p/s : please hear to this song while reading this story. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptXXWOjRAv8

Wearing nice attire, together with his production team like has been schedule he held the mini concert at his town of Anyang. Even though it not much been advertise but still got an awesome numbers of fans who attend the concert not just around the people around Anyang but from various capital of Korea. Observe to the crowd in front of him make him proud but he more thankful for the support he received from his fans. Being 18 years in the industry, he never expected he still can be active and had a lot of fans since the first day he enter the industry as part of duo group Turbo. From one song to another he sings earnestly giving his best for his fans.

“For now I’ll sing one of the song that I rarely sing… from my third album. All of us had a friend and friend are among a precious in my life… so here Chinguege, hope you enjoy it”

Shwiun ibyol daga olkabwa nappun mosub boyo julkabwa nesonul jabgo godgie

jinan ibyol ajig nomu giphi nama idanun gude

gwenhan mare mianhadago sure chwihe guron gorago pyonanhan maumi kojyoso

nado ne maumul jamshi chakaghedon go gathdago olbomuryojyo

Afraid of breaking up, afraid of betraying weaknesses, hesitating to hold hands

Because of the lingering effect of the last breakup

I’m sorry for saying those useless words, I’m feeling drunk, I’m feeling more and more comfortable with you

It seems like my heart has been fluttering

Upon singing one by one his memory with his ex-girlfriend comes to his mind. Six times he had been in love, six times also he had experience the break up until he become afraid… afraid to be in relationship, afraid to be closed with a girl until she comes to his live. Although how much he wants to denied his feelings but she already captured in his heart… but the afraid of past breakup still torturing his mind so cowardly he just address her as his friend. His female best friend… Song Ji Hyo.

“Oppa…who I’m to you”

“You’re my best friend Ji Hyo-yah”

Really he feels regret to said those words to her. In his mind he wanted to say his love, he wanted become more than her best friend but he scared it just a sided love, he scare the effect happen in their relationship, he afraid she will ignore him as to lose her in his life is among the fearful things he had imagine.

Mundug bogo shiphul te, pyonhi jonhwarul goro, mashinun bab hanki jongdo

hal su inun gogejyo

johun saram mannamyon jeil monjo boyo jundan yagsogul

Jogumun chonchonhi jokhyodo doel tende

Whenever you want to see me just call me and have a meal with me

Can you promise to do this whenever you want to see me?

Whoever finds a good match will first tell each other

You really don’t need to keep this promise

The memory of having their meal together after the filming and their chatting in their daily life recalls in his mind. Even its simply the simple greeting of good morning, how are you today or even good night it still can bring happiness in his heart. For him she is the first he would greet once he wake up and the last before he sleep. Being a celebrity with a hectic schedule sometimes do make him tired, but he never fails even once to keep in touch with her until…

“Song Ji Hyo is in a relationship with C-JES Entertainment’s CEO”

The news that break up his heart, the news that shutter him…. All this time watching her with her onscreen boyfriend do make him jealous but he know it’s just for a show but to reads this heart breaking news it’s shock him but it’s pain him more.

honjadmari manha jyossoyo, gudel mannago jibe omyon, onurun yunanhi yeppogo

nanun senggagmankhum shwibge jongridoeji anundago mianhadago

I keep talking to myself, staying with you for a while before I go back home, makes it a beautiful day for me

It’s a lot more difficult to express myself than I had thought and I’m sorry for that

“Oppa, why you avoiding me? Did you hate me?”

It’s stun him upon received the question from her. Watching her pitiful face do regret him for his act… yes, since the news appear he do avoiding her, he do try to hate her but he can’t…

I hate you that I love you…

Mundug bogo shiphul te pyonhi jonhwarul goro mashinun bab hanki jongdo

hal su inun gogejyo

johun saram mannamyon jeil monjo boyo jundan yagsogul

Sashil nan jikhyojiji anhgil

Whenever you want to see me, just call me and have a meal with me

Can you promise to do this whenever you want to see me?

Whoever finds a good match will first tell each other

I really want to break this promise

“I’m sorry Ji Hyo-yah, no how could I hate you… I just afraid your boyfriend will get jealous. Anyway congratulation!”

Boyfriend… how he wants to puke to say those word to her

Jealousy… the truth he the one who is in that emotion… he wants to scream, he wants to run away but he knows he must face the reality.

“How could he get jealous… we are just best friend”

Best friend… best friend… best friend

honja gamdanghagie himdun iri senggigodun onjena gu gyothe nega issulgeyo midoyo

mundug bogo shiphul te nal chajado dweyo amu maldo haji anhgo ulgo shiphojilte

hana buthaghalgeyo budi honjaso unun irissoson andweyo na gathun gudenun shirhoyo

Whenever you have any difficulties, that is difficult to cope with yourself trust me and I’m always here for you

Whenever you want to see me, just come to see me, even if you do not want to say anything, even if you just want to cry

One more request please do not cry alone, I don’t want to see you cry alone just like me

Best friend… best friend…

For god sake how much he wanted to coo that title away from them… he wanted more than that with her… He wanted to be her lover, he wanted to be her one man, he wanted to be the one that she love. He wanted to protect her, to give his shoulder that she can lie on, to give her his eternal love… to be her knight, to be her king… He is Adam and she is Eve, He is Romeo and she is Juliet… no he is Kim Jong Kook and she is Kim Ji Hyo. But… he knows it’s already late now.

Without he realize a tear shed from his eyes.

negero wayo 

Please come to me

As soon he finishes the song, rashly he wipe his tears didn’t wants to be noticed by the audience. He give his warm smile as always although he knows its fake before he walks to back stage to rest a little and do some makeover.

Without him knowing at that place one woman walk away leaving the mini concert. In her disguise didn’t wants people to recognize her in slow she walks with her face bend to down. A tears drop from her eyes blur her sight behind her shade, a memory between her and the man touting in her mind.

Jong Kook Oppa if you’re more brave… I love you too.

p/s : credit to JpopAsia for the lyric & ybttsi8585 for the translation