- SORA POV -

After the weekend was over I hardly woke up.

I couldn't sleep the night before, because I thought about Sunggyu.

*Am I in love with him? How do I know, if I love someone?*

,,I can't love him. I'm going to marry Myungsoo." I said to myself.

After I got ready I went downstairs and to my surprise Myungsoo was sitting in the kitchen and talked with my mother.

,,Oh sweety, see who is here." My mother said smiling.

A smile formed on my lips while I approached him.

,,Oppa, what are you doing here?" I asked him.

,,From now on we will go to school together." He said and hugged me as greeting.

When we were done with breakfist we left the house and made our way to school.

We passed Sunggyus house and saw how he was closing the door.

He turned around and looked at me and Myungsoo.

It seemed like he ignored me, because he left without saying nor doing anything.

,,See you later." Myungsoo said after he brang me to my classroom.

I nodded and watched how he left.

I entered the classroom and sat down on my seat.

Sunggyu looked out of the window, like always.

*Is looking out the window everything he does at school?*

,,S-Sunggyu." I don't know why, but I wanted to talk with him.

I wanted to hear his voice and I wanted him to trust me.

He looked at me without saying anything.

His gaze was empty.

,,I-I just want you to know, that you can always talk with me. I won't tell anyone." I smiled sincerly at him.

,,I don't know what you are talking about." He said, still without doing any expression with his face.

,,Like ... you know ... the thing yesterday .... "

*Aish, I think I shouldn't have said that.*

His face was still emotionless, but I could see the madness in his eyes.

,,Are you stupid?" He asked me and stand up.

,,What do you want from me? Can't you just let me be? Do you really think I would talk with a girl like you about my life? You're nothing but a crazy stalker."

He left after saying this and my eyes started to tear up.

But I tried to be strong and not to cry in front of my classmates.

*Why is he always so mean to me, if I just want to help him?*

I looked around the class and everybody looked weirdly at me.

,,This girl is really too much." I heard someone say.

,,I heard she is stalking Sunggyu."

,,She even forced L to be her boyfriend."

,,Such a stupid and ugly girl."

I stand up and left with a hanging head.

Forgetting that Sunggyu would probably be at the school garden, I went there.

I sat down on the grass and started to cry.

This was the prove for me. I love him.

Why would I cry like this, because of him, if I wouldn't love him?

*I'm really in love with this mean jerk!*

After some minutes I tried to calm down again.

I had to go on my class again and try to forget everything, what just happened.

After wiping my tears I stand up and was about to go back to class when I bumped into someone.

My eyes widdened.

,,S-Sunggyu ..."

He looked at me and without saying anything be passed me by.

I was staying there still unable to move.

When I heard the schoolbell ring I run to the class.

Everybody looked at me when I entered.

I tried to forget the stares and tried not to listen what they were saying.

As soon as our brake began I left the class and and searched for Myungsoo in the canteen.

I saw him sitting on the kingka table.

With the others.

He smiled when he saw me and did a handexpression to come over.

I was about to come when I saw Sunggyu sitting there as well.

I just turned and run away.

,,Sora!" I heard someone call me from behind.

When I was outside the school I stopped.

,,Yah, Sora, what's wrong?" A familiar voice asked me while hugging me from behind.

,,Sorry Oppa ... I don't feel that well today. I think I'm going home."

Before he had the chance to answer I left.

At home, I just layed in my bed and cried.

My heart was aching, because of what Sunggyu said.

Suddenly someone knocked on my door.

I immediately wiped my tears away and opened.

,,Oh, Mum." I said while looking on the ground and hoped she wouldn't notice I cried.

,,Why are you home so early?" She asked worried.

,,I don't feel well. I think I need some time to rest."

,,Oh really? Do you have a fever? Did you catch a cold? Let me make a tea for you-"

,,NO. I just want to ... be alone now ..."

,,Did ... did Myungsoo do something?" She asked me.

I looked surprised at her.

*Myungsoo? Why is she thinking that?*

,,No." I answered. ,,He didn't do anything."

,,See, if there is a problem with him you can always talk with me okay? I know how it feels when you have lovesickness."

*Yes mum, I AM lovesick. But not because of Myungsoo ...*

,,I told you I don't have any problems with myungsoo."

