go through all this thing. 

 

 

No. You can't, Yoseob. You  can't escape from the pain. You have to face it. Don't be so useless. Come on. Just..forget him.

 

 

Forgetting him seems easy to you, but to me. It's impossible. 

 

 

Again today, I'm alone. But , my heart sense something. Something gonna happen. What's gonna happen?

 

 

Please.. I don't wanna see him with her again. My heart breaks into pieces seeing them together. I