I woke up in the same position that I fell asleep in, laying on the cold tile floor of my bathroom, clutching the hand towel. The only thought still running through my mind was how I’m going insane. I slowly got up and made my way out of the bathroom and walking into the kitchen to get something to drink. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw what was on the counter. A letter and a single rose, I walked the rest of the way over and grabbed the letter and read what it said.

He wants to make me suffer, fear was consuming my whole body, and I knew that’s what he wanted me to feel. I dropped the letter to floor, watching how it slowly fell all the way to the ground, landing right next to my feet. I picked up the single rose that laid on my counter top, and put it in a vase that I had on my counter filled with all the roses Kyungsoo had left me, some dead and some very much alive. I lifted the vase to my nose, and breathed in the scent, the calming sent of roses. A smile spread across my face as I thought of Kyungsoo bringing more roses. As quick as the smile appeared on my face, it disappeared. Again the only explanation for it is that I’m going insane.

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I laid down on my bed with a smile on my face, my fingers played with a rose Kyungsoo left for me. My fingers glided along the silky petals, the flower was beautiful. The only thing on my mind was Kyungsoo, I miss him. I don’t know why but I do. I want to go back to him, be back in his strong arms. If I just stayed with him I could have been happy and my mom wouldn’t be dead. My mom is dead because of me and I feel guilty about it every day, I should have just stayed with him. Stayed with the man I’m starting to love. I don’t know why I’m starting to love him, but I do. I know I’ll be with him again, someday.

Kyungsoo, his name ran through my mind over and over again. All the