TIFFANY'S POV

i am now at my room it's been days now since jessi and i talked and it's killing me i miss her so badly. this is my fault right?this is what i wanted for her to stay away from me. the reason why i'm not spending time with her like we used to is because i'm falling for her..the way she stares, the way she smiles, the way she zoned out, everything about her makes me fall for her. i'm afraid that she didnt like me the way i like her. i'm afraid that people might judge us. i'm afraid of everything. a knock on my door stop my thoughts

" fany are you there?" taeyeon shouted

" come in"

" hey fany are you okay? why are you crying?" taeyeon asked worried. crying? oh i didnt notice im crying already. taeyeon sat beside me and hug me. taeyeon was the only one in the group who knows that i like jessi that's why i'm always with her. taeyeon actually confessed to me that she love me more that friends but i told her that i dont love her more than friends . she just understand me she's the only one who knows my secrets. when she knew that i love jessi she just said that i should confess i've tried many times but i'm such a coward i always got nervous and scared when i get closer to her.

" fany sleep now we have concert tomorrow remember? rest now" taeyeon said then tuck me in bed. she kissed my forehead.

" tiff?" jessi! did she saw that?

" jessi! i-umm-"

" do you need something sica?" taeyeon asked.

" nothing. nevermind. sorry seems like i've disturbed you guys" jessi said

" jessi it's not-"

" whatever" i was about to explain but jessi leave already.

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it's aready our concert jessi is still ignoring me. i'm here backstage waiting for jessi's performance. i wonder what will she sang i didnt saw her rehearse. seobaby told me jessi is going to sing while playing piano but i didnt know jessi can play piano. oh it's starting. oh god she looks like an angel. she started playing the piano

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be

How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say is I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I shoulda made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I shoulda broke the rules

I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into
If it happens now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you