It was a while back, everyone in this country has fallen in depravity. Feeling angry or depressed all the time.

Hell, I was like that also. Being lonely..sad, angry, bitter. Feeling like all the time just eats away at you. People of my city felt the same. We knew we all had the same trouble,but the we refused to help each other.

Then the government stepped in. That’s when order came into control. They handed us drugs. Drugs to make us feel better.People who were tired or sad all the time were cured immediately. Those who were insecure or were scared of the world, no longer had those problems. I tried it once. It was an intoxicating sensation that leaves your body numb and wanting more. They say we had reached a golden age.

No. It was chaos.It was a while back, everyone in this country has fallen in depravity. Feeling angry or depressed all the time.

Hell, I was like that also. Being lonely..sad, angry, bitter. Feeling like all the time just eats away at you. People of my city felt the same. We knew we all had the same trouble,but the we refused to help each other.

Then the government stepped in. That’s when order came into control. They handed us drugs. Drugs to make us feel better.People who were tired or sad all the time were cured immediately. Those who were insecure or were scared of the world, no longer had those problems. I tried it once. It was an intoxicating sensation that leaves your body numb and wanting more. They say we had reached a golden age.

No. It was chaos.

Only I and a couple of others were to realize....

Our humanity was deprived from us.

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|prologue|

I can already feel it.

The darkness seeping through my skin and perpetrating into my bones. The madness already installing into my head. The voice of reality telling me to stop trying. Just life telling me to stop living.

It wasn't always like this. I had a nice life. Good friends, nice parents. I did well in school that got me a scholarship to my dream college. It was all good.

Until a wave of sadness and anger just came over me.

It was sudden. I got angry over the smallest things. I started crying every night. I hated everything I used to like. I treated others like crap and I didn't take their feelings into consideration. I was more rebellious than ever and did things I regretted.

Going outside once just made me realized how everyone was the same. We all started to fall. Jobs were lost, more shootings in the cities, danger around every corner. It was all over for us. People started to lose purpose in living life. Depression took over their minds and controlled their bodies to achieve a game over. You can say it was the end of the world as destruction took over. And yet, no one helped each other.

The government took a while to realized what was going on. I can already picture their sly grin as they sent out these packets of colored pills to the market. I never realized what they were until I had seen my parents buying  and drinking it.

Human feelings in one take. A rehabilitation of natural human emotions in one, small, T2 sized tabled. The yellow pill produced delight or euphoria. Pink was love. Light blue was hope. Green was serenity. Purple was peace. Red was courage.

The demand for those drugs were high. Every morning I see people gathering around the markets just to buy a dozen of packets. I even tried some myself as my parents had bought them for the household. I swallowed the one for joy because generally I also felt like it would work.

It did. I felt happier. I felt like a new person that can do anything. An overwhelming sensation that left my body numb and wanting more. So I bought more. It started out small at first. Just a few tablets every week. Then it grew to every month, week, day, night. It was an addiction.

One day, I stepped outside of my house after taking the red drink. I walked down the streets of the city, seeing everyone happy and smiling. The sky was a bright blue and the sun shined heavily. I picked out the yellow pellet and smiled...crookedly. I downed it in one go, already feeling the effects rushing into my chest.

“Hey,”

I chuckled to myself and turned to the owner of the voice. He wore a black trench coat, gloves and hat. He had a black mask on and sunglasses. On a hot day like this? Really?

“Want this for free? It’s a new one to feel even happier than ever.” The mysterious man took out a dark blue color. I eyed him for a moment, debating if I should take it.

“ It will make you see things in a new perspective”

I smirked and took the small capsule of medicine,”Thanks”

I walked away without even thinking about what it could be. It was free, how can I ever pass that offer? Plus, it looked like the other blue content.

Not caring what happens, I gulped the dose, expecting to feel like the happiest person in the world.

“Ahh~” I smiled as I returned the rest of the packages into my pocket.

It most certainly brought a new perspective into my eyes. The moment I blinked, my head was throbbing as a headache crept out of nowhere. I looked at my surroundings. My breath hitched and my eyes widened.

The bright blue sky was overturned into a dark,dusty brown sky. The sun was hidden behind the clouds. People still smiled and laughed every day,but this time there was a fabricated truth in their voice. It felt stone-cold and hollow. I was utterly confused as I walked crookedly down the road back home. The previous people I saw had a shaking,absent-minded expression. Eyes void with no life.

My breathing went heavy as I couldn't take the scene. A cold wind whispered into my ears and shook me. I made it back home, thinking everything was still fine.

Opening the front door, a breeze and smell of oblivion overcame me. Seeing my family consuming more than 5 packs..Seeing the lies in their corrupted and deceitful chuckles and giggles made me want to throw up

I slowly backed out the house, turning around and running out the whole neighborhood, scared to watch anyone drown themselves in anymore poison. I don’t know where to go anymore..The people in the city are as frightening as my household..

What is going on? How come I never saw this before? I ended up in an empty field, the tall grass were dried up and prickly,  just outside civilization. I inhaled the smell of the air filled with pollution.

All this time.. Humanity has been abusing these bottles of emotions. At first glance, they were helpful to society, but I had come to realize that they’re nothing but drugs. Drugs that have completely annihilated human feelings. And to make matters worse..

I was one of them.

Sadist Author's note:

so yeah..what do you guys think? got exciting things for this story.

warning: foul language and umm maybe violence? still dont know.

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