I decided to ask her my triumph card.

Nobody knows about this except for some.

 

“Why was the jewel of Mermaid’s Tear pink and instead of blue?”

 

Awkward silence filled the air.

 

I smiled as I picked up my glass and drank from it.

 

The reason was because of the painting, the mermaid cried and the tears that flowed out were pink in colour…

 

Like hers.

 

I snapped out of the trance I was in. I remembered the painting.

 

I bought it and stared at it.

 

Yeah, I sound pretty creepy but when I miss her a lot or when I’m going through hard times, looking at the painting makes me feel better.

 

I can’t even describe the emotions I’m feeling right now.

 

“I’m sorry but I can’t sell you the necklace...however, I’m pretty interested what you’re willing to do for it.” I told her.

 

“Anything but selling myself.”

 

It’s really her.

Straight forward and sweet toothed.

 

I never would have imagined falling in love with her since I do not like blunt women but she was different.

 

I laughed, pulling her closer to me.

I missed her warmth.

 

“Accompany me the whole night. And I’ll give you the necklace for free.”

 

When the words slipped out, I was expecting her to be jaw-dropped but she was more composed than I thought.

 

She agreed easily and it was good for me since I do not have much time left…

 

We walked to the deck, her hand in mine, fitting perfectly.

 

 

The night was really dark…of all days.

 

Yet, she was still clueless, clumsy as always, slipping on air.

 

Some things really don’t ever change.

 

 

She looked down at the sea, lost in her world.

 

I wonder if she misses the sea.

 

I wonder if she regrets having legs and being with me.

 

She lost her freedom after all, not being able to swim in her home again because of me…

 

 

Ah…I have so many questions in my head but time is really being a pain in the neck.

 

 

Wind blew strongly and messed up her hair.

 

She panicked, pressing down her hair with both hands.

 

I chuckled and helped her a bit; even though she had grown some courage, Rin is still Rin.

 

She looked down. Looking on the ground was one of her favourite things to do when she’s embarrassed.

 

 

“Rin.”

 

I don’t think I can hold back anymore. It’s too painful.

 

I missed her too much, every day spent without her felt like years and I hate it.

 

She looks up at me, her brown eyes, returned to the familiar shine.

 

I went closer and closer, testing waters.

 

 

She didn’t move away and so I did what I wanted.

 

 

To feel her lips on mine again.

 

I’m sorry, Rin. I can’t help being selfish.

 

I tried again, losing some self-control in the process.

 

 

And then, she pushed me away, looking at me as if I was some stranger who kissed her.

 

I laughed bitterly, I should have known she would react this way.

 

But why does it hurt so ing much?!

 

 

I cursed in my head and punched the railings.

 

It didn’t hurt at all…compared to the pain I’m feeling from my chest.

 

I punched it again and again, thinking the pain on the hand could take over.

 

 

Unfortunately, the pain on the hand became numb.

I raised my fist for another punch but she stopped me.

 

Tears fell from her eyes.

 

 

No...This isn’t what I want.

 

It was the last thing I ever wanted…

 

 

I should be doing what I planned to do…but I…instead I’m hurting her.

 

My legs gave way and my knees crashed on to the cold deck.

 

Nature decides to be an and my hair became messy like .

 

 

“What’s wrong?”

 

She’s probably confused as hell, watching me losing my control, like a crazy person.

 

 

I hugged her waist.

 

 

If only this world could stop being cruel to us and let us have an happy ending.

 

If only she remembered.

 

Yes, I’m still being selfish, wanting her to remember on her own even though it can be done so easily.

 

 

I want to be with her.

 

I want to wake up next to her and kiss her.

 

I want us to be at least together, regardless of poverty or anything.

 

But this damned world…wants me to die.

 

 

She lightly cupped my face and made me face her.

 

She really doesn’t remember me at all.

 

 

I bet my tears are coming out soon, my eyes felt warm.

 

“Please try to remember…” I hugged her tightly.

 

 

Tears fell.

 

I could feel her tears falling on my head like rain.

 

That’s it.

I really don’t want to see her tears anymore.

 

 

That was the moment, I gave up.

 

I gave up being selfish.

 

I stopped crying and did what I needed to do.

 

 

I gave her the necklace and secretly took out the dagger when she wasn’t noticing.

 

I don’t want her to see it, knowing her; she would stop me with her bare hands.

 

I don’t her to be hurt again anymore.

 

“I’m really happy.”

I tried to smile as natural as I can.

 

“Even though perhaps…this may be the last time I’ll ever get to see you again.” I said softly, then taking out the dagger.

 

“Kris!” She screamed.

 

 

Blood flowed really quickly and I could feel all the energy being out of me.

 

, why am I a human…

 

I fell to the ground, the deck felt more comfortable than I thought.

 

 

I don’t think I have ever pictured myself dying like this.

 

But it’s okay, as long as Rin will not be hurt again ever.

 

She won’t die again for me.

 

 

Our past lives flashed through my head.

 

Every damned end, she’ll end up dying because of me.

 

She got shot, stabbed, assassinated, and there were even once…she shield me with her body and died.

 

 

This time, I’ll die for her.

 

 

She called the hospital, and placed my head on her thighs.

 

Her worried face…ah, I don’t really enjoy it but it’s better than her crying face.

 

“…It’s fate.” I spoke but my breathing was getting weak.

 

 

 I smiled more than I had ever in my life.

 

 

I her hair and touched the necklace.

 

This should finally make her remember.

 

The pink jewel shone and she closed her eyes.

 

 

If only time can be more generous, and give me more time to spend with her…

 

 

I felt really cold and sleepy.

 

I think maybe it’s because I’m closer to death now.

 

She hugs me and tells me she remembers.

 

 

Finally huh…

 

She shouted and tried to keep me awake but I’m too tired to try anymore.

 

I explained everything to her and she scolded me for being foolish, doing things she never asked me to.

 

 

It’s the same for me as well, Rin.

 

I didn’t ask you to die for me.

 

I didn’t ask you to save me.

 

 

“So you’re just going to let me live alone and without you?! You think I’ll be happy?!” 

She started to cry again.

 

“Baby, don’t cry…”

I barely have the strength to talk anymore.

 

My eyes felt really tired…

 

I’m sorry Rin.

I thought I would at least hurt you lesser but still I…

 

I’m sorry.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Annyeong!~ I have finally finished Kris' pov!~~~

 

Finally have time for writing too...having school holidays now and ah...It's ending soon. T^T

 

Hope you guys liked it even though it's angst. :3

 

 

Comment if you liked it! (Even tho kris died...T-T Mianhae Kris...)