Sorry for not update for such a loooooooooonngg time :(
we've kinda busy with school's matter
so here's the second chapter, a long one but we're sure it's kinda weird? hahaha
enjoy and don't be silent please :)

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Jiyeon POV

I unlocked my phone to check the time. A little surprise to find out that it has been quite long i have spend my time in this park. I stand up and clean the dust on my jeans and jacket then  heading to the nearest bus stop.

I can see through the window,  the streets still have christmast stuff although it is almaost 2 months after 25 December. Where i have been, why i do not realize it? I sigh remembering my lack of anthusiasm to live after he left. But i can not help, i just can nott bring my self to the day when he still exist.

After 30 minutes, I arrive on my so-called home. Everything have changes. I open the door just to find out the darkness and emptyness that suddenly surround me. I turn on the lights and walking to the kitchen to search something to refreshen my dry throat. A note hang on the refrigerator. I take it.

“Mom...” I sigh

I have to go to Daegu to attend a meeting

I will comeback tomorrow and come to your graduation ceremony

There are some foods in the refrigerator

Prepare yourself and don’t make fool of yourself tomorrow

“Pfft.. like I care.”

I crumple the note and throw it into the trash bin then  heading towards my room on the second floor with a glass of water in my hand.

Lying on the soft matrass, doing nothing and  just staring at the ceiling. Feeling the emptyness across the room. Across my heart.

The night is slowly go down, the loneliness crept up inside me. Though its not the first time i feel it, but still hard for me to handle. If he is still here, he  will not let me feel this way. He will comfort me in his unique way. If he is still here........

 

Flashback

Author POV

“Jiyeon-aaaahh~~~ jiyeon baby ~~ look at me~~”

He stir on her bed.

“Daehyun, shut up !” she snapped

The boy being himself did not gave up. He kept poking on her fair cheek.

Jiyeon can not hide her emotion again. She tug her lover’s hair hardly, earning a yelp from the boy.

“IT’S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW. WHY MOM AND DAD HAVE TO GO TO JAPAN?!!! ARRGHH~~ CAN’T YOU TELL HOW UPSET I AM?”

She burst her feeling toward him and mostly his hair.

“I know how upset you are! My hair is the evidence.” He yelled back.

She lose her grip on his hair. “Now since you’ve mess my hair style, i will punish you.”

Jiyeon narrowed her eyes at him felt suspicious.

“Make a poetry for me about how nice my hair is. A good one please.” He said with a serious tone.

Her jaw dropped remembered the memories of their first time meeting. He just a cocky bastard last time, and even now.

She did not say anything, she just took a pillow beside her and hit it hard to his face.

Her lip stretch upward into a big smile and Daehyun noticed it.

“Your smile is mine.” He winked.

End of flashback

 

Tears roll down on to  her pale cheek. Remembering all of this just make her heart numb and sick of it. She is tired, her body weakens, she close her eyes and hope there is no tomorrow for her.

 

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Today is a big day for Jiyeon because she will be graduated from her senior high school. Finally one step closer to become an adult. Yet as always, she is not in the mood for this now. she wore her uniform for the last time with so much force, she grab her bag and begin walking to her school. She is really pissed off right now. what in the world that the parents can not attend their child graduation day? That’s her parents that we are talking about. They surely love to work more than taking care their own daughter.

Jiyeon let out a sigh for the umpteenth time this morning. Not just her parents that occupied her mind right now but her friends at school too. What hurtful words they will thrown to her today, she really not need  their pathetic accusation about that incident again, this is her graduation day for crying out loud! She deserve to feel happy, satisfy and proud about herself but sadly its the opposite.

From the gate of her school where she is standing now, she already can see her classmates and other students with their family. Some students complain about being nervous to walk on the stage and accept their diploma when everyone watch their every move with judge eyes to their parents and  the other just chatting happily while the parents holding a bouquet of pretty flowers for them as a congratulation gift.

 

 

“SONG JOONGKI...”

“CHOI JUNHONG...”

“YOON BOMI...”

And the names goes on and on until jiyeon’s name being called. After she received her diploma she comes to the rooftop of her school. She’s leaning on the railing and look up. That’s a one nice sky, its so clear and refreshing. It helps her body system to relax a bit until her phone rang.

“Hello? Oh mom?”

“Dear where are you? I can not find you everywhere. I’m at your school now.” Jiyeon’s at a loss of words. What a surprise!

“You came? I think-“

Her mom cut her words immediatelly, saying “I know i’m late to your big day and i’m sorry, but please understand at least we came. Me and your father.”

“Okay.” She said boredly. “i’ll meet the both of you in 5 minutes. Just wait.”

Near the photobooth for the students, Jiyeon see her parents waiting for her arrival. “Mom.” She called and tap her mom shoulder lightly from behind. They turn around and Jiyeon choke on her own spit because her mom gave her a really really tight hug.

“Congratulation for your graduation honey. Sorry i’m  not bring any presents with me because we’re in hurry but i promise i’ll give you some presents later.” Jiyeon rolled her eyes tiredly. Oh joy. Pleaseee presents is not meaning anything really. She thought.

“Jiyeon. Congratulations.” Her dad greeted and gave her a light hug.

“Errmm. Thanks.” She felt awkward after knowing that he is not her real dad. Stepfather.

What she did not understand is why her family change so much. There’s barely any warm feeling in the house. She knows her mistake is unforgivable but she want her family back to normal. Back to the old days. She wanted to be happy once again. Despite her surrounding which full of people playing around she still felt very lonely.

