Yesung's POV

It was almost 2 months ago when KyuHyun proposed to me, im so happy even the pain that my Appa won't me on my wedding hunts me, i wish he was here, i wish Jongjin is here, i wish that i have them both and i would be complete.

"Baby what's bothering you" Oww A sweet KyuHyun asked, he become sweet after he proposed to me and cold to others well not as cold as before, like giving them a stare like What-the--is-wrong-why-are-you-keep-staring-at-me look. 

"Ah i was just thinking if i can say to the Patissier if she can design our wedding cake with turtles" i lie, again, he still didn't know about what happens to Appa and Jongjin.

"Ahh, i guess i can add some design from starcraft too" Said KyuHyun and he smiles, he hold my hand while his one hand was on the steering wheel and i lean on his shoulders

"I hope Appa and Jongjin would be in our wedding, i can't contact them" Said he, my tears were going down again he stop the car and stare at me and he cupped my cheeks in his both hands,

"Why are you crying baby?" and he kiss my lips "Kyu" i sob again and he hugs me "Hush baby, what happened?" He asked again

"Kyu do, do you remember when we get back earlier than we planned before, when we were from Rome, are yoou not wondering why i go away immediately to Cheonan?" I sob more as he was keep caressing my back "Hush baby, calm down first, remember you have some cases of panic attacks, please baby calm down" and he hug me tight "They die KyuHyun, they die on the car accident" i said and from a tight hug it slowly loosend up he slightly push me away and look at me in the eye,

"My god Yesung, why did you need it to hide it from me?" He asked and a bit hurt was on his eyes

"I'm sorry KyuHyun, I don't want to burden you anymore" i said and he look at me sharply

"Do you think i will think that you're a burden?" he asked and i apologized aga

"It was my fault" He said and i looked at him puzzled

"What?" I asked softly

"It was my fault why you have a panic attack, it was my fault why you we're been depressed" he said and tears started to fall too

"No, it was-" i was cut off by him

"I promised to your Appa that i will take care of you but i fail, i didn't even notice that you were suffering that much, You always makes me great all the time but i didn't help you with you're problems, im so unfair to you" he said and i shake my head

"No Kyu, You