My eyes opened automatically when the sunlight that filtered through the window directly hit my face, I was a few seconds still, staring at the ceiling ivory. Today would have to get up early, shower and get ready for my brother to take me to school. Today began a new course. I blinked a few times before rolling to end face down on the mattress, hugging a couple of pillows and burying my face in them. I didn't want getting up, I dindn't want to face back to the routine and forget the halcyon days of summer. They had me leave out some thoughts that had begun to torture my brain, had managed to placate my sleepless nights tossing and turning in bed. I let out a sigh when automatically sounded the shrill alarm melody that was put on my mobile phone rang mercilessly. I held my face in a grimace of disgust and hurried off. I had to get up.

I walked shuffled to the bathroom ready to take a quick shower but I couldn't help yawning a few times while listening to the whispers of my parents downstairs and the deep voice of my brother .

The cold water in the shower woke up me considerably and that made my brain start thinking about things I should not, I rested my forehead against the cold shower wall and closed my eyes, I didn't know how much longer would hold in that situation.

Twenty minutes later I went downstairs into the kitchen, already dressed in my hated and uncomfortable school uniform, had so many days wearing my own clothes I really had forgotten what it felt wearing weird clothes like that, I was a completely different person.

-Look who has appeared finally- My brother, who until now was talking animatedly with our mother looked away, smiling at me with that wide smile that always characterized him, I made a face as I sat on the table beside her, he shifted my hair and I clicked my tongue - Definitely you don't like getting up early, huh?

- And that good humor this morning? -I answered with another question. Normally he didn't like at all getting up so early neither, especially knowing that the previous night he had slept really late because of a telephone conversation, I didn't need to be very smart to know he had stayed up late talking with Junhong, with him measured each and every one of the words he used.

-It is better to wake up in a good mood because without ... -His words were interrupted by the strong melody of his mobile phone, I stifled a giggle when I saw the face of disgust that put our parents to hear the tune, probably knew that that letter was full of profanity coming out of some american rapper. - Channie! -As I heard that name my smile faded and I could tell that my face lost all color when my mother put one of his hands on mine and she looked at me if something happened to me, I shook my head frantically.

I couldn't say it was a lie, thatsomething happened to me, something called strong love, that all my thoughts were occupied by the same name, neither eating nor sleeping normally for his fault, in my dreams could only feel his touch on my skin. I couldn't confess that I had stopped seeing him as an older brother, he wasn't, he was something else. He was my everything. I watched from the corner of the eye to my brother, who was still talking animatedly releasing some laughter from time to time, my brain was unable to process the conversation, I only felt a tingling sensation all over my body. 'Thanks Channie, we'll see you in ten minutes,-He hung up the phone and left it on the table. I took a deep breath to try to relax without success. -Dad, you don't need you to take us - Take us to where? My brother looked back at me at the strangely look that I had given to him-Oh yeah, you weren't here when I've said -He scratched his neck quietly - I have been spoiled the car so dad would take us, but I've told Channie and he's going to pick up us.

- No! I exclaimed unconsciously, rising from the table, he couldn't, he was not prepared to see him again, these summer months have been very short, I hadn't had enough time to calm my feelings for him. I had to find an excuse when I watched as my family looked at me strangely, I mean .... -I ran a hand through my hair – We shouldn't bother him with our problems.

-You know he would be upset if he had insisted that he come-He crossed his arms as I continued to stare into his eyes, I turned to get nervous again – What hsppens to you this morning? You are acting really strange, little brother.

I'm going to finish preparing my things -I hastened to leave the table to avoid glances were sending me questions, and I could not afford to give an answer under ten minutes.

I locked myself in my room and I started rolling from side to side like a wild animal, desperate 'How could I tell? What would he say? Would he be able to look into my eyes after a confession like that?' I sat on the bed and pinched the bridge of my nose with my thumb and forefinger as I closed my eyes tightly, all this was generating me a terrible headache, I needed to vent. My trembling hands took the mobile phone that still rested on the bed, where I had left when I got up and frantically typed a message to my best friend. "Junhong, before the bell ring wait in the main entrance of school, we need to talk" I quickly hit the send key. Not too many seconds passed until I received your short answer 'Okay'. Only he knew my secret, I could only open up to him, I knew that he was very close with my brother but he never could betray me, Junhong was young but it was one of the most loyal people I knew.