 

 

In the evening all of them return to home from Jiyeon’s school. Jiyeon immediatelly go to her room, she wants to take a nap because she’s exhausted. When she opened her door, her eyes widen upon seeing a bouquet of sunflower resting on her table. She pick up the flower, walk towards her bed and sit on it. Slowly she open the card and read the words

Dear Jiyeon,

Congratulations for your graduation.

Sunflower always search the sun to grow, i hope you will become like one.

Always see the bright side. Remember that.

                                   

                                                                                           - Your dad.

 

For the first time that day Jiyeon smile sincerely because of her father warm words. Finally She feel loved by her own dad. Real father. After taking a nap and showered, she decide to see the person who once can she love dearly.

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She stop in front of him. Standing closer and closer to the boy who she loves. To the boy who turn her life upside down. She try to speak but no words comes out from her pale and trembling lip. Jiyeon inhale the fresh air and calm her self down. She hold her tears and her breath. It is been a long time she does not meet him. Jiyeon miss him so much, if there is other word to describe it. Mostly, she is nervous...nervous to talk to him, afraid to be hit by reality again that he will never be her, and she will never be his. She bit her lower lip and clench her fist and once again try to speak. Her voice low and shaky.

“Hey.. how have you been?”

“Are you doing well?” her lips form a small bitter smile.

“How about food? Did they give you enough food? You are really greedy when it comes to food.” Still no answer for her.

“Daehyun-ah.. are you cold? Or lonely?”

“why don’t you answer me?”

Tears roll down her cheek. She can not hold any longer. And she decide to scream her frustation out.

 

“At least answer me when I ask how are you !”

“why you keep silent? Why don’t you talk to me?”

She cry, cry until her tears can not be seen anymore, cry until her voice can not be heard anymore.

 

She wipe away the salt water in her cheek and encourage herself. Take a long-deep breath to calm herself down.

“Daehyun-ah I’m going to leave you, like you left me all alone. Will you mad at me? I will not come to see you in a long time.”

Yet the boy choose to be silent.

“Don’t you want to hold me? To keep myself beside you? And if you want me to go, at least say good bye to me.”

She know that Daehyun will never answer no matter she ask, but she just want to hear his voice which always comfort her, the voice which make her smile, the voice which she like to hear in everytime... anytime.

Yet there is noone answer her, reality is just being itself. No one can change it. He is gone, since a year ago, and he will never comeback how much you plead. He died.

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She bid a small goodbye to him. Walking down the hill where he was burried, when she get her phone vibrate. She stop at her track, taking the phone out of her pocket to pick up the call from her Mom.

“what-“

“Jiyeon-ah, where are you? You disappear like nothing after graduation. We will be late to move.”

“I know Mom. I’ll be there in a flash”

With that she hang up.

She sigh, turning her head back to see him again, knowing that she will not meet him in no-one-know-how-long-it-is time since she and her family will move to Seoul, leave Busan, and leave anything behind. “Start a new life” said her Mom. Jiyeon know it is hard too for her Mom to lose Daehyun, and Jiyeon just being a big burden after he left. Nothing she can do in there anyway, but she is unsure with a new life her Mom talk about.

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Jiyeon’s POV

“hey where are you came from?” My Mom ask me just when I stepped on their soon-to-be our old house.

“somewhere.” Is just the word which come out from my lips. That is right, Mom never talk about Daehyun nor mention his name even once after his death. I guess it is really hard to her. We all lose him in wrong time. If I can remove him out of my mind easily.

“alright, go to your room and check if there is something missed. We’ve move you luggage to the car.”

I just nod my head and walk upstair to my room. I open the door just to find the room is already empty and yeah still, there is a bed, closet and a table.

I walk in and sit on my old bed, looking around to the room that being witness to a lot of memories with him.

I pull out a drawer and find a heart shape frame. I take it out and find two figures standing with an arm around each other shoulder and smile happily. I can help but smile and cry at the same time.

It was a moment when I and Daehyun go on a date. Our very first date.

 

Flashback

“Mwoya?!” was the first word I spoke when he brought me to the place for our first date. I just can not understood what the heck was in Daehyun’s mind.

“Why? It is going to be fun!” He grined

“What? It is 27th of December for God sake and it is freaking cold Jung Daehyun ! And you shamelessly bring me to public ice skating ! Are you on the right mind?”

“Wow watch out your words princess, someone may hear it.” He just winked at me, grab my hand and pulled me to the counter.

“For 2 people.”

“20.000 Won please.”

“Hey hurry up use your shoes.” I just stood there without doing anything, it was not like I did not want to play with him but I can not wear skating shoes!

“Why? You said you really good at this one”

“Yeah I am.”

“So..?” He already done with his shoes

I sighed and mentally slap my Dad for made me so pathethic like this.

“I can not wear it.” I said in really super low voice but he heard it though

“What?”

“My Dad always the one who put them on me and he never let me to put it by myself ! Happy now??”

I expected to hear a laugh from him but no, he just smile and made me sit on a bench

“Then let me help you for this one.”

End flashback

I wipe the tears, I put the frame back in it place and walk out. I look my room again before closing the door and leave it behind.

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I choose to remind silent and look outside the window along the way from Busan to Seoul. It takes 5 hours until we reach our new home.

“Jiyeon-ah, your room is upstair, the one which has a window facing the street.”

We silently move our luggage to the house. It is bigger than our house in Busan, and somehow it feels warm.

My room itself is not differ much from the old one. Yet is simpler way although it is bigger. And I manage to love it.

I decide to unpacked my luggage tommorrow because I am tired like hell and my eyes heavy from cry all day long.

 

 

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