Saying I didn't get much sleep was an understatement. I had a celebrity coming in to my humble home, who wouldn't freak? I couldn't help myself, once it hit 8 am I rolled haphazardly out of bed nearly falling on my face. Nice move Raina, just greet Daesung with a broken nose why don't you. I spent one...ok well maybe more than one but... quite a few hours sitting up searching anything and everything I could find about Kang Daesung. How he was like, what he was doing recently, his ideal type..... Who can blame a girl?

It was getting harder and harder to deny the feelings I began developing for the idol. So Why not check if I had a chance right? Finally getting my lazy out of bed, I quickly neaten up a bit more, and ran out for groceries. Not too long after I got back home and started on making a meal did I realize exactly how much time I spent googling Daesung.... wow no wonder there were so many fan girls in this world. It kinda make you addictivly passionate, and now it was getting late.

Just as it hit about 11:15 pm I heard the front door bell go off, and if this were a race I would of won big time. I ran to to door as if my life depended on it, straightened my clothes and hair, before opening ir to reveal the figure of the idol I just stressed out about all morning, standing there to greet me with one of his best smiles.

"Raina!" he just about yelled and I quickly yanked him in to the apartment before he could be seen. 

"Oppa you have to be more careful" I pouted and he chuckled a bit before looking around the place.

"Its cozy here I like it" Before I could comment he quickly turned towards me holding out 3 movies.

"Ok so I didn't know what you liked so I brought a selection. A Horror, a Comedy and a.. well " I could of sworn I just saw blush on his cheeks "A Romance"

I quickly took his coat off and hung it up in the closet before leading him further in to my home. Didn't I read somewhere that he was a complete coward? It made me wonder about the horror movie. "Well.. with it so dark outside the Horror is tempting" I said, testing the waters. If he were a cartoon, all his color would of just drained to the floor. I giggled lightly.

"Lets watch the Romance, Love stories are the best at night" I commented before nudging him to sit on the couch. "Hungry? Have you eaten yet?

"Nope! I figured if your pastries are so good your cooking must be really good too!" He commented, thinking to himself that he wanted to have your cooking to himself to rub in Seungri's face later on.

"Don't get your hopes up" I laughed before bringing him out a few plates then going back to fetch him something to drink. "Go on and eat without me, I kinda 'sampled' too much while I was cooking"

Well Daesung didn't wait a second after I told him it was ok to dive in to the meal, and just as he imagined... it was just pure.. pure sweet glory.

"Ya.... Raina, marry me so I can have your cooking all the time" he said in between bites and I simply shook your head at him. "Careful what you wish for"

Daesung blushed lightly, again his mouth moved faster than his mind allowed him... He really needed to keep quiet some times. With a soft glance he looked up and you and felt better about his little outburst once his eyes fell on to the soft curves of your lips as you smiled at him.

"Where'd you learn to cook like this?" he commented, sitting back and trying to be more civil while he ate instead of huddled over his food like a possessive animal.

"Well it was me and my brother by ourselves for a long time, and he's a picky eater so I just sort of learned on my own" I shrugged, if I could hit my brother for all the times he chucked the food I painstakingly made for him at my face because he didn't like it, he probably wouldn't be in this world any longer. Daesung finished his food quickly and, against my protests, cleaned up the kitchen for you while I sat pouting in the living room.

"Ready?" he questioned as he sat down, grabbing the remote and getting the movie ready to play. I smiled and quickly turned off all the lights before finding my place back to Daesung's side, his fingers hitting Play.


Daesung's P.O.V

Through out the movie I found that instead of watching the screen like you normaly do, I instead occationally directed my attention to Raina. Watching as her eyebrows shifted with the mood and her lips pursed when things got sad. I even couldn't help myself but to quickly look at her before finding a pretty spot on the wall when the scene played.

There was just something about Yoon Raina that had me all confused. I'd wake up and feel empty in my bed, spend hours in a day just thinking about her and what she was doing. Defending her against s advances, especially the panda, when they brought her up in conversation. The topic always being if they had a shot with her. He felt like... Raina is meant to be mine... but right now she isn't. It hurt.

