You  sighed as you threw yourself on bed once you reached your room. Thousand of thoughts crossed your mind as you lay there. You never once understand why do others hate you so much.  Is it because you got a grey wing? Or is it because you're different from them? Or is it because you doesn't have a parent?

"Who is my parent?" you asked yourself as you closed your eye. There is always pieces of memories flashed back into your mind whenever you think about this question but you could never really get the full picture about it as your head always hurt a lot whenever you think hard.

You turned to your side as you held onto your head, "Seriously..Could this pain go away?" You sat up and decided to stop thinking about it. Your shifted your attention to the merry-go-round given to you by L.Joe. Your lip craved into a smile as you thought about the memories that you both shared.

"~~~!!!" The 13 years old L.Joe ran over to you with the merry-go-round in his hand, "~~~!!".

You turned around to him without turning off the water that was coming out from the hose as you was helping the gardener to water the flowers. He screamed as the water hit him, "Turn that off!!". Your jaw dropped as you stood there with the hose still in your hand. He shielded himself from the water using his arm, "Yah!!! Stop daydreaming!"

You came back to your sense from his scolding, instantly, you switched it off. You ran over to him to show him your concern but he just laughed it off. You were confused so you asked him, "Master, why are you laughing?".

He chuckled and replied, "It was fun." Your face remained as your usual poker face, "It was fun?". He nodded, "It was!". You just nodded your head as you stared at him. His face lighted up as he remember something, "Here! This is something for you as a gift of been friends!".

You looked at the merry-go-round in his hand, your eye widen in delight. "Beautiful..". He grinned from ear to ear, "I know that you will like it! Take it." You took it from him as you carried on looking at it.

You looked up to him and say, "Thank you, master."

He chuckled and says, "Don't call me master. From now onward, you're my sister. Call me oppa, arraso dongsaeng?". You smiled widely and nodded your head.

You picked up the merry-go-round that was placed on the side table and stared at it for minutes. You didn't even noticed that someone enter your room. You started to cried as you thought of how you were once a cheerful girl been close to him and the rest of his friends but now, you're all alone just because of how you couldn't let go of those hate when he stood there without helping you. You couldn't help but felt miserable when you doesn't had anyone there for you whenever someone bullied you in school. You couldn't help but felt like you're not important to anyone when you don't even have a parent.

"Don't cry." You only came back to your sense when L.Joe hugged you from behind. You gasped when you dropped the merry-go-round onto the floor. You wanted to reached out to pick it up but he pulled you back by hugging you tightly, "Andwae.."

 You stayed still as you looked down with mixed feeling. You were once again confused by his action, just like one years ago. "Don't leave me." He said. You slowly pulled his arm away from you, but he refused to give way.

"Master, please let go." He flicked as you called him as master. You got out of his grab once he loosen his grab on you. You picked up the merry-go-round as you wiped your tears off your face. You turned to him with your usual poker face as you reached out your hand to him with the merry-go-round.

He looked at you with a smirk, "What does this mean?". You looked down and says, "Take this back. I don't need it anymore."

He chuckled as he looked away from you, he stayed silent for a few minute. You took a deep breath and took a step toward him, whom was sitting in a comfortable position on your bed. You placed the merry-go-round beside him. He looked at you as you did that and asked, "Are you saying that it is over between us?".

You sat down on the bed, but far away from him, "What do you mean by that? We didn't even had anything to do with each other, master."

He looked down and says, "Ya right. It is my own feeling for you. You just treated me as your brother. And master.".

'That isn't the truth..' you thought.

"Alright." He pretended not to be hurt as he took out his homework, "Teach me all this thing.". You took it from him and asked, "Which question?".

"All." He replied. 'That's the only way I could spend more time with you, ~~~..' he thought.

You stared at him with your poker face. He looked back to you and you both stayed like that for a few minute. Thoughts crossed your mind as you studied him. He frowned and asked, "What?".

You looked down and shook your head. You went over to your study table and started to do all his homework. He just sat over there and studied your back view.

♦L.Joe's POV♦

Why can't she understand my feeling toward her? Why does it seem like she is avoiding all the things that got to do with me? Does she really hate me ... that much?

I don't like it when she is so quiet. Why.. must ~~~ hide her thoughts?

I looked at ~~~ as she did all my homework without even wanting to teach me. Since one years ago, she will take all cost to avoid talking to me or even looking into my eyes. Does that accident really hurt her that much? Was it because I took her blood? Or was it because I stood there without helping her?

I'm really curious about the answers she had in her heart but she didn't open up to anyone since I first met her.

"I got to get it clear." I says softly. 

L.Joe placed both his hand on the table when he stood behind you. You jumped from shock as you were thinking solution for math question. You bite your lip and kept quiet.

He stayed there for one moments before he spoke, "Why do you hate me so much?". You flinched by his question. You tighten your grab on the pen as you looked down.

"Answer me." L.Joe spoke with a much stronger voice. He seem determined to know the answers.

Without any reason, your tears streamed down your face as your heard his heavy breathing. You knew that he is angry but you couldn't seem to tell him the reason. You don't really hate him. It's just that you couldn't get over how he just stood there without helping you but you knew that that isn't the right reason.

It was because of Hyuna and L.Joe's dad. You knew that you shouldn't get too close to him because he already had Hyuna by his side since young. You knew that L.Joe's dad will never forgive him if you both were too close to each other.

Your tears seem to be like a river that kept flowing down. You looked down as you let them dipped down onto your skirt.

"Yah. Ain't you gonna answer me?" L.Joe grabbed your wrist and pulled you out of the chair to face him. But his anger seem to fade out once he saw your crying face. You looked down to prevent him from looking at you. You hate it when he was around when you're crying.

"Mianhae.." You says as you tried to pull away from him. He tighten his grab on your wrist as he silently looked at you. He pulled you into his embrace, that was all he could think of doing it to comfort you at the current moments.

"Mianhae..I couldn't give you the answers now.." You said as you tighten your arm around his waist. "But I don't hate you."

L.Joe's face lighten up once he heard your words. He tighten his arm around you too and smiled in happiness with a mix feeling stirring around in his heart.

"Could you love me?" He asked without any hesitate. Your eye widen in shock by his question. You slowly loosen your grab and decided to pull away from him.

"You can't answer that too?"

"....."

He closed his eye and took a step toward you. You looked at him as he got closer to you, he placed one of his hand on your cheek as looked at you with his loving eye.

"It doesn't matter any longer. I'm sorry for bothering you."

He placed his lips over yours and had a soft kiss with you for the first time and - the last time.

He pulled away from you and ran out of your room, leaving you there with tears forming on your eye.

"I love you..I'm sorry.." You said as you choke back from your tears. You pressed one hand against your face as you cried.

By the side, she saw it all. "How could you ~~~..You're going to pay for this.. L.Joe doesn't belong to you but me, Kim Hyuna."

She walked off with a smirk on her face, "Do you think that Byunghun will love you forever? He won't because I won't allow this kind of things to happen."

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