My mother nodded, gave me a kiss on my cheek and closed the door after she left my room.

The next day it was kinda awkward for me, when myungsoo picked me up from home again.

I mean, I realized, that I love another boy and not the one I'm going to marry.

While walking to school he held my hand,

When we were standing in front of my classroom my classmates stared at me again.

*This is just the second week I'm on this school and everybody hates me already. Perfect ...*

,,Are you really sure you are feeling better today?" Myungsoo asked me worried.

I nodded. ,,Don't worry. I probably didn't get enough sleep yesterday." I smiled at him so he won't worry too much.

,,Okay ... then see you later."  He said and went to his own classroom.

I was a little scared of entering the classroom, because I knew sunggyu would be there.

In the end I had no other choice but to enter, because the teacher came.

While walking to my seat I tried not to look at anyone.

I just looked on the ground and silently sat down.

All day sunggyu ignored me.

Even when I was at the same table in the canteen with him and the other kingkas, he didn't even looked at me.

After school I went to the school garden again.

Fortunately Sunggyu wasn't there, so I could be alone for a while.

Suddenly I heard someone sobbing.

I looked around but couldn't see anyone.

Then I saw a girl sitting crying under a tree.

I approached her and sat beside her.

,,Are you okay?" I asked, trying to be nice.

She looked surprised up and I widdened my eyes when I recognized Hyosung, the schools queenka.

,,How dare you- what are you doing here?" She asked furious and wiped her tears away.

,,I was just passing by ... I know you probably don't want to talk with me. But if you want to, I'll listen." I smiled at her.

Somehow I had the feeling I should be nice to her at that moment.

She stayed quiet.

*She probably won't talk with me.*

I was about to go away, when she grapped my arm, as sign for me to stay.

I sat down again and looked silently at her.

,,My father betrayed my mum ... now they are going to divorce. And if that isn't bad enough, my dad tolt me I'm not their real daughter. I was adopted ..."

*Should I say something? I didn't expect her to talk to me...*

,,My father already left our house. And my mother will soon move to america. They will let me alone ..."

I saw tears falling down her cheeks.

,,But this isn't even the worst thing. The other queenkas are leaving this school, because my father got them into an american school. When I asked him why he did that, he said he never wanted to adopt me, because I'm the daughter of his first love. He hated me ... He wants me to suffer the pain he had when my "real" mother left him.  Why do I have to suffer? Why is he taking all people I loved away? Why?"

She started to cry really hard and I just hugged her.

I don't know how she is feeling, because I was never really alone.

But I knew the pain she is feeling must be a lot worse than mine, because of Sunggyu.

,,He is being so unfair to you." I whispered.

After a while Hyosung calmed down again and we let go of the hug.

We looked up at the sky, which was getting darker.

,,Why are you so nice to me?" She asked.

I smiled. ,,I don't know." I then answered.

,,You're really stupid." She said but then chuckled.

She smiled at me. ,,Thank you."

,,No problem. You aren't as bad as I thought." I said laughing.

,,That's just today. Tomorrow I won't be so nice to you. And if you dare to tell somebody about what I told you just now-"

,,Don't worry. I'll keep this secret."

I looked on my watch and stand up.

,,Anyway, I have to go home."

Suddenly I saw her sad eyes, when I said the word "home".

I felt bad for her. But what could I do?

,,Do you ... wanna come with me?" I asked, althought I wasn't sure if its a good idea.

,,What?" She asked suprised by my offer.

,,You can sleep over at my house. We can watch movies and ... I don't know. Just do "girl" stuff." I smiled at her and waited for an answer.

After she thought a while about it, she nodded.

I helped her to stand up and together we went to my home.

 

- SUNGGYU POV -

,,So what do you think about her? Isn't she amazing?" Myungsoo asked me excited.

*No, she isn't.*

,,Yeah. She is nice."

Since my and Sora's performance, Myungsoo talked even more about her than before.

It was monday morning. To be exact, it was 5am.

He woke me up and I wonder how he came in my house, and more what was he doing here so early?

I was really sleepy but he kept talking about her.

,,I can't belive I found a girl like her. She is different than the other girls. She is cute, nice, funny-"

,,Yeah she is perfect."

,,Are you even listening?"

