“So, what do you want to talk about?” you asked before sipping your coffee

“I want you to know my situation right now…” Donghae replied, not shifting his gaze away from you

“What is your situation?” you asked as you stir your coffee

“I don’t want to get married” he emotionlessly answered which made you stop from stirring

“What?!” you asked with your eyes, wide opened

“You heard me. I don’t want to get married. I don’t want to get married to Yoona. She doesn’t deserve me…” Donghae answered while staring at you

“What do you mean you don’t want to get married? And to Yoona? What’s wrong with Yoona? She’s beautiful, nice, humble and all! Why don’t you want her?” you threw questions like a machine gun

“Listen. This marriage is an ARRANGED one. Get it?” Donghae explained

“Arranged? But even though… Yoona isn’t hard to love? She has everything!” you reasoned

“HyunMi, listen to me. It is very seldom that an arrange marriage turns out well. Yoona may have everything that a man could ever wish for but for me, she’s just a friend and nothing more. I mean, I may have felt something for her before but it isn’t as much as what I feel for you…” Donghae confessed

“This is wrong! This is just so wrong!” you replied, preventing yourself from crying again

“There’s nothing wrong, HyunMi! Yoona knows that I only see her as a friend and she accepts that fact. HyunMi, don’t you get it? My heart is still not over you and it will never be.” Donghae tried to let you understand

“Donghae, this is wrong… You need to accept the fact that you’re getting married in 3 days and you cannot do anything to change it…” you tried explaining to him

“I can still do something… If you’d just believe in me…” Donghae held your hands

“Donghae, please… you’re just making things harder for me and you. I promised myself to move on from you… And this isn’t helping me…” you replied as a tear fell

Donghae stopped and stared at you’re crying face… He knew that you would be hurt by these things that he’s revealing… But what can he do? He loves you! And he knows that you feel the same.

*You’re my first love… even though we didn’t end up together the first time, I still don’t want to give up. Why do you think God allowed us to meet again? It is because we are meant to be together. He wants us to be together! Oh, HyunMi…please understand… listen to your heart… and not to your mind…* Donghae thought

“I know you feel the same way as I do…” Donghae calmly concluded

“NO! You don’t know anything!” you defensively replied

“I know you do! You just don’t want to admit it… You don’t want to accept the fact that you still love me…” Donghae replied with all his confidence

*Don’t want to admit it?! Love him?! Is it true??? Oh, PLEASE!!! I don’t want this to be true for I have someone now. Someone who knew me well than Donghae does… Kyuhyun…. But what is this feeling? This feeling that tells me to give Donghae a chance… But he’s getting married! UGHHHH!!!! I don’t know what to do anymore!!! Dear Lord, help me! Please…* you thought

“I’m not going to force you to tell me if you still love me or not. But whether you love me or not, I want you to know how I can make changes…” Donghae seriously broke the silence

“What do you mean?” you replied, confused

“I don’t know if you still love me or not. But with this way, I will be able to know if you still do… Listen, I want you to come to our wedding.” Donghae strictly ordered

“WHAT?! I’m not even invited and you want me to COME?!” you started to get furious

“Well, Yoona is very fond of you and she plans to invite you to our wedding… Just so you know…”  Donghae notified and it made you speechless

“Now, to make things easier for you, if you want me back, come to our wedding. If you don’t, it only means it’s over… No more chances…” Donghae instructed

“WAIT! Are you telling me to act like a wedding stopper?” you exclaimed

“NO! All I want you to do is to show up. As soon, as I see you, without a word, I’d leave the altar.” Donghae explained

“WHAT?! That’s just too brutal for Yoona’s part…” you were shocked at how brave he is to do such thing

“She’d understand… I hope…” he whispered but you heard him

“NO!!! She won’t! A part of her may understand you but she’s also a human. She’ll definitely be hurt. Can’t you see these consequences? Many people would be hurt! Not only her, but also her family and yours. You’re just being selfish right now, Donghae.” you disagreed, knowing how much it hurts to be left hanging by the person you love

“You know, sometimes you also need to be selfish. You suffered too much. And it’s time to repay those sufferings with joy” Donghae tried to convince you

“Being selfish gets you nowhere! There are many other ways on how I can repay those sad memories back. But this way is just so wrong! You can’t escape fate and reality, Donghae. You’re getting married in 3 days and there’s nothing you can do about it.” you started to cry again, knowing that you also need to face the reality that he can never be yours

“FATE! That’s the word I’ve been waiting for to hear! Why do you think we met again? After 2 years, why now? It’s because it’s our FATE! Our DESTINY. Don’t you still get it? We’re being tested right now… And I’m ready to solve this problem. But I can only solve this, if you’re going to help me…” Donghae was already tired explaining things to you but he doesn’t want to give up, he doesn’t want to let you go for the second time

*FATE~ DESTINY~ The words I hated the most… Hearing them makes me want to do wrong things…* you thought

“But you left me without a reason, now don’t come back with an excuse. I don’t think there’s a reason for us to continue this nonsense…” you replied, acting all brave but deep inside you were crying

“But you left me no choice. All I needed was a ‘yes’ from you. But I don’t know why I never heard it…” he sternly replied which made you silent

You wanted to explain. You wanted him to know the truth. But it’s from the past and it should not be brought back to the present

“Maybe you need some more time to think about it… I’m not giving up, I just want you to think more clearly… I’m sorry if this is all of a sudden. I’m sorry to put you through this unending suffering but we need this to be able to gain happiness…” he softened but still, you remained silent

“I hope you’d reconsider your decision…” he said then left

*UGHHH!!! Why do I have to go through this drama all over again?! I’m over this, 2 years ago! Truth does really hurt…* you thought as you stare out the window

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