It was another one of those days where the leader of VIXX couldn't help but find his mind drifting off from everything but the one topic he wanted to avoid. The usual fun, optimistic, and dorky leader was all just a cover up from what he really felt down inside. The fact that he liked to annoy s was also just a cover up to hide how much he wanted attention from the one person that wont acknowledge it.  His heart always pained on camera when the other pushed him away and he knew he wasn't making things any better with how childish and immature he acts to cling on to the younger male further.

Fluttering his eyes open just a bit, he eyed the very cramped practice room that was barely able to fit two members in and pondered if he could ever corner the person he desired inside with him. It would be great to have the other by his side in this room, forcing the skin ship between them. Both of them locked inside would definitely be amazing for the leader. It would make the rest of his life happy, even if it were only for a few minutes and nothing more.

Shaking his head a bit at the thoughts, he eyed his laptop screen that was propped up on the only chair in the room with his legs stretched out under it as he was sitting on the uncomfortable concrete floor. The fan cafe was one of the many places he hated to visit, yet he couldn't help himself as he scrolled through all the topics on the screen. He was already in a dreadful mood - so why not make it worse? Seeing the topics of 'Keo' this and 'Keo' that only boiled the leader's blood. He tried so hard to get Ken to pay more attention to him so people wouldn't see the two together, yet it clearly didn't work out because of vocalist's subtle gestures towards the foreign looking male.

Since day one he had an interest in Leo. No one else but Leo. It wasn't fair that he was being placed with someone else as the official pairs. Hakyeon had no problems with Ravi since he was an amazing dongsaeng, but Ravi just wasn't... Leo. Leaning his head back against the wall, a frustrated sigh passed his lips. Despite how much appreciation and care he had for Ken, his jealous side just wish Ken was one of the trainees that got eliminated. Maybe if Byungjun was still around, he could be paired with Leo instead and Ravi would be seen with him. Everyone ships two rappers together, right?

Deciding to open up one of the topics in a regretful manner, he groaned as he noticed one of their MTV diary screen caps. This just tore the leader inside to witness; the man he's been after this whole time wrapping his arms around Ken. He couldn't even get Leo to smile towards him, let alone stand within a feet of him. He knew Leo like the back of his hands, from what he likes to dislike. When he's laughing or when he's upset. What puts a smile on his face and what makes him furious to hear. Despite that, everything seemed to be pointless at this point due to how little the fans notice about his efforts. The singer wasn't shy like other's assumed or arrogant , nor quiet for that fact. He wasn't doing it because he was told to look like the mysterious bad boy member. Hakyeon knew from day one that Leo was just the type of person that wasn't as social as the rest of them - not because he was shy but because he didn't trust or open easily. He was the type of person that is concentrated on his work and nothing else because he wanted to do well, not because he wanted to attract fans. Leo was definitely a strict and hard worker, wanting to do the right things in life. He wasn't shying away for any reason, none that Hakyeon could pin point from the amount of time he has been with the younger male.

 It was this unique type of personality that drew the leader into wanting to get to know him further - and when he did, he had already fell in love with the younger due to how modest, humble, and grateful he was for the things he had now rather than caring much for the things he were going to receive later. Rather than the shy boy people assumed,  everything just seemed irrelevant to the singer from what he had experience. Not only that - but Taekwoon was just awkward. Especially when he spoke. So socially awkward that Hakyeon could only find himself breaking into a small smile from memories of past conversations. It wasn't the things he said - but how he said them. His voice didn't match up with him at all - yet at the same time it matched him well. Everything about Leo was open, yet at the same time it was still a mystery to the leader.

Eyeing the image once more, the tanned male closed out of the browser before ruffling his hair up in annoyance. "Aish. Keo this! Keo that! Why can't people understand how hard I work!" Huffing out his annoyance in the soundproof room, his head looked up to the door across from him open slowly before he found himself biting back an annoyed groan at the sight.

"N-hyung! Usually it's Ravi that is found in the room all on his own - What is our great leader doing in here, hm?" Ken asked in a playful tone, making the leader want to slam the door shut at how childish he was. If Leo really did like this guy, he could only wonder why. Is it because his acts resemble that of a kid? Did he prefer children that much? Hakyeon was sure his clinginess and immatureness was already enough to make him pass for that, but maybe he wasn't acting enough like a lost puppy like the other male was. Before he could think further though, the voice of his dreadful enemy lit the room once more. "There's re-runs of MTV Diary on the TV in the rest area. Even Ravi is there to watch. Now palllli!"

