I was empty for so long. There was this permanent loneliness inside of me and I made myself believe that love was the only way to fill it, to stop my neverending suffering. 

Zico, it was not just by chance that we've met. It was fate. And you showed me, that life is not based on fairy tales. You showed me the true meaning of friendship and of protecting someone till your last breath.

I still remember how we met and which great effect you had on me. I was blinded by the way you are and the world you lived in. Everything I did was only to be in the same height as you, so you couldn't overlook me.

There were a lot of things I wanted to say but I never had the self-confidence to speak them out. And I thought that you would never accept them anway, my feelings I mean. I just wanted to be around you. Because I had the feeling that you were the only person who could understand me. Most of the people thought that I was dumb, an innocent little girl. But they didn't know my story... maybe I was stupid but I was never dumb. And innocence? That's far from reality.

Many things happened in my life. I went through a lot of things that would change a person completely. Did they change me?
Yes, I thought they did. But you know what? No, they didn't. In the end, nothing changed. When I look in the mirror today, I see the same emptiness shinning through my tired eyes and a pale face.

But if I could keep one happiness forever, I would  take the one night I layed in your arms, my head on your chest and listened to your heartbeat. I felt how my heart started to smile, not one of these fakes smiles, no, the honest ones. And you whispered "it'll be okay" and wiped my tears away with your cold hands. All my worries were gone and I dreamed of a better tomorrow.

To be honest,when I think about it, all my happiest moments were the ones with you...
 

Zico, I accepted all the mistakes I made, and I also faced them, one by one. And since you know how I really am, it wasn't easy. But the scares are still here and they just won't disappear...

Zico, can you see the moon too? I mean, from where you are right now?
Because I can see it so clearly, and it's shinning so bright tonight.

I wonder, Zico, if we sometimes are caught in the same memories, I mean, is there a possibility?

Hello, my name is Kim Hyejin, and this is my story...