Annyeong!!! ^_^ First i just want to say Mianhae, so much! I really did mean to get this up sooner but i have had literally so much to do it wasn't possible. I've been in shows for the last week, had exams, concerts... Just WAY too much to handle. So again, deepest apologises but it is finally up! Kamsahamnida so much for sticking with me and for subscribing and waiting so patiently! Thanks so much guys! ^_^ Anyway, i'll let you read now! Xx

Jonghyun hadn't had such a good day. He was always having trouble with his dating life, he had no idea why but whenever he tried to get with a girl, something always went wrong, and now it was happening all over again.

He had met this girl a few days ago and she seemed nice enough so he decided to go on a date with her. Everything had been planned out: he'd arranged a place at a really nice restaurant for lunch where they could talk to each other and then they could go for a walk in the park close by. Everything was planned, except for one tiny thing that went wrong - the girl he planned it for.

At first she didn't even show up for the date as he waited for her but then as Jonghyun had turned to leave, he had seen her around a corner practically eating the face off another man. In a huff he had left and come straight to Key's apartment, and not feeling in the mood to knock, simply opened the door himself with the spare key, which Key had given to him. Jonghyun often, though without realising it, took advantage of Key's generosity. He came and went as he pleased, he intruded his privacy, always told him about his problems, but he was never there for Key when he had them. It wasn't that Jonghyun was being arrogant or stuck up, he just never really took the time to notice his friend's condition.

He swung the door open and walked inside, still in a sulky mood from being shot down and cheated on, on the first date with this girl.

“Key?” he called loudly, no reply. “Hey, Key! You here? Can we talk?” Still no reply, “Odd” he thought. He walked around, scanning the rooms until his eyes landed on a small, handwritten note left on the table. He picked up the paper with a feather touch and carefully read over the delicate scrawl, it read:

Dear Jonghyun.

I knew you would be the first one to find me gone. But in a way that's good, it is because of my feelings for you that I am going in the first place. You might be asking where I am going and what I am talking about but I guess it doesn't really matter anymore. I tried to tell myself just seeing you was enough, that even if you didn't notice me, as long as I saw you I would be fine. But I was just lying to myself, it is so much harder. You may hate me Jonghyun, but I can't lie about what I feel anymore.

I love you. I know I shouldn't but I do anyway. I know my feelings for you could ruin everything you hold dear, but I won't say i'm sorry, because i'm not. I love you and even though you have never felt the same way, I wouldn't wish my feelings any differently as long as I get to see you everyday. But I can't force myself on you Jonghyun. That is something I would never wish to do. I know this letter is not the most romantic or lovingly heartfelt, but it is all I can manage now. If I don't stop then I could really ruin everything.

What I do now may not be what you expect. Some might say it's cowardice, others might say a tragic expression of love. I just think it is an escape from the truth, the truth that we were never meant to be together. There is nothing I or you could have done about it and it is just the way it has to be. I have to do this, I don't do it to hurt you. I only do it because I love you too much to hurt you by staying. Forgive me, my love. Forgive my foolish heart.

Forever yours, in spirit.

Key

Jonghyun had to reread the note over again until suddenly the realisation of what was really going on hit him, hard in the chest. He quickly put the piece of paper in his pocket and raced out of the door. The words from the paper were racing around his head.

I can't lie about what I feel anymore... 

how long had he been feeling this way? All this time and Jonghyun had never even guessed.

I love you. I know I shouldn't but I do anyway... 

Did he think so badly of Love? Of was it just that he feared Jonghyun's reaction, did he fear that he would hate him if he knew the truth?

What I do now may not be what you expect. Some might say it's cowardice, others might say a tragic expression of love. I just think it is an escape from the truth... 

Some of the words that stuck clearest in his head, there was only one thing these could mean: Key meant to commit suicide. Jonghyun's legs were still moving as fast as they could, he prayed he was heading in the right direction, he didn't want to think about what might happen if he wasn't. Then there were those last few words,

...Forgive me, my love. Forgive my foolish heart.

As he ran, he pulled out his mobile phone and dialled Key's number,

“Come on Key, Pick it up!” Still it kept ringing in his hand, Key wouldn't answer. “Please don't let me be too late. I'm coming Key, just hold on!”

Beside him, Key's phone was ringing and vibrating, he could hear it crystal clearly and he knew Jonghyun had found his message, part of it made him happy but another only made it stir him on. He was sitting atop the bridge, looking down at the cold dark and perilous water. To anyone else it would seem like a peaceful little area of water to admire and possibly take pictures of, but to Key it was about to become his final resting place. He sat there on his own, in simple black clothes, looking over the edge. As an extra counter measure, he had tied weights to his wrists to drag him under, in the case that the impact did not finish him off. The world around him seemed to slow until it was stopped completely. For the first time he could just sit there on that bridge edge, close his eyes and be completely at peace. Troubles and the rest of the world were still surrounding him but his true being didn't even notice. But it wasn't exactly peace, it was more like he was being distracted from the things that troubled him, like Jonghyun. Jonghyun. That one word; one name that made his world and head spin in both good ways and bad, the one word that made his heart beat erratically and stop dead at different times, the only word that could make him feel the most happiest of joys and th