in which byun baekhyun is inecure as hell.

no caps in this one, probably because i'm too lazy and to just add that effect. but yeah, enjoy. if you haven't heard of the song, listen to it, it's truly beautiful.

it's not about a boy trying to make a girl fall for him or vice versa, like most songs are these days. it's not about how a girl should fix it. it's about a girl embracing her flaws and her other half, loving her the way she is and all her flaws.

i'm not entirely sure about this, but whattheheck? :D it's like it's everywhere and messy but...i just wanted to post this. also, isnt' the owl in the background adorable? :D 

click here to listen to the song. 

it wasn't always that byun baekhyun felt insecure. no. it was always whenever he felt down. when even the world is against him. when everything is wrong. when everything feels very off and weird. it always was at very random times too. 

his insecurity was probably the only thing that can hurt him. really bad. mentally and physically. the only one who knows of these times was his life line. his life and practically his everything. the person who would help him out of his state. the only one who understands. the same one he's afraid would leave him because all of his flaws. if not him.

the same one who would tell him no, they would never leave him. never for anything. even if, no matter how cheesy it sounds, the world was to end the next day. baekhyun would always list out his flaws in his head, all the things he hated on himself, and repeat it throughout the day. there'd be a fake smile on his face,                                                         but it never reached his eyes. it wasn't normal. 

everyone would notice this. everyone would ask if he was okay. he'd say yes, but inside there would be screams of no. everyone wouldn't make the effort to do anything. it was because they knew whatever they tried or attempted to do, nothing would make him feel better. they could be called "bad friends" but it was the truth. there was nothing they could do.

there was only one cure for this, and everyone knew that.  wu yifan.

yifan would take him into his arms, and lock him in the tightest hug he could possibly mutter up. he'd mumble into the younger's ears of how he was in love with him. of how he much loves baekhyun, flaws included. no one could change the feelings he had towards the younger. that no matter how many people told him that he isn't perfect, baekhyun is perfect in his eyes. for now, and forever. 

"you'll never love yourself half as much as i love you. you'll never treat yourself, darling, but i want you to.                                                                                                                                                                                        if i let you know, i'm here for you, maybe you'll love yourself like i  love you."