This room had to be empty. It was almost midnight and usually no one has dance practice right there. But this night was different. A girl was sitting, took some rest for her legs that had moved along with the music since five hours ago.Her long browny hair was tied messly. Her t-shirt was wet of her endlessly dripping sweats. Her silver shoes was put beside her to give some air for her feet.

Boa took a gulp from her water bottle once again. She felt so tired after a long journey from USA some hours ago. But she didn’t know why she wanted to dance again in that room. A full memories room for her. Memories that had given her hard time to come back to Korea for years.

Boa looked around that room once more. Everything was same as before she left. Mirror in the wall, music player in a corner, wooden floor that screeched beautifully everytime it collided with her favourite shoes. Just one thing missed. She was alone. There’s not a boy who always dance with her and a boy who had been her first love.

Suddenly her phone rang. Yunho was calling. Boa swap the green key in her phone screen. “Yeobseyo, Yunho-ssi…”

“Haven’t you sleep, chagi?” Yunho, Boa’s boyfriend who currently had a Japan tour, always asked what his girl doing everytime.

“Not yet. I’m still in office’s practice room. I miss this room so much,” Boa answered while put her stuffs inside her practice bag.

 “You’ve just arrived, chagi. You have to take a rest now. Go sleep. Tomorrow you have to wake up early to start your schedule in Korea, right,” Yunho advised. This man can’t stop caring for Boa. A careness that dreamed by million girls. A careness that always make Boa feel so guilty.

“Ne, Yunho-ssi. I’ll back to my room now.”

“Arasseo. Jaljayo.”

“Jaljayo.”

Boa went out of that room. Went out from her memories with that boy. Lee Taemin.

***

Taemin breathed a sigh for relief once he stepped in Incheon Airport. He breathed Korean air that he missed as much as possible. This was the first time he came back to Korea since he and his group’s members focused their Japanese career three years ago. Altough Japan wasn’t that far from Korea, his heart hadn’t strong enough  to come back to Korea, moreover to his agency office in Korea. Too much memories. Happiness. But also pain.

More than once he got a long free time like this time. But he always avoided to come home. His parents, brother, even Sulli, his girlfriend, visited him in Japan alternately. Just this time he visited them in Korea, instead of they visited him. It coudn’t be denied that he missed his country, his hometown, his beloved house, and that girl. His first love noona who had irreplaceable spot in his heart.

 “Taemin oppa!” Taemin turned his head when he heard that known voice called him. Sulli run happyly welcome him.

“Sulli-ya, bogosipoyo,” Taemin hugged his beloved girl.

“Nado, oppa,” They hugged each other for few minutes to release their longing for each other.

“I’m hungry. Let’s grab some food. I wanna samgyupsal.” Taemin asked Sulli.

“Ne. Kajja!”

Along with their steps leaving airport, Taemin made sure his heart that he would be okay here. He made sure he wouldn’t meet that girl. He made sure that girl was still in USA. Kwon Boa.

***

 “Thanks for your coming in this press conference. I hope you can support me in my future activity,” Boa smiled while closing the press conference that day. Not much things she said there. Just a little words for her short activities in her hometown.

Boa’s main purpose was exactly not to work. She just wanted to release her longing in Korea that she had left since five years ago to focuse for her success USA debute. While her longing for Yunho had to be pressed. Right when Boa came back to Korea, Yunho went to Japan, and Yunho would back right when Boa went back to USA too.

Boa was used to that long distance relationship that made her see Yunho rarely. Since the first time they decided to date, they knew distance would be their obstacle. But Yunho and Boa never took it as a big problem.

On the way back to office, Boa choose to rest her mind with a little nap. Too much in her mind. Her jobs, Yunho, and Taemin. Don’t know when Boa could erase all Taemin’s track in her heart. She thought she could calm her self down by dance in office’s practice room later.

***

 “Oppa, I have something to do with f(x) members. You can look around release your longing with this office first,” Sulli told Taemin when they just reached SM Entertainment office.

 “Okay. Arasseo,” Taemin nodded his head. Soon he walked around that office by himself. It was a while since the last time he stepped in this office. Not much changed. Once a while he felt some eyes starred at him curiously. Maybe new employees. Or new trainees. Suddenly Taemin missed a practice room in second floor. He always danced in that room. Not alone, but with Boa, noona that he loved so much till now. Taemin stepped into elevator that brought him to second floor.

Taemin slowed his steps when he heard music played in practice room. There were just music sounds and screeched sound of shoes and floor. He knew that screeched sound. But he didn’t want to be too hopeful. Taemin stepped carefully. In front of the door he took a peak inside practice room. A girl who he knew very well was dancing. Dance beautifully. Boa’s moves enchanted Taemin.

***

Boa’s moves were amazing. But her mind is not right there. It made her unaware someone had entered practice room even danced along with her. That boy moved along with Boa’s moves. So harmonious. They didn’t know their moves were so harmonious to make a great couple dance choreography. When their gaze met, Boa knew she’s not alone anymore.

 “You...” Boa starred at Taemin shocked after turned off the music.

“Annyeong, noona. It’s been a while,” Taemin greeted Boa awkwardly.Boa kept silent. She was still shocked. “When did you arrive?” Taemin asked again to get rid of the awkwardness.

 “Several days ago. I think you’re still in Japan,” Boa answered coldly. Taemin didn’t know whats behind that coldness. Was it because Boa didn’t want to meet him anymore? It’s not a shocking news for Taemin. He believed Boa might not want to meet him after she knew that Taemin like her years ago.

