While waiting for Baekhyun to come home, I carefully sip my hot chocolate while browsing through a magazine I bought after lunch with Hyeyeon. My hands swiftly turn the pages, but my mind wanders somewhere else.

All I can see is pitch black pages. The colors are gone. Arrogant-looking pretty models are nowhere to be seen. Not even a text exists in that magazine.

Now what the hell is wrong with me?

Deep sigh escapes from my lips. It feels so burdened inside, and inaudible surrounding seems to swallow me into eternal darkness.  The issue we discussed during lunch was unnerving and it really wears me out.

“…”

My eyes couldn’t hold the tears any longer.  I tried to wipe it but seconds later, I find myself keep on crying onto the pillow. Feeling dizzy, I went up and walk to our room to unwind. Today is such hell for me.

Leisurely, I dozed off, trying to forget what Hyeyeon asked me before.

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A kiss crashed onto my temple. Still feeling dazed from nap, I blinked and rubbed my eyes few times before I got a glimpse of Baekhyun’s smiling face. He kissed me once again when he realized I’m still sleepy and laugh.

“You’re sleeping without me?”

“You’re way too late, I’m tired.  Dinner?”

“It’s okay, I’m not hungry.” He snuggles his face on mine, kissing every inch of it. “Baekhyun, bathroom, now.”

“Never knew you’re this .”

“Dream on. Go get shower first, you’re sweating.” I keep on pushing him, but he shook his head quickly. “But I’m tired too….” He smiles adorably while hugging me tight. I can’t help myself from chuckle a bit. He can be such a child when he refused to do something.

And that’s really cute.

“Naughty.” Playfully I pat his head and his charming smile surfaced immediately. “Only when I’m with you baby.” He smirked when teasingly kissing my ear, but I’m determined to get him to go to bathroom. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer for kiss when he happily replied.

“Baby, there are three options. One,  shower and sleep on bed. Two, no shower but sleep on couch. Three,  sleep at bathroom. Your choice.” I mentioned it right after kissing him and for god sake I really don’t want to let go of his lips.

“Choice four, no shower, sleep on bed, kiss and hug me all night. Deal.” He snickered before delicately caress my face. My cheeks are getting warmer but I just let him do as he pleased.

“No such thing as choice four. I told you it’s only three.”

“I manage my own choice. Fair enough?”

He keeps playing with my hair before tucking in the falling ones into behind my ear. I felt so loved. And yet I felt empty for a moment.

“Hubby, I miss you.”

This sudden loneliness engulfed me and in seconds, I don’t even know what the hell I was doing. He was slightly stunned when our lips met and my hands gently ing his shirt. He held my wrist for a while, asking me mentally for my unexpected act and for confirmation. I am never a starter.

It’s always him.

Gosh, this is awkward.

Gradually my lips curved into smile as sign of emotional urge which drove me crazy right now. He gave me an uncertain look in his eyes, so I cupped his face, looked straight into his beautiful brown eyes just to let him know everything is alright. “Baby?” His tender voice soothes me down, but somehow this urge is persisting inside me. “I need you, I really need you…”

Like being possessed, I pinned him down at bed and begin to cuddle his neck. My hands still working on removing his shirt away. Anxiety tampered his bright eyes as I keep on snuggle around.

I don’t want to do this, but I just can’t stop. I need a slap.

“Baby.” He called me and his heavy breathing just didn’t do him any justice. I just ignored him. He finally kept quiet when I dove in for luscious kiss. We both passionately savouring each other lips and his hands begin to wrap around my waist.

“Ah!” Can’t help myself from screaming when he suddenly rotated our position. We looked at each other, while he’s trying hard to breathe for oxygen again.

“Giving up Byun Baekhyun?” Teasingly I his lips, and I let my hands lingers on his chest. Again, he whimpers against my touch. His messy hair somehow brings pure iness feels out from him, and I can’t help but smile at such y view.

“Heck no. This is too good..to be true..what’s wrong?”

I just kept silent and began to wrap my hands on his neck before giving him more kisses. Baekhyun can’t just hold himself together as he slowly pulled up my white shirt halfway. The sensation of his skin against mine sends chills down to my spine as his hand gently my back.  My body heaved closer to his warm body as he hugged me.  

“Baby..I’m madly in love with you.” He looks straight into my eyes and again, I’m infatuated.  

Oh .

Tears went down my cheeks uncontrollably. Baekhyun, somehow knows there’s something wrong with me, keeps on hugging and softly console my agonizing self. I cried on his shoulder, and it felt so much better than pillow I had on my previous crying session.

“Baby, why?”

I don’t know if I should tell him. Should I?

Thinking I would sound like crazy woman, I just shook my head, not ready to tell him how I feel. The marriage, the life…the baby….

He smiles dearly, as assurance nothing I should be worried about. He grabbed comforter and wrapped both of us inside.  Feeling warm, I kissed mole near his upper lips softly.

“So….we’re not going to continue?”

“No. I don’t know what’s wrong with me…”

“I don’t mind getting on your wild side sometimes. I’m your husband after all.”

The way he said he’s my husband, makes me feel so comforted. Sneakily I buried my face on his chest.  

“I won’t be that crazy anymore. That’s just so…mad…”

“Awww I’m frustrated.”

He laughed and wished me good night. Closely we hugged each other as we drift into sleep.

Good night.