I watch the love of my life playing with the flowers…giggling and talking all by himself.  He looks happy, pure and innocent.  Since day one I met him, he never fails to amaze me with his cute looks.  I mean who wouldn’t love a cute little bunny named Lee Sungmin.  He’s beautiful…more beautiful than a girl, a foxy doe eyes, a cute little nose and his y pink M-shaped lips complemented his milky white skin.  Sometimes I wonder what I have done in my past life to let me deserve him.  Sungmin is cute…Sungmin is nice and kind hearted.  He once hurt me but that’s okay.  I know he never meant to do that.  Besides, now we are always together although not all the time but still I contented with what happens to us.

I still watch him pick the flowers when a butterfly catches his attention.  His eyes widen and slowly he tries to catch the beautiful butterfly with his palm when the insect flies away.  Sungmin sits on the ground, pouting, while mumbling something under his breath but that does not make him try again for not to catch it.  He stands up once again and walks slowly.  When he comes nearer, the butterfly flies again higher this time.  Sungmin jumps around like a five years old kid and shouting.

“Yah, come back here!  Let’s play together and teach me how to fly like you!”

Sungmin whined loudly and still jumping like a little bunny, attracting some of people attention at the small garden.

“Minnie!”

Sungmin turns his head to me and pouting.

“Come here, baby.  Time to eat.”  I waves to him as a signal for him to go to me.  It’s lunch time now and I bet he is already hungry as he is known as a food lover.  I prepares the lunch box on the wooden table contains his all time favourite food.  Pumpkin soup with bread and some home-made sushi I made last night just for him.

When he is nearer, he sits beside me and looks happily at the food.  His eyes sparkle with amazement and he is already drooling.  He looks at me and smiles cutely.

“Is this all for me? Can I eat it now?  Can I?  Can I?”

“Sure.  Help yourself.”  I smile back at him and pinch his once skinny cheeks.

Without hesitate, he picks the chopstick and stars digging his food excitedly.  I am amaze with the way he eats.  He keeps shoving the sushi in his small mouth without choking and I can only see the blur image of his hands picking the food.  That’s how fast he eats.

“Wow, this is good.  I never know you can cook this good before this.  When did you learn?”  He asks me but still keep on eating.

“Slow down.  The food will not gonna be anywhere.  Well, I learn it just for you.  Are you happy?”

Sungmin grins widely and nods his head.

“This is so good.  That makes me love you more, Kyuhyun.”

At the mention of the name, my smile drops and replace by a twinge of pain in my chest.  Sungmin who realizes my state, frowns and held my face with both of his hands.

“What’s wrong?  Did I say something wrong?”

I shake my head and forms a fake smile to him.  “It’s nothing, baby.  I just remember stuff.”

“Don’t do that face again.   It is soooo not handsome.”

He continues to eat his food and sometimes smile at me.

“When will you remember me, Minnie-ah?”  I whisper softly for only me to hear it.

***

I have been friends with Sungmin since forever.  We know each other in and out and every secret we share together.  I also know he has a birth mark on his cute and sometimes I always use that to .  At school, we are the most popular duo since both of us has been crowned as the flower boys.  Most of the students admire us including boys and girls and everyday we will receive many confessions but we reject it nicely but that do not stop them to pursue us.  We never dates anyone and I know Sungmin also does not have any crush to anybody.  If he has he will already tell me and somehow it made me feel at ease.

Yeah…I love Sungmin…more than a friend…more than a brother.  But I’m not confident enough to tell him.  I’m scared he will leave me and as far as I can see Sungmin is a straight guy.  Here is some evidence.  He really likes Song Hye Kyo and once he told me he will do anything to have a dinner date with her.  I know it sounds silly since she is a famous actress but still it convinces me Sungmin likes woman.  He never swoons over any guys.   That does confirm my suspicion.  Sungmin is one hell of a straight guy although he never dates anyone.  Maybe he still does not meet with his type.

I always thought we will never be together as a lover and I can only be contented by being his friend but one fateful day, a new student enrolled in our school.  He was tall, handsome and has an intimidating aura.  By one look, I’m sure the girls have a new target to swoon over.  I bring my body closer to Sungmin and whisper to him.

