"confusion is close to delusion"

"My bestfriend byun baekhyun"

Chanyeol PV

After I left bacon at the hospital I went straight home.There were lot's of things I needed to process.Baekhyun got beaten for helping me and he also didn't send that message and he also has a huge crush on me!!

"aigo i need some good sleep"I went straight to bed this day got me sooo tired 

*THE NEXT DAY*

I woke up getting ready like everyday there was no one home. I got out of the house and to my suprise kyungsoo was there!!

"annyeong chanyeol how are you?" he asked cheerfully while bending

'i'm ..fine hmm why are you here?" I asked a bit confused

"hyung asked me to accompany you today so we could get closer " 

"that puppy" I mumbled .I could see him gazing seriously at me while we were walking to school

"he told me about..the whole kiss"he said

I was so embarassed I really just wanted to forget about that

"honestly i don't want to talk about this" i said nervously

"so you are just going to ignore everything hyung told you?" he asked worried

"I...i..maybe if people know they will make fun of me ,of him of us!"

"ah you're worried about what people think not about your feelings" he stated

"wowww me and baek are just friends allright i'm not...i'm not like that!" i said angrily he was really pissing me of i'm not gay! or at least i think

"How can you be so sure ?Have you ever tried with a guy ?"he asked

"Dude stop it I  don't want to talk with you now goodbye" I ditched  him and started walking faster 

"aigo is he crazy or what" i mumbled to myself

Baekhyun  PV

I healed from my small injuries that meant I could finally go home .My face was still a bit swollen but I wasn't hurt anymore.I did have some bandage on my face and my stomach and legs but I was fine.

I'm more worried about how chan will interact with me .I packed my bags and started to make my way home.

*20min later*

"ah baekhyunnieee~" i heard a little scream

"mom " i hugged her 

"i'm sorry i couldn't come to the hospital i had so much work they didn't want to let me leave" she apologized .But she didn't need to I wasn't mad. My mom tries her best so i can never be mad at her.

"it's fine i wasn't that hurt" i smiled she looked so happy to see me .she kept pinching my cheeks wich hurted and my face she was so adorable~

"ah your new chingu came he told me he and channie already headed to school if you want you can stay at home" she stated while taking my bags

"ani i'm fine" i kissed her on her forehead and ran upstairs to get ready.

She drove me to school and then left to work.

"aigo i hope that one day she will get some rest" i mumbled desperatly .I looked at the school from a far it felt like it was a new start . my friends knew about me !! I was nervouse but i wanted it to get over so i walked  to school and found my class.

"Ah baekhyun-ahh~" luhan screamed and ran into my arms  he looked so happy to see me it was almost cute ."aigo hyung don't kill me " i said while joking we talked a bit and then finally decided to go inside of the classroom.

The math teacher wasn't too happy about us being late so i just sat down next to kyungsoo and followed the lesson . I didn't spot Chanyeol

"annyeong hyung" kyungsoo whispered "annyeong" i responed

"where's chanyeol??" i asked 

"i don't know he was weird today he  probably went away with this tall blond guy and   the other dude"he whispered .I knew who he was referring to.

"aishh" i mumbled

"YAH QUIET!!!" the teacher shouted.I just hoped that i could see chanyeol right after this class.

Chanyeol  PV

I didn't feel like going to class so i went to see kris and kai who were at the coffee shop.Missing two hours was no big deal i'm a pro at maths so it should be fine .

"hey guys" i said when i enterred the shop

 

"hey hyung "kai said while playfully hugging me 

"so how is the bacon doing ?" Kris asked immediately

"well hello to you too and i guess he is fine" i said while scratching the back of my head .why would he care anyway.

"we heard what happenned i felt so bad for him" kai said with a sad face

"well maybe he deserved it!" kris stated wich really pissed me of cuz he has no right to say something like that! i was starting to get pissed

"yah hyung" kai poked him while looking at me 

"No i honestly believe he deserved it chanyeol! you can't be friends with someone so weak who always tries to gain your attention with bull!" kris said .

"you don't know him like that !" i was trying not to sound too mad 

"you have no right to talk about him that way he isn't who you think he is,i'm weak not him  !"

"But he kissed you! is that what you want.. a reputation of QUEER" kris shouted 

"omo hyungs don't fight " kai said while interventing and trying to push kris back gently  

"i'm not like that kris and you know it !why are you acting like that ?! are you jealouse?" i asked while my eyes started to tear cuz i kind of that he was right.

kai letted go of his grip and looked at the ground while scratching his head he was clearly not having it today 

"hyungs I will let you guys sort it out cuz this isn't my call  " he said angrily and left the shop

Kris's facial expression softened when kai left,he looked ..sad

"i'm not jealouse but you need to drop him chan he is making you so weak "he started walking closer to me . 

"hyung don't come any closer" I said while panicking he was so close we were almost kissing!!!

"are you sure you don't want me to?" he whispered while holding my waiste closer to him i could smell him.

he smelled so nice~  I could smell a scent of raspberry and red wine .

I was blushing so hard !! i have no idea of what was happening ,i couldn't even face him!

he grabbed my chin and made me face him.

