today i celebrate our 1st anniversary... taemin and i met each other at the school gate...

"hey which type of cake do you want?" he ask me as we enter the cafe we usually stop by
"up to you.. i'm a bit full"
"hwa-ah~ it's our first anniversary cake" taemin show me his sweet puppy eyes
 "aigoo... oppa... so cute..." i pinch his cheek softly
"hehehe let's go..." he put his arm around me

as we walk to the cake counter, everyone look at us.. yeah yeah it's not that strange.. taemin's pretty..... prettier than me actually

we order a mini blackforest since it's our favourite cake here...
and we also sit at our favourite place, the corner

"happy first anniversary!!" we cheers
"remember how we first met?" i think back to the past
"yep! you look like a fairy that time....."
"what? i'm angry and you say i look like a fairy!?"
"you look pretty whatever you do.." he my hair
i feel my cheek turn apple red

"kekekek see you look cute...." he hold my hand
"hey..." i point at his hand
"why?" he look at me with his super innocent eyes
"please don't hold my hand.. i.. i... i am...." my cheek blush again
"you are shy?" he say teasingly
"aaaahhhh~~~~ see you're such a devil with your angelic face..."

we sit there the whole afternoon... not just eating ofcourse... we also do our homework

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after that day, me and taemin are very busy with our own study... i am studying for the semester exam and he's preparing his entrance to highschool and he's also a trainee of an entertainment company so.. we dont meet that often this week

sometimes, when i text him in the morning, he only can reply in the afternoon or sometime midnight

i miss him so badly.........

one day after the exam i'm sitting alone inside the classroom
"lee yu hwa!!" someone shout..
i look out  window & saw taemin waving his hand down there

i run down the stairs as fast as i can
suddenly i bump into a guy
"hey.. i'm going up..." taemin say
"i know you miss me....." he open his arm widely
i hold his hand..
"i wish too hug you too but this is a school" i say

he just smile
"need to tell you something later" he say in a quiet voice & a super wide smile as we walk holding hand
it must be a happy news

after the school's finished, we meet at a restaurant near the school
"i'm going to debut as singer.. "taemin say

too shock and happy i choke

"slowly..." he rub my back
*cough* "i mean you really going to be a singer!!???"
he nodded
"when's your debut stage!?" i'm getting more excited
"25 may..."
"2 days more and you tell me now!!?? what's your debut song!?"
"noona nomu yeppo... relax.. i'll give you the album.. it's still mini album though"

"not yu hwa nomu yeppo?" i ..
"hahahahahha i'll try to make a song for you next time..." he my hair

2 days later, i go to watch his live performance... he's more charismatic than the usual him i know he's still cute though

after the performance i was going home when he text me to go to the backdoor

"let me introduce me to our team member..."
"ah... no need... i think i better go now.." i step back a bit
"c'mon.." he pull my hand
"guys.. this is my friend.."
he open the door
i look down feel to shy to look at them

"taemin~~ is she your friend or your girlfriend??" someone say in a teasing voice
he just smile

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from that day on... he become super busy we still text and sometime call each other.... but it has been almost a year we dont meet each other he rarely come to school even if he come to school i cant meet him.... the fans will kill me if i does

june 5,2009 he'll perform their 2nd mini album juliette hope i can talk to him in person today.... i come to the love like oxygen performance but, i cant talk to him

i miss him... i miss his touch

after the show's finished... he tell me to wait here sitting even if everyone has go out
i'm waiting.. alone... in the darkness
suddenly the spotlight turn on..

"juliette ho~yongwoneul bachikilyo~~"
i look at the stage and saw taemin standing there.. singing..

i walk to the stage..
he kneel down and pull out a ring that chain in a necklace
i tear a bit.. this feeling of mine is bursting out
"hey.. don't cry... it's not like we're parting or what.." he wipe my tears that are about to fall

he pull down his collar a bit and i saw a same rings that also chain in a necklace then he help me to wear mine
"should we date tonight?" taemin hold my hand
"um!" i nodded

of course we don't go to a place where many people will go... because everyone will recognize him
so, we decided to go to a football field

we lay on our back, looking at the sky full of stars.... his hand clasped under his head and i lay my head on his chest
as we look at the sky he my hair
"how if we made a promise??" he say suddenly..
"what promise?"
"promise to marry each other sometime.."
"hahahah ok.. let's make a time capsule.. we'll open it sometime when we become bride and groom.." i sit down
"let's go to the one tree meadow.." he stand up cleaning the dry grass on his clothes

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we burried our picture and our couple keychain inside a box that we just bought and promise... 
we sit under the tree.. the only one tree in a whole big meadow
"hey... sorry we can't meet for almost 1 year" he say as i lean my head on his shoulder
"i though you forget me"
"hwa-ya.." he call me gently
i look at him... he slowly move his face nearer and nearer... i close my eyes.. a while after that i feel our lips touch.. he kiss slowly yet gently...
a second feel like an hour for me...
i want  to let go...but, his hand slowly move to my waist... made me want to stay still....

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he drive me home... as i walk inside my house.. we wave each other and i walk backwards suddenly... i feel dizzy and lost my balance
i passed out


when i wake up.. a strong anticeptic smell annoy me... i look around and it's all hospital style.. i supposed i'm in hospital right now..
"oh.. you wake up?" taemin who sleep beside me wake up.. he sit straight and rub his eyes
"yep.. what happen?"

i can see his face turn pale.. suddenly someone come in before he can answer
"you're awake?" mom come in with a doctor behind her
"what happen to me?" i ask her
"you must tell her.." the doctor say in a quiet voice but loud enough for me to hear

taemin hold my hand tightly
i sense something goes wrong

"i can't say it.. songsengnyim... better you tell her..." mom walk out with eyes full of tears

"your brain have tumor..."
"taemin tremble as he hold my hand tighter

"it's not a right time to joke actually..." i don't want to believe it
"taemin tell me the truth..." i look at him.. hoping he'll say he's only joking

he nodded.. his eyes are red..
"no way.." i say as i start crying...

he hug me tightly.. very tight.. i keep crying.. and i feel his tear falling to my head


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