** background music: nothing better by Brown eyed soul

Half an hour already passed after he send that message. Still hurt, still in pain, still want to cry and still messy choi siwon.

Half an hour already passed, but still no calls, not even a reply message. He feels like a right now.He has let go something important, but once again, he's in dilemma. For the first time in his life, he's regret being a choi siwon. The perfect choi siwon, choi siwon that people put trust and depends on him.

He woke up from his bed and look himself in the mirror. Showing tall perfect body with handsome face.laughter out of his mouth. No it's not a happy proud laughs but a bitter laughs instead.

"Perfect? hahaa.. Screw perfection!" without thinking, he crashed the mirror with his right hand. glasses are scattered in floor just like his aching heart. Blood pouring from his knuckles just like tears that now pouring from his eyes.but the pain in his hand is not worth the pain in his heart

"Cho kyuhyun  cho kyuhyun. cho kyuhyun..." he keep repeating kyuhyun's name like it some kind of mantra that can help him heal the pain on his chest.

He drop himself on the floor, leaning his back on the wall, head looking down while tearskeep pouring and his hand keep bleeding. But he doesn't care, no he's not ing care. Nothing is matter right now. Right now he just want to die. Die and forget all this pain.

While he still in deep misery, his door suddenly yanked open fiercely and stood the reason of his misery.

"hyung.."

He didn't expect to see a miserable choi siwon. He saw glasses are scattered in the floor.

Siwon snapped up his head right away after hearing that familiar voice. instead of feeling happy, he feels more pain when saw kyuhyun's face.

"what the hell happened here hyung?! and what the is your message means?!

But siwon didn't answer, he didn't have enough strenght to face his ex-boyfriend. Haha.. yes ex-boyfriend

Siwon stood and his back facing kyuhyun " Get out..." Siwon didn't want kyuhyun to see him like this. and that's when kyuhyun notice the blood on siwon's hand and the floor.

"w-what .. what the hell happened hyung?hyung! ya  choi siwon!"  kyuhyun stood beside siwon and grab the bleeding hand but siwon pull his hand harshly.

"what do you care?" siwon narrowing his eyes to kyuhyun and kyuhyun can see hurt and pain on his face. Kyuhyun startled for minutes and mumbling "stupid"

Kyuhyun running to bathroom and took wet towel and back to siwon's side. Kyuhyun try to grab siwon's injury hand but siwon still try to pull his hand away. "STOP moving!" Kyuhyun half yelling makes the older startled and let the younger do what he want.

Kyuhyun start to rubbed the injury hand softly. " what the hell are you thinking hyung?"  Siwon swear he can hear concern note from kyuhyun's voice.Instead of answering the question. he took his time to observed the younger. The fluffy caramel hair, sweet brown orbs, the sharp nose, the chubby cheeks with slight pink tint on it and a delicious look plump lips.

'Perfect.. why are you doing this to me kyu? huh' Siwon can't stop thinking

"Stop thinking" Kyuhyun stopped his on siwon's injury hand and staring deeply to siwon's eyes " you are really stupid..."

Siwon narrowing his eyes slightly "what?.. stupid?"

Kyuhyun took band aid from his bag and put it on siwon's hand. He smile slightly too see his great job with healing siwon's hand "done.."

and he's back stared the older " and you.. what am i gonna do to you?" he sighs and pull siwon to sit on the bed with him.

while staring straight to siwon's black orbs, he can see the older is confused." i only say this once. i'm not and never gonna break up with you. i'm sorry for my harsh words, i don't know what comes into me but i never meant all the words i said. i'm sorry for breaking your heart and.."  he silently closing the gap between them and kissed siwon softly on the lips for a minute. " i love you" kyuhyun whispered into siwon's lips

and for that moment, siwon forget all the pain he felt hours ago. He knows that he loves the boy in front of him so much. He hugged that boy tightly like he doesn't want to let him go.

Kyuhyun chuckled and his man's back softly. soothing him . " i love you siwonie.. how can you think that i able to hate you? i'm sorry for my childish act"

Siwon broke the hug and looking to kyuhyun's eyes. " you say you hate me. you say i'm a burden to you. you say you're bett--" Kyuhyun kissed him fully on the lips, stopping him from keep talking. tears begin dwelling in his eyes."i-im sorry. i'm so sorry. i never meant any of them.i hate myself for saying that mean words to you. but please,please don't breaking up with me. don't let me go . please"  he burried his eyes to his lap, not able to meet siwon's eyes

and minutes later, sobs and sniffing can be heard from the boy. Smile crawling to siwon's lips. He took kyuhyun's chin and making him looked him in the eyes. He saw how puffy and red kyuhyun's eyes has been.

"my baby.." he put small kisses on the boy's eyes. " yes you hurt me" absorbing the tears with his kisses." you hurt me million times" Kyuhyun whining a bit hearing siwon's words and earn him a chuckles from siwon. "it's okay for me with your childish act,but please. please don't say you hate me like you want to breaking up with me" siwon cupped kyuhyun's face and his cheeks with his thumbs. " i know i'm not a good boyfriend, i keep breaking my promise but please stay with me.. i might going crazy without you" and he kissed the boy softly. making the boy purred from the sweetness

"and i might die without you" kyuhyun whispered between their kisses.

kyuhyun broke the kiss and siwon's cheeks softly. " you are not a perfect boyfriend,neither do i. but we can learn how to become one. would you forgive me and start to learn with me?"

Siwon looking kyu in the eyes and saw pure sincerity on it. " i do cho kyuhyun..i do"

and with that, kyuhyun continued the kissing and deepen it. nothing's matter right now for siwon. The matter is his baby is in his hands right now, kissing him and his name softly.

well, their relationship is not perfect, neither they are. but they willing to learn, they will fall once in a while but they have each other. They will get up and try again. in the end, love is what matter. Siwon loves kyuhyun and Kyuhyun loves siwon. and nothing better than to be together....

It always appeared before me
Your face, I remember
My heart that stopped short
You spitefully took my disfunctional heart
And with your bright smile
That's how you easily opened my heart

It's true, that is how I became your man
All my unpleasant memories, I no longer recall
Because the hand that holds me tight
is as warm as spring

And now like a dream my heart
has gradually stopped by your side
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
if you were to always rest by my side
if you were to always remain this way
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

And now like a dream, My heart
in your embrace, is held still
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
if you were to always rest by my side
if you were to always remain this way
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

nothing better nothing better than you