 “I’ve just arrived in Korea yesterday. I think noona is still in USA.”

“There are some jobs I have to do here. Not for a long time, maybe just some weeks,” Boa responded still with her cold voice. Silent spread accros the room again. Both of them were too busy with their mind.

”Oppa, here you are.” Taemin turned his head when someone called him. Sulli was in the door. “Oh, Boa sunbaenim,” Sulli shocked when she saw Boa.

“Annyeong, Sulli-ya,” Boa greeted Sulli and smiled.

 “Annyeong, sunbaenim. Are you practicing now? Taemin oppa disturbed you, didn’t he?” Sulli joked while linked her arm with Taemin’s. Boa’s face changed immediately when she saw the way Sulli hold Taemin’s arm. Taemin didn’t know what he had to do. In one side there’s no way he could push Sulli away, his girlfriend. In other hand he felt something wrong by doing that in front of Boa.

 “Aniyo. I’ve done. I have to go, Sulli-ya. See you,” Boa answered while left practice room with her stuffs in her hand. Taemin kept silent. Boa’s leaving made him felt there’s something wrong with them.

***

 “Taemin is Sulli’s boyfriend.” Boa repeated that sentence hundred times. She still couldn’t believe it and she knew her heart was broken. She’s spacing out for a long time so she was unaware someone knocked her door.

 “Chagiya...” That voice startled Boa. Boa was surprised when she saw Yunho, her boyfriend, was standing in her room door.

 “Yunho-ya, you said you can’t come here untill next month,” Boa’s face still implide million surprised.

“Surprise! Coincidentaly I have no schedule arranged this week so Changmin and I can take a little rest. Happy?” Yunho asked while grabbed Boa’s body. He hugged her. Boa was just smiled. Was her happy?

***

ENGAGEMENT PARTY

Taemin read the invitation in his hand over and over again. He wouldn’t be that surprised if the name typed there weren’t Boa Kwon and Yunho Jung. He’d never thought Boa noona he loved had been with Yunho hyung, a sunbae he respected the most. Did he too hide him self from Boa? Just to bury his feeling that he knew him self he couldn’t do it.

Taemin’s hesitant. No way he didn’t attend that party. Yunho and Sulli might felt strange. But he knew it’s impossible to hold his broken heart if he attended it. Finally he decided to call his manager to arrangehis schedule in Japan.

***

Boa looked at her reflection on mirror. Five minutes left before her engagement party started. She still tried hard to hold her tears. It’s not she didn’t want this engagement. She really wanted it. She would be smiled if Taemin didn’t give her a letter.

Honestly, I’m still loving you, noona...

But I know you’ll be happy with Yunho hyung...

I pray for the best for both of you...

I’m not strong enough to hold my pain in my heart if I’m there...

Those words forced Boa to deal with her heart again. Her sincerity to release Taemin for Sulli was tested. Boa knew she couldn’t lie to her self that Taemin was still in her heart.

Boa held her tears hardly for minutes. There’s no time to fixed her make-up if her tears rolled down ruin it. She didn’t want to disappoint Yunho and her family by run away from this engagement. Boa tried to be looked okay. She had to made this day became the most beautiful day for Yunho and her self.

***

Taemin grabbed his bag beside him. Just now there’s announcement the plane that brought him back to Japan would depart soon. He had to hurry line up to enter the plane.

Taemin stepped reluctantly. He knew no matter how hard he tried to be strong, his heart cried. Cried for an unrequited love that had to be burried deeply to keep Sulli’s love, a girl that loved him so much, and Boa, noona that always had a place in Taemin’s heart.

Taemin knew his decision to leave Korea showed how coward he was. But he choosed to brought his broken heart far from people who loved him. He choosed to leave Sulli for a while without  explaination. He felt this time wasn’t a right time to explain everything to Sulli.

Taemin got into the plane. He placed his bag in storage. He made him self comfortable sitting in his seat. Leaving his hope and his pain in Korea. For him Boa was still a girl he loved. A girl that always had a place in his heart. Only one. Just Boa.

***

Boa smiled when Yunho put the engagement ring in her ring finger. She was happy but in the other side her heart was hurt too. When Boa was sure that Taemin was not there, her heart was crashed. Was it her fault that Taemin being like that? If before she didn’t lie to her heart...

***

 “Noona, I love you,”Taemin confessed. Boa was stupefied. She had guessed that her close relationship with Taemin would end like this.

Boa hadn’t answer Taemin’s confession yet. She was still thinking. Taemin was her hoobae. Taemin was seven years younger that her. To hard to be in more complicated relationship altough Boa had to admit that she loved that boy too.

 “I love you too, Taemin-s, but just as my dongsaeng,” Boa held the pain in her heart when she said that.

 “Ah. I’m sorry, noona,” Taemin shocked. He coudn’t hide his dissapointment on his face. Silence and awkwardness covered them till Taemin suddenly got up from his seat.

 “I leave first, noona,” Taemin left Boa before she could speak anything.

Boa cried once Taemin dissapeared from her sight. She cried for her decision. She cried for her lies. She tried to convince her self that her decision was right, that she wouldn’t regret it. But she couldn’t believed she could do it.

***

When will my head erase you?

I will let you go
One day, two days, one month, if long term then a few years

My baby can’t forget
And someday in your memories,
I won’t live in it, you will erase me

Only One Only One
You’re the only one, Only One

(BoA, Only One)

it took me a long time to translate it in English.

I don't know if its good enough coz of my bad English. and I didn't reread it. I just checked that there's no bahasa inserted accidentaly. kekeke.

hope you enjoy.