"Life as a fangirl is pretty much the same. 

Since the first time you put your eyes on the idol, you feel like there are something special about him. You try to search on everything about him, the things he likes, his favourite food, his ideal type, his birthdate, even his blood type. You watch every single performances, you stayed up late at night just to see him in variety shows and dramas. To people around you it's a waste. To you, it's a cure to the pain and sickness that you got from your reality life. You buy his albums and merchandises just to make yourself close to him. You tlak about him all day and night. Your friends got tired easily of your delusional love story, but you ignore them. You ignore all the guys that try to approach you because you promised that you will meet and marry your idol someday. You even cried thinking about this "relationship" that has never happened yet you become so protective over it

You become obsessed over him"

It's been 10 years since the first time I watched their music video and became their fan. Zelo has always been my favourite rapper, dancer and maknae and I'm so in love with him. Yet, although I'm a huge Baby, I have never meet them nor attended their concerts before. Although that, I always support them wholeheartedly and love them more each single day. 

Yet,

I can't do that anymore. I'm getting married in 3 days with my fiancee. I've tried to stop caring about B.A.P but I couldn't do it. I cried all day thinking about them and especially Zelo. My fiancee has always hated my obsession and he even cursed me whenever I mention about them. I know, it's hard, but it's time for me to let them go. 

Goodbye B.A.P

Goodbye Zelo