Her laugh brought mee out of his thoughts, her y, beautiful laugh and I quickly looked at the screen. Watching the couple wrestling for a remote. I ended up laughing at the scene as well.

"She shouldn't even try, us men are pro's at getting and keeping the remote! We get spartan training at birth you know" I beamed chuckled, watching as she shot me a competitive grin.

"Oh yeah? Wanna test that theory out?" she said before quickly swiping the remote from the ground. I of course wasn't going to let her off that easy, and lunged to try to get it back. Why? Who cared.


Your P.O.V

I didn't know why I needed to test him but it happened, and now with the movie some how on pause, we were locked in a match for keeping the remote. At first, I could tell he was being careful not to use too much strength with me, but as soon as his competitive side came out, I found myself under the muscular idol with my hands pinned above my head.

I laid under him, Flushed and out of breath, and a little to be honest, watching as the realization of our position hit him. I saw the confusion, uncertainty, then... confidence? It made my eyes shift down to look at his lips, those plump perfect lips of his. Daesung slowly lowered himself down, his head tilting before he pushed himself completely off of me. 

"I'm... I'm sorry" He commented before sitting back and turning the movie back on. " Guess I won huh? " he nervously chuckled.

I felt.... pain and disappointment. What was that? Did he like you? Or was it just the heat of the moment? I sat back up and turned to the screen, glancing at the idol from the corner of my eye. What I didn't know was that Daesung was mentally beating himself up. He wanted nothing more than to steal your lips right then and there. Make you his, but he chickened out last second. How was he ever going to look in to your eyes now?

After the movie was over, Daesung told me he needed to head out because of a early schedule, and I did my best to not let the earlier events affect my mood and how I talked to him. 

"Don't work to hard ok? And take a few days to yourself, I can see your dark circles from here. When you want to drop by again tell me and I'll make you something tasty ok?" I mentioned and he beamed before shooing me back in to the warmth of my apartment and heading home. I needed to take a bath early and go to bed, and try to forget what happened. After what happened earlier, I feel like my head and my heart are a complete mess.


Daesung's P.O.V

I found myself wandering in the dark of the dorms before pulling up a seat in the kitchen,  resting my head in my palms as I contemplated today. I lied to her, Why ... why did I lie to her like that. A Schedule? I'm such a failure.

"Dae?" I heard called out from the hall and I knew exactly who it was. "Hyung " I spoke out weakly, not bothering to move from my position. It was my turn now to wallow in self-pitty.

Jiyong looked his band mate up and down before flicking on the lights in the kitchen and pulling a chair up next to his friend, His hand moving to the younger male's back as he attempted to comfort the idol.

"what happened?" I took a long drawn out breath before sighing, and looking up to my leader.

"I almost kissed her..." I paused and the elder knew exactly who I was referring to.

"She reject you?" I couldn't help but let out a pathetic laugh. Rejected me? She was looking up at me with such want. "Nope I chickened out of it last second" I thought back to how the blush coated her cheeks, and some sweat from the match beforehand made her forehead and neck shine deliciously. How badly I wanted to make her mine right then and there.

"She just looked so.... and I couldn't help myself. Now she's probably going to hate me........... What guy takes advantage of a situation then chickens out? " I lowered my gaze to the floor.

Jiyong couldn't believe what he was hearing. Daesung was hit by cupid alright and he got hit hard. The elder male couldn't help but to smile.

"Look Dae, she didnt reject you so I'm sure you still got a chance right? Why don't you just walk up to her tomorrow and confess?"

"Hyung" I whined.

"What? You already almost kissed her, how bad is a confession?"

"Hyung!" Jiyong laughed.

"Look Dae, you really like this girl right? So be a man and confess, unless you want some other guy to go up and take your woman away." When I looked up and met his gaze Jiyong felt more confident.

"Not many of us get to find that one person that makes us lose ourselves Dae, so as your friend.... I'm telling you don't give up? K? Now go to bed before I flip a table or something. All this mushy talk feels weird" Jiyong commented before shuddering with a yesh and walking towards his room. I smile, even chuckled quietly before nodding to myself with a determined look. Time to man up.

