The air was thick with uneasy tension and the dorm was held with a suffocating silence. The sun was to set soon and the Mblaq members had yet to leave for their camping trip. Seungho looked at his band mates and sighed. He knew something happened, but he didn't know with whom or what exactly had happened. He stared at s impatiently and made it clear no one was to leave until whatever "this" was-was settled. Looking to his left he saw Joon pacing back and forth, with his head hung low and to his right, G.O. and Thunder were looking at each other nervously. 

Looking further around, Seungho took note of the maknae's absence and wondered where he could possibly be. So leaving the group he took a small stroll around the apartment until he was stopped by small muffles of cries. Looking towards the sounds, he found himself stationed at the entrance to the youngers room. 

"Mireu-ah? Are you okay?"

At the sound of his hyung's voice, his cries of pain escalated. They grew louder, deeper and pierced through the halls of the apartment. Everyone was startled by the maknae's crying. The leader's heart grew heavy and he couldn't just leave Mir like this. He sighed and turned the nob to the youngers room. As on the outside, G.O and Thunder were on edge. They've never seen the maknae act like this..ever and it bothered them. As for Joon, his heart shattered. It killed him inside hearing the one man he loved so dearly, in this much pain. And to make things worse he was the cause of it and he couldn't do anything to fix his mistakes. But adding to his emotional rush, he was slowly becoming envious of the leader, he was jealous of the leader. He found it so unfair that at this moment in time, out of all people, why did HIS maknae have to be comforted by the almighty Seungho? Seungho was everything he was not. He was smart, good with gadgets, danced phenomenal, played the piano and had an amazing voice that could melt anyone's heart. And what did Joon have? Besides a six pack and a lot of muscles..nothing. 

Punching the wall out of frustration, Joon could feel his eyes burning and warm liquid trickle down his face. Thunder saw this and placed a gentle hand on the elders shoulder. He turned around to see the visual maknae with arms wide open and a caring smile. He didn't hesitate and pulled Thunder closer for a tight hug. He could no longer hold anything in and cried his heart out.

(Mir's room)

Seungho walked through the dark sorrowful room. Everything seemed to be painted grey. Nothing, no longer had life in it. It was a dull and sad place.

Scanning over the room, his eyes met with a pair of swollen puppy like ones.

"Mir, what happened?"

The younger couldn't even answer his question, for he feared he would cry again.

Seungho being the oh-so-great leader he finds himself to be, saw his struggling and gently soothed his back with slow circular motions until the maknae's sniffling and teary eyes and ceased a great deal. Taking in a deep breath the leader tried once more.

"Why...Why are you crying Mir?

Mir sighed and with a shaky hand pointed to his chest..."It hurts"

Seungho looked at the maknae with deep worry written all over his face. "Why didn't you mention this earlier? We need to get you to the hospital!" Fishing out his cellphone, Seungho was about to call 911.

"NO! You don't understand...My heart, my heart hurts so much, but not because I'm sick."

Confusion plastered on the elders face. "Then what is it?"

"My heart hurts...because I'm in love..."

(outside of the room)

Silence filled the room in which the rest of the Mblaq members occupied. Thunder took a quick glance at Joon who stared blankly out the window and then at G.O. Giving a quick nod, G.O gave the okay to start the questioning. 

clearing his throat, Thunder started. "Hyung, are you...are you okay?"

Joon slightly turned his head and looked at the two with weary eyes. "No, I'm not okay. How could I be okay!?" Joon shouted, His voice then went to something just slightly above a whisper. "I hurt him. He's crying, he's in pain and its because of me." But truthfully Joon had no idea what he had done to the maknae, but he just felt so guilty.

The other two looked at him then each other. Having no clue on who he was talking about. 

"Who did you hurt?" G.O replied

" The one person whom I can't live without. The one person my heart beats for. The one person whom I love...Mir and I hurt him" The tears started to pile up once more but this time they wouldn't fall.

The two sat there shocked. Their eyes wide with surprise but not for the reason you would think. After taking everything in, G.O started giggling. Thunder couldn't help but chuckle along and the next thing you know they were on the floor laughing together.

"YAH! Why are you laughing?" Joon scowled at them until they stopped.

"Hyung, this isn't anything new to us." Thunder chirped

"Yeah. We are all aware of your feelings for the maknae. Well of course except the maknae himself, We just never thought you would come out and say it" G.O managed to say, finally calming down.

Joon looked at them dumbfounded. "Yah, aish. Really?" Joon said weakly. But mentally he couldn't help but laugh along.

"Listen hyung, we don't know exactly what happened between you and Mir, but just tell him how you feel. I'm sure telling him you love him can't possibly make things worse." G.O nodded in agreement and gave Joon a reassuring smile.

At the thought of the visual maknae's words Joon became happier. He knew Thunder was right and that's why he cursed himself for never doing this earlier. He turned to Thunder and G.O and thanked them as they gave him the "Fighting" gesture. He felt more courageous now, and not like a coward he was beforehand. Running towards his shared room with the maknae he lightly knocked on the door, but no answer. He was about to say something, but was interrupted by the sound of Mir's voice.

"I hate Joon.." 

Joon backed away slowly from the door, the youngers voice-ringing throughout his ears. He turned around and saw G.O and Thunder standing there. They had planned on watching their match making become a success, but instead was greeted by hurtful words, spewed from none other than their dear maknaes mouth. The sorry expressions they both held on their faces couldn't make up for the stabbing pain that circulated through Joon's chest. The hurtful words that echoed throughout his head. That subconscious that mimicked him for thinking he stood a chance. The hope he had. The hope they created in him. Nothing could make up for it. 

Joon slid down the hallway wall. "Mireu-ah, but you want to know something funny, I love you." he knew Mir couldn't hear him, but it was something he had to get off his chest. 

Okay so I know I have not updated in the longest time and I'm so sorry for that. Its Just I've been very busy with dance on Wednesdays and Saturdays. Make up work, getting some grades up and staying after school. Working so I can get paid.(the only way I can get my Halloween costume) On top of that, a lot of my friends are going through rough times and its been very stressful trying to be there for all of them. But I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I will try to update A.S.A.P ^^