Chapter 11 - It's Okay Even If It Hurts
Being HeardMonths goes by passed and the days were busy. You tried to go through your life now as a new idol beginning her life to the public. You decided to join SM Entertainment and decided to apologize to him, but he always avoided you.
At night, your cried yourself to sleep having the guilt after he became colder to you and it made you feel hurt. You knew you will just silently love him, even if it hurts you.
You knew waiting will be hard but you won't give up. You knew someday he will forgive you but you were wrong. You tried everything to get closer to him but all failed because he would just turned coldy away from you and ignore you.
One day, you were at your practice room after having doing a difficult choreography and your dance instructer left after the time and you decided to stay on. In the room there was a piano and you decided to sing a song you once heard online before you debuted from your sunbae, Seohyun from SNSD.
It's okay even if I can't see
It's okay even if I can't breath
If I could meet you only once
If I could give you all my heart
How much more do I have to miss you
So that maybe you could know my heart?
How much more do I to cry and cry
So that tears could be dry?
Unknown to you Onew was just at the practice room next door and heard you sing
Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It's okay if I just have you to be with me
Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It's okay because I love you
It's okay even if I get hurt
The farther I turn away so as to forget you
The more I miss you, What can I do
Even when you keep telling me it's not right just
to keep me away from you
You are the only one to me, What can I do
Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It's okay if I just have you to be with me
Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It's okay because I love you
It's okay even if I get hurt
Even if I get poisoned and pricked
My love for you can't stop
I will wait for you until forever
I will endure even if it hurts and hurts
Because of loving you more
It's okay even if tears fall down
It's okay even if it hurts...
You finished singing and cried on the floor, both hands on your face. You knew it'll be hard to face him now despite your heart breaking into two but you knew you must apologize to him.
"Miane...oppa....I never meant to deceived you. I do love you" you cried. Unaware that he heard your every word and he looked at you from the door. You stood up and decided to go home.
You never knew that he witnessed you crying and saying the words that you really meant it. But now only time will tell as how you and him will be together till the end.
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