I was against a wall so i had no escape .

"i...i'm not like that kris" i mumbled while trying to get out of his grip

"i doubt it"

he said while leaning in for a kiss .His lips first brushed but then he really went for it .

they were so soft just like a girl .i didn't know what to do i couldn't break the kiss either.

He broke the kiss and giggled  while looking at me .

"d....don't do that again!" i shouted  while breaking out of his grip and i immediately took my bag and ran to school.

All these guys were confusing me .why didn't this feel wrong?? but with baek..."aigooo please god help me" i was so confused

My heart was also kind of beating fast.

I arrived at school and i could see baek looking right back at me"aigoo " i tried to ignore him but he was already too close

"hey" he said akwardly i just nodded .

"so about yesterday..--"

"another time i'm....i'm in a rush" i said while walking away. i know i was ignoring him again but i needed time to process him and kris and me!Maybe it was baek's fault! maybe he was making me become a "queer" too ! it's all his fault !

Baekhyun's pv

"is he ignoring me again??" I asked myself .I really don't want to argue with him but i followed him

"in a rush for  what ditching school with kris?" i asked confused 

"Baek i just don't want to talk about it " he said softly

"But why ?i want to move on but we need to talk!" I said while looking at him seriously

"I don't want people to think stuff baek some people know about... you know" he whispered

"it was just a kiss get over it chanyeol"

"well i don't want that reputation" 

"what reputation chanyeol??!!you are confusing" i was so over it .

if he was uncomfortable he could just tell me .

"I...I...i think you're trying to get all  my attention after what you did baekhyun" he stated while walking to his locker . i obviously followed him

"is it about that text again? i told you it wasn't me chan" 

"then WHO WAS IT BAEK?" he shouted

"...i feel like you're looking for excuses to not talk about it ..."

"Just go i don't want to talk about it ,I want to forget"he looked ashamed and discusted just like when i kissed him the same facial expression.

i thought we were over that!!He closed his locker and tried to leave but i was clinging to his shirt

"chanyeol please don't be like that" i was starting to feel the tears in my eyes . my face was still really sore so i couldn't scream or get angry. i just wanted to cry .

"BAEKHYUN LET GO OF ME NOW I DON'T WANT TO BECOME A "QUEER" like YOU" he shouted and kindly pushed me obviously .

Tears started to run out of my eyes.. i was speecheless i just collapsed hy was he acting like that?!

I don't want to lose him he is just so important to me i just can't help but loving him !

From a far i saw kyungsoo talking to chanyeol 

why was kyungsoo protecting me and supporting me more than chanyeol?!

Chanyeol PV

I obviously didn't want to talk to baek i just wasn't ready for all the judging i was scared.

He kept pushing it so i had to be harsh . i just kept looking down.

As i looked up i saw kyungsoo comming right at me

"YAH ARE YOU MAD CHANYEOL" he shouted 

"go away i don't want to talk" i pushed him back

"you are such a bad friend you can't even believe the guy who is like your brother nor accept who he really is ! Who are you chanyeol ?! Baek deserves someone better"He was now speaking with a soft tone but i could hear he was angry he was soo angry

" kyungsoo it's not like that ..-" 

"you need to grow up and sort things out !chan in the mean time don't come near baek .He isn't the reason you are so upset !go find the real reason then come back" he pushed me angrily and walked to baek.

I felt so bad for instigating all of that. i didn't want to hurt baek but i  felt like i had the right to be mad he lied and did some fuc*ed up stuff.

"aigoo I guess i just haven't fogiven him yet ..."

 iknew i  needed to sort things out without baek and kris!but with myself first

"What if I was a gay guy?!what if he changed me what if it just feels right with him and i might like him more than girls?!" i mumbled to myself 

I just didn't know myself I guess

How could I judge Baek If I didn't even know who I was

"aigooo"

Luckily today was a short day ! I didn't need to face Baekhyun cuz we had different classes and Kris didn't show up so I just stick to luhan and kai .

After school

"I will make it up to Baek but I will need time to think"I told kai when we were walking home

"Ne ..You know kris really likes you though..i don't know what happened but you mean alot to us but mostly him" kai told me 

"really?!"

"ne he talks alot about you and about how he wants you guys to be closer"

I felt warm inside and i was smiling i don't know why i felt like that.I guess kris makes me feel important.

"this is me " i gave him a playful punch and walked towards  my house .

I could see someone was waiting I just couldn't really tell who.As I walked closer I was a bit startled!!

I heard a voice and I knew who it was!

"Let's go to my place"

was all he said and he dragged me to a  fancy black car I was so nervouse.. what was happening?!

 

end of chapter 6!! Sooo who do you think was waiting with that fancy car?? comment below

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talalalabangbang #1
LOL best friend? You misspelled boyfriend
talalalabangbang #2
LOL best friend? You misspelled boyfriend
exo_luhannim #3
Chapter 7: so cool , I like it , please make more rated m
ilabya24 #4
interesting~
AkariXing
#5
Chapter 3: baekyeol team..
geutbye #6
Chapter 2: its so cool! update soon pleaase~