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Your P.O.V

Work went by pretty fast today. There was a steady flow of customers and it kept busy straight to close time. Bidding some of the workers good night I locked the door to the shop and moved to the back of the counter. Fixing myself a warm cup of tea and bringing that and some paperwork with me to a table in the front. Business was doing well, maybe in a few more months or so I'd see about expanding or moving locations.

I finished up some long awaited work, wiped down a few tables then began turning off some of the machines when a knocking at the door grabbed my attention. I looked up to see not only snow falling again, but a very cold but still very smily Daesung waving at me from outside the window. With a soft giggle I moved quickly to let him in.

"Brrrrrrrr! It's freezing outside! I hope you dressed warm" He said as he walked in, making sure to lock the door behind him.

"Nope unlucky for me, today I decided to wear a dress " I smiled, not quite catching what I assume to be a compliment whispered behind me.

"Thirsty? Want something warm?" I questioned, heading behind the counter to turn the hot coco machine back on.

"Well if you keep spoiling me like this Raina, people are going to get jealous!" Daesung teased before getting up and moving behind the counter as well, his hand quickly grasping my own. " I'm not thirsty"

I took a second to admire how big his hand was compared to mine, before turning to look at him, my smile disappearing the second my eyes fell on his serious expression.

"Raina?.... We've known each other for a little over 2 or 3 months right?" He questioned and I nodded. " I want to ask you something... but I'm scared of what your going to say"

My mind starting filling with questions. What did he want to tell me? Was Big Bang planing on touring again? Was he going to get so busy that I wouldn't be able to see him for awhile?

"I like someone, and I don't know how to tell her. I need your help, what do you think I should do?" I felt in that one moment, my heart falling in to a deep pit, he liked someone else and needed my help to get her. It hurt, the thought that someone else would have Daesung all to themselves, that someone else would be his and that that someone else wasn't me. It took a lot of strength to keep the tears biting at my eyes from falling, so I instead just smiled the best smile I could give him.

"Tell her! You don't want to miss the chance right? Idol life is hard enough without someone there for you, so tell her" I tried my best to be excited for him.

"I'm too afraid" Daesung admitted. " I know how I feel but I don't know how she feels. " I sincerely thought for a moment.

"Then show her, Sometimes actions are louder than words. Plus if you never try you'll never know how she feels right?" And there it was, That was the confirmation he needed. I felt a hand graze my cheek and instinctively moved my own hands over his.

"Daesung?" I questioned, my voice small almost a whiper. He simply hummed a short response before he leaned in, pressing his lips ever so softly against mine. The kiss was soft, careful, but I closed my eyes. Just completely drawn in by him. He broke the kiss, his lips ghosting over mine for a moment before he leaned back to look at me.

"I think I love you.. Yoon Raina. I want..... I want you to be mine" he said before kissing me again. "Please be mine" our lips met again, and he slipped his arm around my waist protectivly, bringing me in close to his body. " Please...." he whispered. It was all so much, I almost forgot where I was... hell I almost who I was and with each kiss I lost more and more strength in my body, but Daesung kept me so close to him. His muscular arms keeping me flush against his frame. Was he always this strong? I never noticed how much smaller I was compared to him, and now that I'm here securely in his arms. I just felt safe, and warm and everything felt right.

I watched as Daesung searched my face for answers, and I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding on to.

"Yes...." I managed to breath out, watching as his face almost shined.

"Really?" he questioned, almost as if this were a dream and he simply couldn't wake up, and I nodded once again saying the word which just seemed so right. "Yes"

There are no words for the smile Daesung gave me in that moment. It almost took my breath away and if that werent enough, the second his lips met mine again, there was no control. He had my heart and I was glad to give it to him.

"Say it again... one more time?" I quickly leaned my head on to his shoulder, comfortably hugging him back. Daesung thought for a moment but it didn't take him long to figure out what I meant. "I love you"

"I love you too"


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[A/N]: I'm back! Sorry for taking such a long break. I had the worst writers block and then I moved. Things are settling down for a bit so hopefully I can keep up with this. As a apology I tried to make this one a bit longer c: Hope you all like it!