Dear friend.

I've been stalking my EXO oppas for three straight days and I haven't returned home since then, I coughed and shrugged the cold as I wait outside their dorm when the gates opened, their manager shoo-ed me once again but I manage to run before he took my camera. darn, this is my second DSLR I bought within this month! I've been using most or all of my money just to stalk these wonderful boys. sometimes, I became tired because It's hard to wait in a cold winter night ... alone and with less food on my hands that's why I almost fainted but I manage to gain my strength and decided to return home.

I was dead tired when I got home when I found out my mother was out again and my two siblings were watching the television as If I don't even exist. I basically shrugged again and went up to my bedroom, I excitedly jumped to my bed and closed my eyes; I suddenly thought of my life: 

I've been like this since their debut, and I haven't made any progress of my real life lately. 

I really (jokingly) forgot how to write and count number when all I think about is my biases.

I really forgot how old my siblings are, neither my mother is.

I really forgot that my grades are dropping and I'm now a graduating

I really don't know what love is.

til' then, I'll be writing more and more of my thoughts in this journal, because I barely have friends in school because they think I'm a crazy girl who's obssessed with EXO

I just wanted to feel and see what love is

Yours truly, mia.