Rubbing his head from the headache he was sure he was getting from the younger's tone, he shut his laptop closed before looking up with a slight smile. "Ah- Neh. I'm coming.." Rather than using an energetic tone, he felt himself growing weary of it. Which episode would it be? He wasn't going to want to beat his own dongsaeng senseless, was he? He felt bad enough that he felt anger towards him, but that didn't make him want to punch him any less. If he had the chance, he was sure he'd do it just to release some of the stress. It was horrible to say, but the leader just didn't want this kind of competition over someone he had dedicated his time to.

"You sound tired. Did you sleep well last night? " Hearing the question from the other as he got up and stretched a bit, a small shrug passed his shoulders as he faked a yawn to go along with it. Being tired sounded like the best excuse to leave early if he needed to. Pushing the chair to the side along with his closed laptop, he exited the room and closed the door behind him before proceeding to walk towards the rest area of theirs with the younger vocalist. 

"I'm fine. I guess I didn't sleep as much as I thought I did" He spoke with a nervous laugh, fixing his own hair a bit as they walked. Surely it was obvious that the usually hyper leader wasn't in his proper state of mind at this point. He could tell Ken got the message that he wasn't in any mood to fool around due to how quiet he had gotten and gave a relieved sigh at that as they continued their quiet walk.

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"Yahh! You two are slow! It already started." The voice came from none other than their clearly annoyed rapper. Rolling his eyes, N walked over and gave him a chopping motion towards his neck with his arm as a gesture to shut up.

"Shushh. I was sleeping soundly until I had to get up." The leader lied as he casually sat down in between the rapper and his favorite vocalist. To his dismay, Ken sat on the other side and he could feel the other move a bit further away from him and closer to the male he wanted to chop the most right now. Biting on his bottom lip a bit, he could already hear the chattering between the two - not being able to make out any words as he found himself growing more annoyed by the second.

Hearing a chuckle from the rapper, he glanced at the male in a questioning manner - wondering if he saw through his lie before seeing him point to the screen. "Ahh! You were completely creeped out by Leo! Remember? This episode,  it was on your birthday." He reminded, poking at the elder's forehead every so often with an obnoxious laugh. He wondered why people saw them as fit for each other. It wasn't like he hated Ravi - but sometimes, he just felt the dying need to strangle the rapper.

"Y-Yahhh! I didn't expect to see him standing there with the cake! " He huffed out in his defense, eyeing the screen as he tried to bite back a smile from the memory. It wasn't something he expected, but it was a memory he'd never forget. How Leo stood there with his cake. How he held it for him despite how he wanted to put it down. How he took a picture of both the vocalist, the cake, and him all in one without the other knowing. The leader probably made himself out to be a big creep. A big creepy fan boy. It wasn't like he meant to - but love does crazy things to a person.  "How long were you standing there anyways, hmm? What if we never came back to the dorm and went out to party without you instead?"

Nudging the silent member, he could see how un-interested he was as his eyes darted down to his phone. Biting back a slight frown, he tried hard to not let it get to him as it wasn't the first - and definitely not the last time he was going to be ignored like this. There were times where Taekwoon would reply and those times made him uncontrollably happy -- but clearly, right now wasn't one of the times where the younger wanted to give much of a thought to him.

Hearing laughter from the youngest members, his eyes went back up to the screen as he noticed how Hyuk had caked his face. He wasn't sure why he didn't expect that - but it just wasn't on his mind since he was already caked once. "Aha! I can't believe hyung actually thought you were going to eat the cake!" The voice was none other than Hongbin. Rolling his eyes, the leader sent a death glare towards him and made a chopping motion with his arm when he had his attention. Surely that would shut the younger up for a few minutes as his eyes flew back to the screen.

He hadn't seen this after it was filmed and he only anticipated this moment. How he drew the heart on Leo's cheek with the cake. He was sure the younger male would've tried to murder him due to that, but thankfully - he never did. Biting back a small smile, he soon found his mood dropping when he glanced over at the other in hopes to see him interested in the show but was rather not amused as he came to see the two next to him close up and watching something completely different on one of the two's phone. He was sure if they legalized murdering, he would've done that to Ken a long while ago -- even though he'd probably regret it since he was one of the more amusing members.

Before he could make any further thoughts on it, he could hear the two sing along with the song and his heart couldn't help but snap. The leader wasn't a main vocal. He wasn't a lead vocal. He wasn't specialized in singing at all. His specialty was dancing and nothing more. But the other two shared their love for singing, which made the leader somewhat regret his field of choice. If he tried to sing along, it'd only embarrass him and do nothing about the situation. Standing up quickly, he straightened up his clothes and exited the room with a small lie on how he'll be back. 

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Yey... This is just the first chapter consiting about 2k words out of the 8k words I have .. OTL.. Still no where near done with the fic too. like. what is life. ;w;' 

Hopefully it's good so far and I do hope you guys anticipate more! Comments are great to hear because I'd love to know what you Neo fans think so far -- although this chapter does not have much. OTL ...