Page 1

17 January 2011

Today is the day I start diary-writing. I know it might be weird for a guy to write in a diary but, it's not just any diary. It's a life diary. Anything that happens in my life, will be written down here. If I feel sad, angry, happy or paranoid, I will always write something down. This diary wasn't given by my parents, or my relatives. But my best friend, Eli. He always thought I needed to express my feelings more.. He expects me to cry when I feel sad, throw a tantrum when I feel angry, cheer like a kid when I'm happy but, no, I don't act like that. From what everyone said, I'm emotionless, emo for short. When I hang out with him, I could see Eli trying his best to make me feel again. It's has been a week since he started talking to me, laughing at his own jokes. But no matter how hard I tried, I just can't seem to smile. When he introduced me to his friends, they all smiled at me, except for one. He was standing right at the back for the group, staring at the floor... My first impression on him, I thought he was emo as well. When he looked up, he stared into my eyes and my soul out. From that moment, I knew something was special about him. When Eli introduced all 5 of them, I couldn't bother about the others. From that point of time, I have learnt to remember another name in my life.

Kim Jaeseop.

But no matter how hard I try, I just don't have the courage to get close to him. So I decided to put aside this but..somehow, it just keeps on coming back..

(To be continued)