love you, hate me

If you can't forgive me, I understand.

Would you be so kind

to play this song

this nonsensical song

at my funeral?

It is strung together

with words that

don't belong

Do we belong together?

Yes? No? Maybe so?

We couldn't have if

you are not here

with me

looking up at the stars

through the trees.

I just wanted to shield you

from the reality you belonged to

It is so messed up

We are so messed up

I messed us up

I was the one

who proclaimed us done

but you are the one

I love the most

But I drove you away

and all I see is your ghost

If only you could see

what I see

See through my eyes

the reality I despise

Aren't you seeing it now?

I thought I could protect you

from the horrors passing through

Where are you now?

Do you hate me?

I would, if I were you

So hate me

don't forgive me

stay away from me

I believe these to be true.

{ author's note }

Well look at that, I updated.