11. When Sehun was in 8th grade, he was taller than me, as getting older, he gets more handsome and very good at sport. As for me, I need to be ready for college so I couldn't go home with him like before. Just by seeing me, he'll smile and ran towards me "You come here to catch me?" then he'll hug me really tight. Hey, hey, how dare you to hug and kiss me so easily, we are old now. But Sehun doesn't care, such a stubborn kid.

12. He was 16 and I was in the 2nd year of college, my neck hurts a lot because I have to look up at him, his hands were really bigger than me now, it hugs my hands fully, hanging out with Sehun made me feel like a kid.

13. Suddenly he asked me if I had had a girlfriend? Truly responded to him saying "I haven't" but he didn't believe me. If Sehun says he doesn't have a girlfriend, THAT would be a lie. He has a lot of fangirls and love note but declined all of them. When I swear to him that I don't have a girlfriend, he smiled and gave me a kiss. I couldn't say anything and he gave me another one."That's a reward for not having a girlfriend and the second was a punishment because you keep looking up but didn't say anything to me". Clearly that he always bullied me, why did he have to use this method.

14. He went to college and I was in my last year, finally we got to go to the same school like in 1st grade. He still waited for me and he really did. Oh Sehun has always waited for me, standing in front of my class and wait for me.

15. Sehun saw me taking a gift from a girl, he was mad. I didn't know why he was mad at me but from that day on he didn't wait for me anymore, he didn't call me "Hanhan". Even when he sees me, he only said "Hi" coldly. Sehun has never called me anything but "Hanhan". I stood in front of his class quietly and waited for him to come out. He stubbornly sitting on the chair. I’m afraid if I can’t wait for him this time he’ll never going home with me anymore.

16. He yellled at me, hugging and yelling at me. I hate him because he yelled at me but I can't hate him because he was hugging me, it turned out I can only stand still, watching him hugging me and I cried hard. How dare him saying I'm stupid, I'm scared he might get angry at me so I waited for him outside even when is rainning, he made me  do that but now he yells at me. "You have a girlfriend, why do you have to wait for me from time to time, are you playing with me?" he said I'm stupid but HE is the stupid one. Because she said if I don't want to be her boyfriend then having her gift is fine, I can't make her feel worse so I took it, he's stupid for not asking me and didn't even listen to my explanation. He kissed me "Next time, DO NOT taking gifts from other" Even though he's arbitrary and always control my life but I only need him to go home with me then I'll never blame him

17. Finally I found a job, a staff in a small office but still enough for me. Sehun, at this time, was making a graduation essay so he can't meet me like usual. We rarely have time but still going for a cup of coffee, he still laughs at me for drinking hot chocolate even though I'm old, coffee is bitter. Until now, Sehun still doesn't talk much only me make the conversation, Sehun quietly drinks the coffee and smiles at me. At the end of the date he said "You have chocolate on your lips", and bend down to kiss me, he's taking advantage of me. 

18. He graduated and has a job, I heard that we'll have a very good new staff in our company, I can't believe it was Sehun. When he introduced himself, Sehun called out my name loudly "HANHAN". No one calls me it besides him. So embarassed.

19. I told him why did he get such good job, nice figure and lots of 'fans' but he still doesn't have a girlfriend. He really did going for a blind date, why the hell do I have to feel sad about it? He even told me the girl is a daughter of a director, beautiful and very smart. I askedo him if he likes her, he smiled. Why did he smile and I want to cry?

20. I’m doomed, seeing him makes some phone call in his office make me think he’s calling for her. And when he was walking with me and smiled happily, I feel like he was thinking about the girl. I avoided him, I don’t want to walk home with hi, remember when Sehun did that to me so I don’t care about him anymore. Just feel annoyed inside, I’m REALLY doomed.

21. He asked me out for a talk, I told him I’m busy with work so I can’t come there and he said he would wait for me until I come. I know him since we were little, if he said he waits, he will. He asked me if I remember the 1^st time we met? Remember his first name was mine, remember when he cried for me,, remember when we always go home together. I said I do but what for? It all happened in the past, he has a girlfriend now, why did he have to pull me back, I don’t want to play with him.

22. Sehun asked if I have realized the reason why he got made at me in college. I remembered he looked exactly like me right now, he thought I have a girlfriend and I won’t need him anymore and that’s the reason why he didn’t talk to me. He asked me if I know why he got mad then why am I mad like this? I said I don’t know, it’s been a long time since I lied and everytime I lied was his fault, truth is I know I like him, the “little baby” in my neighbor. But he has a girlfriend now, why do I have to remember those? He always make me cry. And everytime I cry, he would always comfort me so gently, ruffling my hair and even laughed. Finally he kissed me “Why…why would you always kiss me?” Pouting at him but he just hugged me. “Because I love you, let me kiss you for life” Oh Sehun ALWAYS make me cry but I just want to smile until I can’t see the sun.

Because I want to let him kiss me for life.