Sehun had always felt inferior, not because he was, but because he didn’t seem to understand the others’ affection for him. He knew how the others talked about him and even though the words were never bad, he interpreted them that way. Simply because he would always see himself as less than them; he was the maknae, the one with the fewest lines, the one with screen-time only because he danced a little better than average – but he would never see himself as good, because Jongin was good and not him. He didn’t know how much he was needed in the group and only thought of the things he had to do in front of the camera as bothersome and humiliating while in fact, that was where most of the fans came from.
“So… why exactly do we have to pick Sehun for this… after all, it’s dangerous, we could lose him.” one of them said. Some nodded in agreement, but the one who had announced they’d choose Sehun, shook his head.
“Exactly because it’s dangerous. It would be dangerous for everyone and you know what he thinks of himself as. He has always been thinking he wasn’t good enough, even hearing Jongin say that he tries to befriend everyone… He thinks he isn’t worth a thing in this world, which is why we have to show him that we rely on him a lot.” A few soft whispers filled the room until everybody fell silent again. It seemed as though the group of men had to think this through for a while, but after a few moments, the man at the very back agreed.
“Alright. Maybe it should be Sehun. He’s the youngest after all… It’s just… I don’t want anything to happen to him.”
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From that moment, Sehun was stuck in a dangerous game that couldn’t be avoided, he could either lose his life, or stick through to the end. Option one was the least tiring one, the one that he would have chosen.
Prologue
Getting some sleep after a tiring day like today seemed to be the best thing that had ever happened to me; if only it wasn’t for the fact that the managers kept bugging me before I could go to sleep. Me. Not the leader, not the vocalists, rapper, main dancer, no, me, the maknae. They kept asking me if I was alright, if I needed anything, if I was comfortable, if there was maybe someone I wanted to see – ‘Family, some old friends maybe?’ – but I kept shrugging them off. Why were they like this anyways? When I asked them, no answer filled my ears, it were just stutters of some incoherent words and that was what bothered me even more than the fact that they bothered me. Why wouldn’t they get straight to the point…
Ugh. I couldn’t even fall asleep with all of those things crowding my thoughts and it didn’t ease my mind that I kept feeling Joonmyun’s hands brush the bangs out of my face – he probably thought I was asleep. Then, without a warning, he took my hand and I heard him cry, so I couldn’t even pretend I was sleeping any longer. I shot up, scared him to death and hugged him, because of many things. I felt distressed and I knew our leader was even worse because he was crying, and all of what happened the few hours before, made me scared as well.
“Hyung… what is wrong?” I asked him, while he just kept sobbing louder into my chest. I swallowed my own tears that threatened to fall, without knowing why everything was so messed up today and nobody seemed willing enough to tell me anything. I rubbed his back in the best awkward way I could, hoping he would calm down a little it. His crying died down to sniffles and he looked straight into my eyes, his own were red, puffy and shining with remaining tears. It shocked me so much to see him like this.
“Baby… you have to know that we love you, okay? Don’t forget about us and we’ll try to help but… Just… just live, okay? Sehun-ah, promise me you’ll live!” Shaking me like he was some lunatic, he actually scared the hell out of me there, but I nodded. I would live, even though I didn’t know what was wrong with all of them.
“I’ll live, hyung.” I said, not even a second before I felt a sharp pain through my left side. I wanted to ask Joonmyun-hyung what was going on, but I fell back, my head painfully colliding with the wall and I was unconscious after that.
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So, this is the mood for my new story ... it's pretty dark and weird, isn't it O_O Edit-- I've added Chanhun as the pairing because... it's going to be Chanhun. I hope you like that ^-^ and it's Sehun-centered, as you might have noticed~
Okay, a few other things... I don't own anyone and this is fictional (who would have thought O_o) and I'm not sure whether I have to rate this because there's going to be a few gross things happening, but... I don't know?
I hope you will enjoy the not-knowing-a-lot-at-the-beginning because it's something new I'm trying (I'm trying a lot of new things lately ^0^) and well, comment and subscribe if you think it's worth it :)
Also... (I just keep talking or something ><) I don't know when I will first update this because I'm putting in a lot of effort so it might take a while~
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