Eraser
Eraser
I was curious on how exactly to handle us being over.
I searched for methods on the internet.
I found something I could relate to.
It said I should hurt for however long I needed.
I was sad everyday. I look for a place to hide and hurt.
I though to myself 'Why can't i hurt for just one day?'
I remembered something you once said 'A life without love is like poverty, the only thing remaining is an empty room.' I hurt again and again just by remembering.
I realized why it wasn't only one day. That one day would be hell for me.
I always saw couples who were happy around me.
I want to be just like them.
I now only wish to erase you with an eraser.
Why can't I just forget everything, Instead of being in so much pain.
You and I, we’re like day and night, which cannot be together.
I wish I could erase you a hundered times over.
The love we shared is engraved in my heart like a tattoo, so no matter how hard I try it can't be erased.
I will endure it for as long as I can. I know it will not be easy.
I feel like I will die, Our friends ask if I am ok I put on my believeable smile and tell them I am doing fine.
Later I will be hidden in tears In case someone sees, I secretly shed tears I try so hard not to become weak.
I sit in front of your house in the car in tears.
Our common friends tell me that you seem to be doing well it hurts because you seem to have forgotten everything as quickly as I would want it to.
When you held me when would be at our best. It didn't last long.
We fought constantly and go for days without seeing each other.
Now I am forcing myself to forget how your hand feels in mine, your face, laughter, scent.
So many things that were once special I now want to erase.
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