Chapter 18

Hyoyeon's POV

Guess I was let down by Jongdae again. It's been a few times but everything he will turn me down. All I want is just a meal with him but he will never give in. But well, this is what I love in him. Don't you think that he looks manly whenever he make a decision or when he frown. 

No matter how hard I try, he will never smile at me. This situation just gets worst after he got married. I seriously don't see anything good about this girl, why did uncle pick her over me? It’s clear that I am the best for Jongdae. No one loves him more than I do. 

But what aunt said is correct, so what if they married? They can always divorce. I honestly don't mind being a mistress for Jongdae. Sunmi doesn't have a good body figure, she doesn't know anything about Jongdae , she hardly socialized which this is essential for Jongdae's work.

Indeed I have made myself so low for Jongdae, but I can't help. I am crazily and hopelessly in love with him. And it's been years and this feeling never cease, in fact it grows stronger everyday. My hearts was pumping hatred and jealousy the moment I saw Jongdae and the girl exchanging vows. How can a girl come out from no where could be in this position.

Looking at the situation, I guess I have to work harder. I have to compete with time and before she could get pregnant.

Whatever it is, Jongdae is mine. If I can't own him, no one should.

-888-

' Jongdae! Hurry go to Hyoyeon's work place. I am afraid something happened to her. Hurry! ' the only thing I should be grateful is that aunt is on my side. She called Jongdae and said in a very worried manner. As if something bad had happened to me. Before Jongdae could reply she quickly hang up the phone.

I start 'decorating ' my studio. I pour liquor all over the floor. Mess up the place and turn on loud music. Throw some substance beside my table and light up a few cigarettes so the room smells. Took off all my outter layer and only wear my under garments.

' Hyoyeon! ‘I heard Jongdae knocking at the door. It's show time.

'owh? Darling you are were. ' I lean on the door as if I'm drunk and all high up. I lay my hands on his neck and place my weight all on him.

'What the hell is going on here? ‘He shouted as he walks me to my resting place. Before I could lie down at the arm chair, I start kissing him. Passionately.

‘Hey, stop it. ‘He finally got me away from him after a few attempts.

‘Don’t. Don't later me go. ‘You hug him once again and keep using your to rub against his chest.

‘Hey! Stop it! He raised his hand, wanting to slap me. But he didn't.

' Wtf are you trying to do? I am married! ‘He screams at me

‘So what? I DON'T MIND. I SWEAR I DON'T MIND. JUST DO IT! '

‘I won't betray Sunmi. ' he turns away and intend to leave the studio.

‘Don’t go. Please don't go. ‘I ran after him and hug him from the back.

‘Get your thoughts straight. Sunmi is alone at home. I need to go back now. ' He struggle from my  embrace and left me alone.

Why, how much more do you expect me to do! Why can't you see me?! I am alone too!  I need you too! 

I can't remember how I stay Ali e after the incident and specifically that night.

This nightmare doesn't ends when the sun rises. It continues, and kills me secretly inside. Every bit of my conscious is dying, slaughtered by the love I had for you.

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