The phone fell from my hand hitting the ground, then the battery and memory card escaped from their site, staying on the wooden floor, just at that moment came Yongguk.

- Hurry Jongup – He gave me a puzzled look – Channie is outside waiting for us.

I tried to swallows all I could, but it seemed he did not want to spend, I had my throat dry and a clouded mind. I went down the stairs heavily and even took me longer than expected to put the moccasins in the door. When I started to open it I thought that it weighted more than twenty tons, All the force of my body was gone at these instant. I sighed and looked up to look ahead and there he was, Himchan was leaning against the passenger door of his car with all his aura of perfection, hir hair, hir perpetual sunglasses and hir beautiful and brightly smile, my brother was at his side and had wrapped one of Himchan's arms while still laughing. Then the two pairs of eyes focused on me, but I could only join my gaze to him, I could see hir smile widened considerably to me, he left his position and walked briskly to me. I felt like I had to run away but my feet were nailed to the floor, unable to move. His arms went around me and I felt him very close, hugging me tightly, even with more force than necessary. I was intoxicated with its essence mixed with some kind of cologne that smelled wonderful, I thought itwould be very expensive.

-Jonguppie ... His voice seemed hoarse music to my ears, the air escaping from between his teeth and straight to my neck, where his face was supported. -God Jonguppie ... I missed you so so much... - He turned away from me but hir hands were still tightly holding my forearms, his touch always creating a pleasant feeling, -You're so handsome... -One hand went to his face to remove the glasses, it was then when I admired her beautiful brown eyes - Did you grow up? I think so - I closed my eyes tightly as his lips landed on my hair.

-Himchan, you're scaring him, stop being so noisy -Yongguk's voice woke me up of the perfect dreamland I was and I saw Himchan glaring him, with his eyes half closed.

-That's not true, you idiot! - Himchan exclaimed as he looked at me with that huge and perfect smile – You're happy to see your hyung really? Really Guppie?

Of... of course, -Welcome home... - I tried to make my voice sound as normal as possible. I hadn't time to think about anything else since we had to hurry to get in the car or we going to be late.

My brother had the brilliant idea of ​​making it was I who sit in the passenger seat, though I refused courtesy putting thousand excuses at the end there I was, just inches from Himchan again.

- How about those months in London, Channie? -Yongguk broke the silence that had been generated, but I was happy, hoping that they could hold a conversation and I stay silent.

'It was amazing, a great experience ... In many ways...- I watched as her lips curled into a half smile and then both burst into laughter. He knew what was meant, including myself knew Himchan relationships weren't really long, not more than one of a couple of months, he prefered living the moment. I tried that this didn't affect me too much but again I couldn't escape from his world, Himchan gave me a loud slap on the thigh making me startle -Guppie, you're very quiet today, are you okay honey? His eyes went a couple of seconds off the road to look at me with a worried expression.

-Today is really strange, -My older brother intervened, making flicking tongue, he knew that would only increase the curiosity of the other, since that has risen has not done anything right.

- Whats the matter with you then? To me you can tell me, you know that it was I who slept with you when you were little and you were afraid, not your brother – Yongguk rolled his eyes.

-It's nothing - I answered as I looked out the window, I just do not want to go back to the routine. A routine to see you every day, thinking of you, to feel your hugs but see how you will not ever reciprocate my feelings the same way you would do it myself, to secretly loving routine. I glimpsed the institute close and sighed in gratitude, not know how much more time would be able to endure without exploding. Himchan stopped the car right in the door, that made many students astonished by the expensive car. Just as I was opening the door to run out Himchan grabbed me by the arm pulling me towards him, in one swift motion he pulled out his cell phone and pressed the camera button.

-First picture of the semester!, Smile!

A new routine was coming ... and seemed to be rougher than the last …

A/N: Hello everybody! After a few days thinking about it I started translating my fanfics from spanish to english, so hope you like it! I beg you patience since english isn't my first language and I need a bit of time for translating as correctly as possible. I apology from the start for all the mistakes it can have!