Optional Song

I had enough. I couldn't go on anymore. 

For the 10th time I ran away from home. I wasn't going back. 

I ran and ran and ran and ran, until my lungs were burning.

I didn't know where I was running. It didnt matter. 

Finally I stopped. All I saw infront of me was a forest. Lovely. 

I entered the sacred place, finding peace. At least for now.

I could get lost in this beautiful place. It was perfect. 

It was fall, the season where everything was dying. Yet beautifully.

The trees were taking a rest, waiting until spring.

Where everything is gonna bloom again.

I waited for that time, the time where I can get back up and smile.

It didn't happen. I waited and waited and waited. Nothing. 

I was stuck in Winter. My heart as cold as winter.

After Sam, Key, Zico, Toby, Myungsoo, Junhyung, and even Melissa. 

The black pit in my heart grew and so did the pain. 

I couldn't feel anything, I was numb and helpless.

"You are a big disappointment in this family"

"Why can't you be like your sister, who's smart, pretty, and popular"

I tried, I really did, I didn't like it. It wasn't me. 

Mom, if only you know what she was doing behind your back,

How she got an abortion just 2 months ago. 

She's a fake . The biggest one. 

Dad, I won First Place in DJ-ing. 

You said I was wasting all my time. When I could've been studying Law.

I heard what you said, How you wish Nicole was your daughter instead of me.

You put bars on my windows, yet somehow I managed to ran away again. 

I felt suffocated. It felt like I was in prison. Worse than Prison.

Im not going back anymore. You can thank me never. 

Brother, whom I love dearly. Im sorry. You were the only one I counted on. 

But dear, I got to do this. I left a note on your table.

"I love you so much. Please dont cry when Im dead."

I really am sorry. 

I countinued walking and walking. The sun was slowly setting down. 

The rope I was dragging was gtting dirty, I need to go soon. 

All I wanted was happiness, Happiness or Love.

Yet Happiness nor Love I didn't get.

Maybe I'll try again, I'll be reborn in this world and have love.

Lots and lots of it. 

I sat down, feeling the nature beneath me. 

I cried and cried. It was my last. I won't feel this pain again. 

No one could save me. No one. 

Then I heard a rustle, coming from beside me.