A/N : this is chapter 1, and I'msorry for my bad grammer. English not my first language. Enjoyed chapter 1!! ^^

"What happen to me, Min?" Changmin, my bestfriend and also my private doctor gave me uneasy look after he check me up. "Is it bad news? Or good news." I asked carefully.

Changmin lifted his head after reading my medical check up. "Both Jae."

"Oh, okay. Malhaebwa." I said with smiled.

He looked hesitated. "Um, jae."

"Yes?"

"You're pregnant.." I smiled after I heard thew news. "But, I'm afraid that you can't continue your pregnancy." His said with sad voice.

I frowned. "Why? Did something happen with my baby. It's a good news, Changmin. Knowing that finally I pregnant. But why I can't continued my pregnancy?"

Changmin look sad. "it's because you're ill, jae."

"Ill? What kind of illness that make me can't continue my pregnancy?" I asked him. What kind of illness that prevent me to having my baby. This baby that I and my husband, yunho waiting after 2 years of our married.

"You've got cancer, Jae. Blood cancer." Changmin's answer made my jaw dropped.

"B-blood c-cancer? How? I mean, I'm healthy enough. I never sick. How come I got this blood cancer?? You must be kidding right, Min?" I tried to joke. But when I see his face, I know that Changmin was serious. Tears slowly down in my cheek. I cried. How can this happen to me, When I want this baby so bad. How can I tell yunho about this news.

"That's why you can't continued this pregnancy, jae. Your pregnancy just 2 month old, we still can do abortion before it's too late." Changmin tried to explain, but I ignored him.

"What happen if I want to keep my baby?" I asked him.

He sighed. "You'll die, Jae. Even if you want this baby, you can't. Because you have to consume medicine. And it can harm your baby if want to keep him.

"But I want to, Changmin. I want my baby!" I stuborn enough to keep my baby. This my baby not someone else.

Changmin sighed again. "Okay, let's talked aboud this with your husband, ne?"

I shook my head. "No! If you talked about this to my husband, I'm sure he'll asked me to do the abortion. No, definetly no!" I refuse his idea to tell this to yunho.

***

"Baby, I'm home!!" Yunho shouted from from door.

I feel my heart sinking into deep after i heard his voice. How can I tell this news to him. "I'm in kitchen!" I shout back to yunho. I feel arms hug on my waist.

He kissed my cheek. "What're you make for dinner, baby?"

I smile at him. "Your favorite, kimchi jjigae. Is it alright."

Yunho smile back at me. "Everything that you make it's fine with me, baby."

"Just change your clothes and take a bath. Dinner will ready in 10 minutes."

"Okay."

He kissed my cheek and rushed to our bathroom to take a bath. I just need a time to tell this to my husband. Just part that I'm pregnant not that I have illness and have to do an abortion. No, I would never tell him about that. Changmin said I can still continued my pregnancy if I agree to come to hospital for checking up and get a treatment for my illness, every week. And I agree.

10 minutes later my husband join me in table for dinner. "Yunho-ah, I've got some good news for you." I said to yunho after we finish our dinner and now cuddled in couch infront of tv.

"What it is, baby?"

"You know, i'm.. I'm pregnant?" Yunho's body stiffed after hearing what I'm saying. "Yunho-ah, say something."

He look down at me than acreepy grinning appears in his lips. "Jeongmal!? You're pregnant?"

I nodded. "It's mean that I'll be an appa?" He asked look happy.

"Yes,baby. It's mean that you'll become a dad. Are you happy?"

He smiled, "Of course, baby. Thank you for giving me this news, jae. I love you." He kiss my lips and pull me into his arms and he hold me tight.

But I can miss tears slipped away from my eyes,because I won't be able telling him the truth, that I'm dying. That I'm ready to leave him anytime soon.

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