One million dollars worth of attention

It was half past 7 in the morning, but Yuri is still lying lazily in her bed, she’s already awake but chose to close her eyes, it was all fresh from her memories “those things “that happened last week, she wanted to repeat the time and go back and change the way it ended, if he just swallow her pride for one last time, she’s not suffering like this, She opens her eyes, she glance at the clock on her bedside table,  and sigh

“I wanted to be late just once,” she said, she pulled the blanket up covering her body, though it was just an ordinary Saturday for him, for Yuri it was her last chance, her last chance that slipped away,

She can’t have him, Jung Yunho, The host, whose attentions is worth one million dollars.

Flashback…..

“You win one million dollars!” the old woman told her,

“What?” she asked confuse, she didn’t know if she is hearing her right or if this woman is just making fun of her, ”grandmother, I am so busy right now, I don’t need this kind of joke,” Yuri politely said .

The woman glared at her,”why you don’t believe it? Why will you refuse such luck?”

Yuri narrow her brows, how come in a broad daylight, while running an errand from her irritating female boss, she met a crazy grandmother telling her that she won a lottery, excuse her addressing her crazy because on the first place she never remember herself placing a bet, or anything,,

“I bet for you and the number I chose won!” she cleared her thought

“Eh?”  She asked,”why will you give me such thing? It’s much better grandmother if you use it for yourself, for your medication or on your family,” she refuses

“I have enough, I don’t need much, that’s why I am giving it to you,,” she gave the ticket in her hold,” claimed before it before they forfeit it,” she last said then left.

Yuri’s pov…

Then she left without another word, I was still left stunned on that bench, I consider this as one of a joke, but I can’t seem to throw it away, I glance at my wristwatch and shoot I am late again, I will receive a another angry outburst from my boss  as soon as I came back. I sigh; I place the said ticket in my wallet,

That night we made a celebration, our manager insist on paying we just have no idea where will she bring us, after a delicious dinner I thought that was it, but I was wrong, we since we’re almost female she brought us into a club or something, she called it host club you can say that she is a regular here the way the waiters greeted her, our mouth we’re wide open since there are lots of gorgeous boys inside, this is my first time here and I don’t really know why I allowed them to take me in , since this is not my style and not my office mate style either, saying that we are all beautiful and workaholic this is the perfect time for us to loosen up, for I knew she was just talking for herself, she’s almost 40 and still single, it was because of her brave and powerful personality that boys found her intimidating and this is her chosen way of loosen up how pitiful , I don’t want to  be like her, I am just,,  well it’s still  early for me, I am just 23,

“Chose your boys,,” she ordered to us when a couple of young looking boy walk in our room, doing and acting cutely, I look to my side to see my hesitant but now overly excited officemates

They chose their own partner, leaving me with this cute guy,

“What’s your name noona?” he sweetly asked

I have no intentions of giving him my name, since I find it inappropriate, and after not answering to his multiple questions, he look so upset,

“Don’t worry we can do just talking if you don’t want anything for us to happened, don’t worry I am harmless, my name is Kris by the way,,” he said while smiling

I just nod at him and sip the female drink that they gave me, I excuse myself and went to the bathroom, on my way out I run into a guy

“I’m sorry, I am not looking,” I bow at him, not making an eye contact, but before I should move forward, she grabs me and pinned me on the wall

“I said I am sorry,” I said trembling

“a person like you doesn’t belong here,,” he whispered, that voice, I remembered that voice, I look up to him and meet his gaze,,

“You!” I said to him, our eyes lock to each other

“Yes me,” he crook a smile

“What are you doing here? You work here all this time? Why you didn’t say goodbye, do you know that I was looking for you , do you know how much I,,,,,,,,”tears we’re now falling from my eyes, I missed him so much, he appeared on my life one day and disappear in an instance, he came like a wind and disappear like he left nothing

“I know nothing, ”he smirk and took a step forward ,

“I missed you,,” I said to make him stop

“Sadly I don’t even remember you,,” he answered, coldly

“Let’s talk, please Yunho! I placed, but he is different from the last Yunho that I know, the person in front of Mr. is heartless and too distant

“my attention is worth a million, my time is gold , if you want to seek for me, you have to bring a big cash,,”and thus so he left,, I  was left there frozen, after finishing in the bathroom, I went back to our room, before I almost lost,

“It took you forever,” Kris spoke, he was still there and so the rest

“Do you know someone who’s name is Yunho that is working here?” I asked

“That fellow, why did you asked?” he asked feeling irritated by the mention of his name

“Nothing,” I answered

“he is the most expensive one, you need a lot of many to have him, he’s hardheaded and cold , but still everyone like him, I don’t really understand woman,, maybe that’s the reason why also don’t understand you,,” he said to me, looking at me intently, I look away, trying not to make any scene that I might regret doing in the future

“why you really don’t like me,” I didn’t answer his bold question, he made a distance between us,” I guess I am not really you’re type,” he answered his own question

“he is free every Saturdays,, comes back when you have cash or so to say when you’re ready to face him, i have no idea what he did to make himself unforgettable to his costumer but I think that includes touching the skin, if you’re ready for that you can comeback on Saturday,” he ended and left like the rest, before I knew it that night also end.

I met Yunho during middle school, he was a transferred student, everyone likes him, including me, he is easy to get along with, he often smile he is kind that’s why I embrace the opportunity when  he showed me his kindness, I like him, there is no need for me to pretend,. Although he was always surrounded by lots of girls and I feel like going in a warzone just to get his attention I also took that risk,

For I like him, that’s all that matters, it was  a blessing when he showed his affection too, I was so fortunate, he felt the same way, we dated, that’s how I called it me skipping class together with him, even it also means forgetting my own grades, it didn’t matter at that time, but it w s okay, since for me it was enough spending those times with him,

But he felt different, every day I saw a different side of him and the day comes when he said that, he was just playing with me, he never felt the same and the day after that he was gone.

