soo2— you break it off in a sticky note.

  I hate this day.   It wasn’t a thought. It was more of a feeling. I hated it because I’ll be seeing Chanyeol again and I would have a hard time dealing with him.   Wednesdays are scheduled for our world literature class. Chanyeol and I enrolled the same course even though he was a business major.     Inside the lecture hall, I scanned the vicinity first—looking out for him. To my relief he was not there. Casually, I proceed and sat at the 10th row. It was not our standard place. I didn’t sit there coz, if Chanyeol would be here, he would straightforwardly sit on that place and would just wait for me—if he would still like to see me.   Chanyeol didn’t show up. I pull out my notebook and not long, our middle aged professor, Mr. Kim started the discussion on early medieval culture.   -   As we were in the middle of discussing our homework, the Song of Roland, I heard a screech on the floor on my right and hastily, it made me turn that way. There he was, two chairs away, crouching and grinning at me.    I shake my head and decide to focus on our lecturer again.   Five minutes later, I could feel something pointing at my skin. I look at Chanyeol’s way and he was looking at our professor, but his hand was extended close to me as he clips some sticky notes between my arm and the desk. Immediately, I grab the paper and read it.   Hey Sung Joo.    I turn the paper and saw the rest of his letters.   Are you still mad? Please don’t be. I’m really sorry.   Holding the paper in my hand, I glance at his direction and have these mixed emotions. I feel guilty, sad, helpless, trap and more of — confused. He was looking straight to wherever he was staring. His lips were pressed together—controlling the curve line his lips were forming.   I pull out the sticky notes I have inside my bag and stare at it for the longest time. I can't believe I'm ending our relationship with the very same way which got us together in the first place.   I scribble the things I cannot say to him personally.   “Chanyeol Let’s take a break.”   -   THEN.   I was the type of person who’s always sick. They say I had a bad stamina and truthfully, I couldn’t disagree with them. I was always excused with our subject, physical education. Sometimes, I would go with them and be the teacher’s assistant, but most of the days I was left inside our classroom to take care for my classmates’ belongings.   And at this very moment, I was once again, left alone at our classroom. We’re in our last year of high school, a lot of us are preparing for our university entrance exam. Given this kind of opportunity, I make it very useful by studying what I had noted for the day.     After going from the rest room, I was completely surprise to see Park Chanyeol sitting (or sleeping) on his chair. I find myself smiling. He was really adorable and cute. The truth is, I have this crush on him since the middle of our sophomore year, after we starred in to this play together.   Chanyeol is really friendly and has a good heart. He’s different from the other guys I met. He’s not arrogant and snob. He has the softest touch and he’s really respectful towards the opposite . Because of these qualities—I can say it’s impossible not to like him.   And then one day, one of my close friend, Baek Ji Sun told me that Park Chan Yeol has a crush on me. I was in euphoria, I definitely was. But then it subsided. As