“Lucky us, Minnie.  The girls will not chase us again after this.”  But I get no reply.  I look into his eyes and what I see is something I never see in his eyes.  I see admiration and sparkle in his foxy eyes and his lips curled into a small smile.  Sungmin is never like this.  He never has this look on his face although when the first time I introduce him to my cousin, Siwon.  Siwon is a one hot guy and ever girls are willing to be his slave just to be with him but Sungmin never showed this kind of reaction.

Since that day, I know my friendship with Sungmin will be drifted away.

Everday, Kyuhyun is that…Kyuhyun is this…Kyuhyun gives me that…Kyuhyun gives me this.  What hurt me the most is the day when Sungmin accidentally told me he already made love with Kyuhyun.  His face is all red and he bit his lower lips nervously.

“Ey, what are you so shy about?  It’s normal since both of you are lover.  It’s no big deal with me.”

It is a big deal to me.  He should be mine!  I know him first!

“You’re not mad at me because I try to hide it from you?”  He asks me with his small voice and plays with his fingers.

“Why should I?  Sooner or later you still told me right?  Besides, it’s your personal thingy.  It’s not my right to meddle with.”

He beamed and hugs me tightly.

“Thanks, Hae!  You’re the best!  I love you so much!”  Sungmin nuzzles his head at the crook of my neck and I feel he smiles in content.  I pat his back.  How I wished his ‘I love you’ was in a romantic way but beggar couldn’t be choosy, didn’t they?

“I just want to ask you one thing.”

He broke our hug and looked intently at me.

“Don’t you ever forget me, got that?”

He smiles back and snuggles closer to my chest.

“I will always remember you, Hae.”

***

Sungmin keep his promise.  He never neglect me and sometimes he gives his attention more to me rather than Kyuhyun.  I know Kyuhyun is jealous but I assure him that Sungmin only loves him.  So much.  Kyuhyun is one possessive boyfriend and when Sungmin focus his attention to me, Kyuhyun would gritted his teeth to control his temper and when Sungmin notices this, he held Kyuhyun’s hands softly and pecks his lips.  Nobody could resist that and everytime this happened, I could only wallow in self-pity.  To tell the truth, I am ing jealous!  I am so jealous until I feel that I wantto grill Kyuhyun alive but I know Sungmin wouldn’t like that.

“Where are you going dressing so nicely?”  I ask him one night when I saw him wearing his not like usual.

He pouts and smacks my head.

“I already told you tonight is my first anniversary with Kyuhyun!  How could you forget that?”

Ouch!  Now I remember tonight is their first anniversary.  Sungmin keep on repeating it every minutes and I just happen to forget it.

“Well, why should I remember?  It’s not my anniversary though.”

“Bad Donghae.”  He stuck out his tongue and moving to the shoe rack.  I follow him from behind.

“Are you going home tonight or you will sleep at Kyuhyun’s house?”  I ask him while watching he put his shoes on.

“I don’t know yet.  I’ll let you know later.  Bye, fishy!”  He pecks my cheeks and as a fool I am, I smile and touch the spot that he landed his kiss.

It’s already 3:00 am and still no messages or calls from Sungmin.  I start to worry and pacing back and forth in our shared apartment.  When I try to call him, it transfers to the voicemail box.

“Where the hell are you, Lee Sungmin?”

I know he was with Kyuhyun but I couldn’t stop myself from being worried.  Somehow I could feel something bad had happened to them because Sungmin never once failed to inform me when he would get home late or he would stay at Kyuhyun’s house.  At this point, I rather him to be at Kyuhyun’s house although I felt jealous than I was worried because there was no single text from him.

Suddenly, I got call from unknown number.  This better be good.  I was not ready to receive a bad call early in the morning.  Usually, when people call you at this time it only meant one thing.

Bad news.

My hand was trembling as I was about to pick up the call.

“He-hello?”  Damn, I stuttered!

“Mr.  Lee Donghae?”

“Yes, talking.  Who are you?”

The caller introduced himself and left me unspoken.  The only thing that lingered in my mind at that time was only Lee Sungmin.

Right after that, I rush to the hospital and my heart drop when the doctor explains to me what happened and I feel relieved when he said nothing serious happened to Sungmin but unfortunately Kyuhyun could not be saved.  He died because of bad injuries when he tried to save Sungmin by using his body as a shield.  That caused his body to crash at the window. The doctor left me alone sat on the chair.  Now, how I was going to tell Sungmin about this by knowing how much he loved the guy?

