I'm very much oblivious of the things around me . I tend to be oblivious even of my own feelings . The fact that i was madly in love with Tao had taken it's time for me to realize it . Sometimes i wonder why , was i so unaware  of it ? I think it's just me to deny things ,  to get scared and runaway from it . 

Tao's kiss had made a mess of me . 

And what made me feel even worse was the way he was acting lately , indifferent to every move i make , Tao was strange , he never talked about the kiss as if it never happened . 

And i didnt know if i had to feel relieved or disappointed ? because , when i lie on my bed , his pictures crosses my mind , and my temperature reaches it highest when i recall the softness of his lips and the way it devoured mine . 

Then i'd sigh , heart pounding faster and faster , me even more oblivious of those mixed feelings , was it fear? desire? love ? 

Tao, that night i hated you , that single night , i hated how much you affected me . 

How did i embrace the truth about my feelings for him?

It was a weekend , my parent's and Tao's went for a short trip and i was sleeping over at his house , we were watching a late night movie , when the door knocked . He silently opened it and from the living room , where i was sitting i could hear laughter and loud voices 

Tao didn't mention that someone would come , surprised of the sudden noise , i waited for him to come and exp