crash and burn

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myungsoo doesn't remember, and sungjong tries his best to cope with being forgotten
myungsoo/sungjong. au. 10k w. rated g.

 

so uhm, this started as a supposedly short extension for fall from grace (so it's better that you read it first before starting with this), but then it somehow got a mind of its own and grew much longer than i first anticipated ;~; legit the longest one-shot i've ever written, and and... this is only part 1. there will be a companion fic and part 2 -- both from other characters' point of views -- coming; not soon, though, but i'll try my best to get them done. many many thanks to Angie bb, without whom i wouldn't be able to finish the fic in the first place. thank you for putting up with me! also thanks to Nin for the insights on what's going on inside sungjong's head, tee hee. seriously, thank you both ♡ 

now, without further ado, enjoy!

Foreword

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By now, he's convinced that the only reason Myungsoo forgot about him was because he hasn't shown enough to make Myungsoo believe that he's as much a center of Sungjong's universe as Sungjong is of Myungsoo's.

Sungjong will do everything to change that, but now totally scraped off of Myungsoo's memory chamber, he doesn't even know where to begin.

In his most desperate time, he's tried to push himself back into Myungsoo's new, broken life and force him to remember -- it's me, it's me Sungjong goddammit, how dare you ever forget about me -- and the outcome scared the crap out of him he so wished he hadn't made the stupid, freaking stupid attempt in the first place.

He'd rather kill himself if it'd kill Myungsoo to be forced to remember anything about him.

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infiniterainbow #1
Chapter 1: Hi! I've just read this. I know this was written years ago, but I happened to stumble upon one of your recent myungjong fics and I loved how you write about them so I did a little stalking and read your other fics and I'm really liking the stories I've read so far including this one!
Myungsoo's sickness kinda reminds me of Drew Barrymore's sickness in 50 First Dates and I like that movie. :D
You describe Sungjong's feelings so well I could feel them myself. It's so beautiful yet so sad at the same time. But the ending gives me hope as much as Sungjong believes it's possible. I hope you would continue this in some future time <3
tokkeiko #2
Chapter 1: crying....
This is so beautiful and bittersweet.
Poor Sungjong for how his life feels like there's a big hole in it. but it goes with the same for Myungsoo and it's just so... bittersweet that even though that Myungsoo doesn't remember who Sungjong is, Sungjong remembers everything about Myungsoo and it's just so sad and beautiful!
Thank you for sharing this!
deliberatemistake #3
Chapter 1: This is so heartbreaking. I mean for Sungjong...Myungsoo is there and it's the same him, he's all alive and from the outside he might still look like his Myungsoo but inside...this is terrible. And for Myungsoo, to wake up the next day and not remember part of his existence...so much angst.

But there is hope...there is hope and I can kiss you for that. Really, that's the ending can calm me down. This is gorgeous really...I feel so relieved.

This is truly beautiful, I loved it even though for most parts I was crashing and burning.
lynnsiow #4
Chapter 1: This is bittersweet.. And it's beautiful.
sweetbox13 #5
Chapter 1: it's a pretty good story and my heart hurts for them.....
sweetbox13 #6
Chapter 1: so uhm.... is Myungsoo suffering from alzheimer's disease here? cause why would he forget the next day Sungjong's name? and heck why is it he can't remember only Sungjong?!
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