The first time he opened his eyes, his first question was Kyuhyun’s whereabouts.  I wasn’t intend to tell him but later how much I tried to keep it as a secret he would know eventually.  After three days, I wasn’t ready to tell him but since Sungmin already throwing a tantrum and not eating his food and medicine I decided to tell him.  It wasn’t good for Sungmin to neglect his health.

When he heard that his lover already dead, he just let out a chuckle but his eyes were already brimmed with tears.

“You’re lying right?  Kyuhyun will never leave me…he promise to be with me come hell or high water.  This isn’t funny, Lee Donghae.  It’s not a right time to joke about that.”

I shook my head and hold his hands.

“Look at my eyes, Min.  Do I look like I’m lying?  Kyuhyun’s gone.  He will never come back…I know he promised you he will never leave you but it’s his time already.  He have to go whether he likes it or not.”

“No…no…this is just a dream…Kyuhyun is still alive.  You’re lying to me…”

Sungmin kept on shaking his head and his tears pouring heavily.  Suddenly he struggled to get away from my arms and start shouting loudly.

“Kyuhyun-ah!  Kyuhyun-ah!  Don’t leave me!  Bring me with you!”

I hugged Sungmin tightly but that did not make him less struggle in fact he became more aggressive.

“Let go of me!  I need to go!  Kyuhyun is calling me!  Can’t you hear that?”

“He’s gone, Min!  Calm down, please!”  I pushed the emergency button because Sungmin is uncontrollable now.  A minute later, the doctor comes with three nurses and they held him tightly so he cannot move and the doctor injects something in his veins.  Sungmin slowly become weak and his eyes slowly closed but his lips still mutters about Kyuhyun.

After a week in hospital, Sungmin is allowed to go back and right after we arrive in our shared apartment, he goes into his bedroom and locks himself.  I know he still needs time to recover from the shock so every time it is time to have breakfast, lunch or dinner I will prepare his meal and left it infront of his door.  I know Sungmin is eating it because everytime I go his room to collect the dishes, there’s always empty dishes in front of the door.  The first three days, I heard some sobbing late in midnight but nowadays I heard nothing.  But I don’t know whether this is my illusion or not, I heard some giggling inside Sungmin’s room.  I try to ignore it but my curiosity beats me.  One day, I knock his door and call him.  It’s been nearly two weeks he locks himself in the room.  It is not good for him to keep on mourning over Kyuhyun’s death.  I knock on his door twice.

“Minnie-ah…open the door.  I want to come in.”

I thought he will refuse to open it but I met with the bright smile of Sungmin opening the door.

“Kyuhyun, you come!”  He launches forward and hugs me tightly.  Shock is understatement when he calls me Kyuhyun.

“Where have you been?  I was waiting for you to come and I really really miss you!”  He whined and pecks my lips.  If this happens before this, I will gladly kiss him back since I’ve been longing to kiss his lips as long as I can remember.

“Why are you not talking?  Are you not happy to see me?”  He pouts and stomps his feet like his usual self when he is with Kyuhyun.

Sungmin-ah, what happen to you?  What happen to my Sungmin?

My heart clenches so hard.  Do you really loves him until me, Lee Donghae, your bestfriend, you see as your late boyfriend?  But I know…this is not he wants…finally, I do what I think I should do at the moment.

“I love you and I miss you too, baby.”  I hug him back this time and he grins widely and pushes his body further into my embrace.

“I love you too, Kyuhyun.”

***

I smiles sadly at the thought.  Sungmin never recovers from his illness.  I bring him everywhere to cure him but he still did not show any improvement.  Everyone advices me to bring him to the mental hospital but I refuse.

Sungmin is not crazy!  He is just too in love with Kyuhyun.

“Kyuhyun, why are you not eating?  Want me to feed you?”  I snap out from my reverie when I heard that cute voice.  I smile at him and nod happily.  He traps a bulgogi and bring it to my waiting mouth.

“Here comes the train.  Aaa…”

I gladly open my mouth and Sungmin shoves it with a cute smile.  I munch the food and start caress his fluffy cheeks.  Sungmin just grins and leans into the touch.  He stares into my eyes deeply and says those words that are not meant to the actual me.

“I love you, Kyuhyun…”

If this is the only way for me to be with him, I’m willing to be the other person as long as we are together forever.

“I love you too, Sungmin…”

Finally, this story is complete.  I don't think it's angst enough.  Just enjoy it and leave some comment okay :)