,,Yeah she is nice." I tried not to fall asleep.

,,You already said this ... sorry, you probably rather want to sleep than to listen right?"

,,YES. Please, I'm really tired. Yesterday I went to bed at ... okay I went to bed an hour ago."

..What? Why so late!?" Myungsoo asked shocked.

,,I was searching for someone ..."

,,Your mother?" Myungsoo asked, without knowing what happened two days before.

My mother was going to die.

And I didn't know where she is, because my "father" didn't want to tell me.

I nodded.

,,I'm sure she is fine." He smiled.

,,Oh its already time. I'm going to pick Sora up now. See you later at school." He said and left.

I tried to sleep again.

But I couldn't stop to think about Sora.

She was the only one who knew the thing about my mother.

And she was the only one, beside Infinite, who knew who my father is.

I cried in front of her ... again.

*Okay, from now on I won't cry ever again. Above all not in front of her ...*

Althought I was really sleepy, since I didn't got much sleep, I got ready for school.

When I left my home I saw Myungsoo and Sora.

I didn't want to talk with them so I just went to school.

In the classroom I was about to fall asleep.

But I tried to stay awake.

I looked out of the window and felt my eyes getting heavier.

Suddenly I heard someone say my name.

I turned around and saw Sora looking at me.

,,I-I just want you to know, that you can always talk with me. I won't tell anyone." She said and I could see sincerity in her eyes.

,,I don't know what you are talking about." I said, trying to act cool.

,,Like ... you know ... the thing yesterday ..."

I don't know why, but I suddenly became mad.

*Why is she telling me that? Why is she even caring about me? I don't understand why she is always talking with me, like I can't help myself.*

I stand up trying to get a hold of myself, so I won't yell at her.

,,Are you stupid?" I asked, without even wanting to ask that.

,,What do you want from me? Can't you just let me be? Do you really think I would talk with a girl like you about my life? You're nothing but a crazy stalker."

*No I didn't mean to say that ...*

I saw her sad eyes and immediately regretted what I said.

I left without looking at her again.

*It's her fault! I didn't got enough sleep. I'm not in a good mood today. Why did she had to say something like that today?*

When I arrived the school garden I stayed there a while, but left when I realized she could come there too.

I couldn't see her after saying things like that to her.

I was feeling bad.

I went to the canteed and sat on a table.

Thinking about Sora, I didn't noticed my father sitting beside me.

,,Sunggyu, what are you doing here? Don't you have class now?"

Without answering I left.

,,Sunggyu! Yah!" I heard him call behind me, but I didn't care.

*I think there is no other place, I can go, than the school garden.*

When I approached the garden I saw Sora.

*I knew she would come here.*

Suddenly she run against me.

,,S-Sunggyu ..." Her voice was trembling and her eyes were red and puffy.

*Oh no, she cried. She cried because of me. Althought I hate it so see girls cry, I caused her to cry. I'm such a jerk ...*

She run away without saying anything more.

I stayed there untill the brake began.

Like everyday I went to the canteen with my friends.

When we sat there, laughing and talking about random things, I saw Sora.

She was approached us but stopped after she saw me.

*Well, she probably don't want to see me right now ...*

Then she run away, with Myungsoo following her.

,,Oh wasn't that Sora?" Sungyeol asked confused while looking in her direction.

,,Yeah. But why isn't she coming over?" Dongwoo asked.

After a while Myungsoo returned and told us Sora isn't feeling well, so she is leaving.

I sighed.

,,Guys, I think I'm going home too. I didn't slept much last night. I'm really tired." I said while standing up.

,,Okay. See you tomorrow." The others said and I went home.

Fortunately Myungsoo didn't wake me up the next morning.

I could sleep pretty long.

Even If I didn't sleep that well, because I was worried about my mother and a little bit about Sora too.

The next day I decided not to talk to sora.

Everytime I talk to her, just mean words are coming out from my mouth.

*It's the best if I just don't talk to her.*

After a long and boring school day I went out with my friends.

We went to karaoke, since we all love to sing.

When I returned home I saw two girls walking in my direction.

*That's sora and ... Hyosung !?*

I immediately run in my house and was hiding.

*If Hyosung sees me everybody in the school will know about my life circumstances ... but why is Hyosung even here?*