~*Alex POV*~

I didn’t go to the Bonamana bar party because #1 I don’t drink and #2 I’m too young! I was with Henry watching a movie, and then my cellphone rang.

“Hello?” I said,

“Are you family with Lee Donghae?” said a man,

“Why?”

“Lee Donghae is at the xx hospital, please come quickly” the man said, my eyes widened,

“Where’s the hospital!?” I yelled,

“At xx street” the man said, I quickly hung up,

“HENRY! DRIVE ME TO THE XX HOSPITAL NOW!” I yelled, Henry looked at me confused, but he saw how desperate I looked, so he did exactly as I said, I quickly ran towards the door and put my shoes on, Henry ran out following me, I zoomed down the stairs because the elevator seemed to take forever coming up! I got down and Henry was waiting for me in the parking lot. I quickly got in, and Henry started driving.

“HURRY!” I cried, my legs were trembling, and my eyes were getting watery,

“What happened?” Henry asked driving his car,

“Donghae’s in the hospital!” I bursted out crying

“Why?”

“I don’t know! That’s the scary part! What if he’s dead! When then will happen?!” I cried even harder,

“It’s ok Alex! Don’t worry! Donghae’s alright!” Henry tried to comfort me,

We finally got into the hospital, I rushed into the door and checked with the receptionist, Donghae, he was in room 1302, I rushed in, and saw the nurses taking care of him,

“Excuse me, but can you tell me what happened?” I asked the doctor,

“Well, apparently he was in a car accident, a car flipped and he landed on the street for some reason.” The doctor said,

“Is he alright?” my tears started to overflow,

“He’s unconscious right now, but I expect him to be up later today or tomarrow,” the doctor said, I looked at Donghae, there were stitches and protectors over his leg, and head. I walked over to Donghae and stared at him… I kneeled down at his bedside, and started crying. Henry was next to me patting my back.

I feel awful… for a week, we didn’t talk… I was mad at him… Why am I so dumb?! What if Donghae dies?! I’m such a terrible person! How could I be such a brat?!

Henry slowly pulled a chair next to Donghae’s bed, and nudged me to sit on it. I felt so weak, I couldn’t stand, so Henry had to help me. I sat on that chair, and looked at Donghae, I gently took his hand and started to cry all over again. Henry walked out, and I could hear him calling Leeteuk. I sat there, feeling dead while staring at Donghae… I knew my eyes where getting puffier by the second, but I couldn’t help myself.

What if Donghae dies?

I barely talked to him…

Please God… Let him live!

Please!

Don’t let Donghae leave me!

I love him ok?

Are you happy now God?

I love Donghae!

He may be the most retarded and idiotic brother in the ENTIRE world…

But I love him!

Sure, he makes a bunch of retarded mistakes

And he forgets easily,

Not to mention he tried to kill me every time he cooks

And he complains that I don’t hang out with him…

But please God!

Please let him live!

Tear drops were dropping like crazy, but I couldn’t help it! Donghae… Please live! Don’t leave me right now…

“Doctor, do we need to do surgery on him?” I could hear Henry ask outside the room,

“He has a few broken bones, so we just need to do small surgerys, nothing to worry about” the doctor said,

I looked at Donghae,

Please live…

“But since he’s unconscious, we need to see if we need to do any important surgeries” the doctor said,

“ Like?” Henry asked,

“We checked it up earlier, and we might have to do surgery mostly on his legs. So his singing career is still ok” the doctor said, I looked back at Donghae,

“You hear Hae? You don’t have to give up your singing career…” I tried to smile, but seeing Donghae like this…

“You know Hae; I really hated Super Junior for so long…” I stared at him, “I guess you’ve known that… But you know…” I took a big breath, “After getting to know them for a month or so… I understand why you care for them” I smiled, but I could barely see him through the tears in my eyes, “Donghae, because of you I really hated crying, so I always cry by myself, so I sometimes think we should switch bodies so you can cry all you want.” I held his hand tighter, “I really wish I could take the pain for you right now… “ I looked at the monitor,

Beep… beep…beep…

“Donghae~ Please live” I started to cry,

~*Donghae POV*~

Why does my head hurt? Why is it so dark? Why do I hear someone crying?

“You know Hae, I hated Super Junior for so long…” I heard a cry…

Alex?

I listened to her longer, it was Alex alright…

“I really wish I could take the pain for you now” she cried,

She was holding my hand,

Is it me, or is her hand softer?

I guess I can blame her cooking the rice,

Cleaning the rice every day just to make the members food.

You would even joke around with the members saying that it’s so Asian or something.

Quickly making kimchi,

Then even if you didn’t know it, but I saw you scream out,

“WHY IS SUPER JUNIOR SO ASIAN?! THEY FORCE ME TO MAKE KIMCHI EVERYDAY!” in english

I didn’t understand it, but when I asked Henry what you were saying, he translated, and I laughed.

I wish you would stop crying, I’m alive, I just can’t move.

Stop crying ok?

Please stop…