Don't Leave, I'm Sorry
Description
Sometime's a simple I love you can go along way for someone who oesn't have anything. Although this might be a paradox dream of what happens to one guy when you bully them to their breaking point. People need to realize that, other people, yea the people who aren't you, or your family and friends are people too.
Required Description.: My first OneShot. Don't kill me if its bad, I just wanted to try it out. I try my best to make it as clear as possible.
Foreword
“Look!”
“Who is that?”
“Is that a person?”
“Woah, how’d he get up there?”
“I think he might jump!”
“He can die!”
“He should jump, I have my camera”
“This is scary, I can’t watch.”
“I’m scared for him!”
“He can die!!!! “ He can die. He can die. He can die.
“Hyung what are you doing? Hyung stop this, don’t do this to me hyung, don’t jump. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m sorry,. I was stupid, please forgive me. I can’t lose you. Key, Key don’t do this. Kibum!” The worried Jonghyun held on to Key for his very life. On top of the building of a shopping mall, Key stands on the ledge, amoungst thousands of other civilians watching him fall. He looks down. It seemed like a short drop but he was 100 feet into the air. If he fell down, he could possibly die. Key looks back to Jonghyun, his tears don’t stop. He’s at the end of the building. Just holding on to Key’s pants leg. He’s on his hands and knees. Just begging. Begging for forgiveness.
“So is this is how it feels when I ignore the words you speak to me” Key looks towards Jonghyun. He sits on the ledge, swinging back and forth with some kind of smile on his face.
“Kibum, what are you doing? Stop!”
“This is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you”
“What?”
“And this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymore”
“Key, please, I’m sorry, Don’t kill yourself . . . I won’t let you. I’ll protect you. I love you Key.”
“This is what I choose when it's all left up to me”
“KEY, STOP IGNORING ME. LOOK AT ME!! YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO THIS!”
“Why? I mean its not like my life isn’t ruined. You go around hanging with your cool, popular friends, leaving me, a nerd, a loser by myself. You hit me, you pick on me, and your friends do it too and you then you say you love me?”
“Well-”
“You have the audacity to say you love me?”
“I do, Kibum.”
“Its people like YOU that I consider killing myself everyday. I would go and run home to my mom and dad but they are dead. DEAD. I don’t have anybody, literally anybody. You think that’s funny? You think that’s something to laugh at? I don’t have feeling too, Jonghyun?!”
“Kibum. . “
“Don’t Kibum me!, Why do you hate me? What did I do? Jonghyun, Why?” Key starts tearing up. He was afraid of crying tears, he was afraid of letting go. He was afraid. To get his heartbroken.
“All I wanted was Kibum Hyung’s attention. I’m sorry I did those things to you. I wanted to tell you that I thought you were cute, I wanted to say hi, I liked you. I think your pretty. I wanted to say all those things, hyung, but . . I couldn’t. My friends wouldn’t let me, they wouldn’t even let me look your way. Because Hyung, they were jealous, I was jealous. Key, you are beautiful. Your skin is flawless, your body is perfect. You are simply stunning. You were also smart, athletic. We couldn’t. But, I’m sorry, we went too far. I don’t want you to die. Key, I love you too much to let you go, don’t leave me. “
“Lies.”
“What?”
“You think I believe this ? Lies they are, they are all lies. You’re lying, you just don’t want to be the blame of my death. Your selfish and you don’t care. You don’t know that you make me feel worthless, you don’t know that I get nervous around you, I get so scared, you might punch me. I get more scars during hour 1 then I did in the first 7 years of my life. I’m scared, but there’s no where else I can go, I can’t transfer schools, I can’t tell anybody because they all hate me. You don’t care about me, you don’t love me, stop lying. just stop.”
Jonghyun, taken aback by Key’s words, grabs him by the waist and kisses him softly but passionately. He hugs Key softly and cried on his shoulder. Key accepted the kiss. but pushes Jonghyun back. Jonghyun only tighten his grip the more Key pulls away until Key gave up and started crying. That one kiss broke Key. Jonghyun was telling the truth, but that doesn’t explain why. Why did Jonghyun hurt Key all this time, why couldn’t he just tell him sooner.
“You deserve the best, Kibum. . You are beautiful. You are far from usual. I don’t think of a life without you. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. “
Key didn’t know what to say anymore. He could think of the words but the only thing that comes to mind is “Fall with me?”
“What?”
“Jonghyun, I don’t want to live anymore. But I don’t want to die, knowing that someone actually cares. Kim Jonghyun, die with me?”
“Kibum . . .”
“No?”
Jonghyun shook his head. “I’m not losing you.”
“You don’t have to. . come with me?”
Jonghyun shook his head again. “I like my life. But I’d love my life with you in it. It doesn’t have to be this way. Kibum. . don’t do it. “
“I don’t want to suff-”
“You wouldn’t have to any longer. I promise!”
“Pinky square?”
“Kiss me.” Key blinks. “Alright, If you don’t I will. “ Jonghyun planted his lips on Key’s who just stands there blinking. He replies the kiss and wraps his arms around Jonghyun’s neck. Key and Jonghyun blush as Key wipes the tears from Jonghyun’s face. “So I’m taking it as you trust me, right? Because I would not be here if I didn’t love or care for you.”
“ I trust you, and I believe you but-”
“But?”
“But I-”
“Please don’t say you still want to die.”
Key nods his head. Jonghyun shakes his head. He didn’t believe this, he poured his heart out to Kibum, why did he still want to die?
“Jonghyun. . .”
“Key . . “
“ I always wanted to tell you this. . “
“Yes?”
“Open your eyes.”
Jonghyun looked at Key. Key looks at Jonghyun. He rubs his eyes. Jonghyun looked at Key, he wasn’t standing on the ledge. He was standing on the floor, feet planted. While Jonghyun was about to fall, on top of the ledge.
“Hyung what are you doing? Hyung stop this, don’t do this to me hyung, don’t jump. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I’m sorry,. I was stupid, please forgive me. I can’t lose you.Jonghyun, Jonghyun don’t do this.Jonghyun!”
“Look!”
“Who is that?”
“Is that a person?”
“Woah, how’d he get up there?”
“I think he might jump!”
“He can die!”
“He should jump, I have my camera”
“This is scary, I can’t watch.”
“I’m scared for him!”
“He can die!!!! “ He can die. He can die. He can die.
Jonghyun looked all around him. Key held out his hand.
“Live for me, with me? “ Key asks, water dripping from his eyes, his face flushed red and tears spill from his face.
“Kibum.”
“Jonghyun I luhh-” Jonghyun tackles Key to the floor. He starts cry and hugging and holding Key. Key looks at Jonghyun, confused but he didn’t care. Jonghyun loved Kibum. Kibum loved Jonghyun. He cared, he really cared. There was no place he rather be but in his arms.
There goes to show, when you love someone, good triumphs over evil. Sometimes a simple “I love you” can save a life or cheer up somebody’s bad day. People have feelings too and its only right that respect the way they feel because you wouldn’t like it if you were treated the same way. Sometimes its hard to understand that people have feelings to, the things that you say can affect the person, whether its negative or positive. Not everyone is as tough as you think they are, and even though you find it funny, consider how the next person feels, actually, no. Step into their shoes, live their life and understand now why. Why people hurt? Why do people cry? Why do people commit suicide?
"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." - Mother Teresa
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