There was a time when I felt like I would never

ever fall in love simply because I thought love

was something that people used in vain. The

relationships I had would go in spurts ending up

with me being the one bummed or me treating

the girl badly. "Relationship" was a word that

really did not mean anything to me simply

 because I felt they just did not work with me.

Then I found the perfect person. She honestly

meant the world to me and I was truly in love

with this girl. In addition, this girl is no other than

Sandara Park. However, the downfall of our

relationship fell heavily on me. I never truly

showed her that she could trust me; and while I

could not understand why she felt this way, it

has become much more apparent to me now

that she has gone from out of my life.  I look at it

as if she were just like me: ripping and

wondering the streets, saying I was in one place

when I really was not, texting and being

flirtatious with other people, and concisely not

doing right by me. I would have NEVER tolerated

it! But yet....I expected her to put up with me.

What an , yes I know. However, as you

see I have lost this girl and it is the worst pain to

think about me losing somebody who I thought I

could honestly marry, start a family with, and

then grow old with. In addition, not only that,

someone else will get to have such a special

girl. If I could start all over, I would go back and

change how much of an I was to her;

however, this is reality...there is no time machine

that I could use to go back in time. Although I

hate to say it, I have to accept that it is all my

 fault and I have to let her move on.

From the bottom of my heart, I still love you no matter what...

Kwon JiYong