I felt myself lost, I never deserve those, I hate him at one point for making myself miserable and pitiful or I  just so I miss him,

I found myself in front of the bank claiming the prize of the ticket that the grad mother gave me, nothing will happened right it’s  just a frank or not, when I came in, they all watch me suspiciously and after an almost hour of waiting they handed me, my prize,

Its one million dollars indeed in front of me, I’m still unconvinced that such luck happened, especially to a nobody like me,

And where will I use it for?

His face was the only one that appears in my head,

Jung Yunho, the  expensive host.

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“So you really came back,” I was brought in one of the most expensive room on that club, I was told to just wait for his arrival, it’s Saturday like how Kris told me before when I first came, and now there he is standing in front me, amuse that I really came back, “I presume you’re really prepared,” he walks and seated beside me,” let me pour you a drink.” He opens the wine and filled my glass, and handed it to me

“I don’t drink,” I told him, he scoff at me

“Then what are we going to do? Staring at each other until the night end?” he challenged, it felt intense , the way he is looking at me, I know this will come , but I guess I was not prepared, I move a little, but he grab my waist and rooted me near him, “don’t move an inch ” he nuzzle my neck, smelling my scent, I find it ticklish and inappropriate at the same time, but I just let him, I listen to the marvelous beat of my heart the fact that we seated this close, “I guess you’re really easy to get and you wanted this,” he kiss my neck and slowly lay my body on the long couch, “so you really came for this,” he chuckle, I’m still looking away afraid to meet his gaze when he started to kiss my face, I wonder how many times he did this and for how many woman, thinking about  those just make my heart ache..

“I just want to talk why did you left,,,” now I said it, I just wanted to know the real reason why he just left, without saying goodbye I will accept it if he said that he find someone new , but he walk away, like there was never us in the past.

“I left when did I? I am here. In this place, stuck forever, I never left, I’m always here,,” he said seductively, I gathered all my force to meet his eyes,

  I saw his pain equivalent to mine, but he was the first one who breaks the eye contact, he moved away and lit his cigarette

“You won’t mind if I smoke right?” he didn’t wait for my answer, he had lighten the cigarette

“You’re nervous that’s why you smoke,” I told him, he pause and laugh

“I was? I didn’t know, are you’re a fortune teller or something?”

“No, I just know that side of you,” I answered, my words pissed him off, he put down his cigarette and starts removing his coat and walks near me,,

“I was born having  a little patience, you messed with the wrong person,” he threaten , he grab me again  and pinned my body  in the table, making the fruits as well as the glass and wine to fall on the floor, i gasp from the sudden pain, but still manage to make an eye contact with him

“let’s not waste our time talking about unnecessary things, let’s just proceed the real business, you wanted me right that’s why you’re here,,?” i didn’t move, Yunho take that as his cue, he started to undress me  , he kissed my lips roughly, after being expose to him, he starts exploring my body, trailing kisses to my chest, grabbing and playing with my , one at a time, he  didn’t stop there, he started ing my pants, but he stop when he hears my silent crying, I just want for him to talk my body felt stiff below him.

Yuri pov end.

“I’m sorry,” Yunho stand up an look away, feeling embarrass on what he did, Yuri starts moving and collecting her clothes, she started crying then, deafening silence filled the room until Yunho spoke,,

“my father was in big debt, we we’re chase by a bunch of load sharks, my mother died because we can’t afford her operation, if we just have money back then, she died while hating my father, I was force to leave Gwanggu because of that, I went to Seoul, there I met my father again, he sold me in this place , when I was 17, I was so young then, disgusted on what I am doing, but I had to it in order for us to survive or else they will kill me, i was so foolish that I was so afraid to die, I have no idea what keeps me from living I just go with the flow, I drink, I went with woman who wanted me and my body and I earned money at the same time until I found myself free from those loan sharks years later, funny though, I’m still in this business, continue breathing this ,” he stated, Yuri just listen to him, she don’t ant to make him stop, she wants him to open up to her just like before.

“I guess I will be stuck in here forever, this is my destiny and I will continue to live with it for the rest of my life,” he chuckle

“When you left, everyone missed you and so am I,,” she responses’

“but I never misses anyone , when I left that place I forgot every memories that I had,  if I didn’t  I might not be alive until now, “

“now I understand, but I’m quite happy that you’re well, that you’re alive, I thought you died, but here you are stronger than before although I missed the old one, because he resemble of freedom, but I am still happy,,” Yuri stands from her seat, she grab her bag and walk to the door

“I left the cash, like I said, I just want to talk to you, now I will feel at peace, I can now fully let you go, “ she whisper, they stands side to side, “I love you ever since, I kept you safe in my heart, and now I think it will be useless to continue, from this day on I am letting you go, I know soon I will forget you, sorry for disturbing you,” Yunho then grab her arms and whisper

“I’m sorry,” she can’t help but to cry loudly, before she fall again she runs outside that room, outside the building, it hurts her deeply knowing that she had no space in his heart after all these years.

“What are you doing in the dark?” Jaejoong asked Yunho, he is sitting in his office lost in his thoughts like always

“I’m such a good liar, I told her multiple lies again, lying runs in my vein isn’t it?” Yunho took a sip of his wine,

“Because of that woman, Kris told me,,” Jaejoong answered

“That fellow, he never looks like the talkative type,”

“looks can be deceiving but Forget about him, so what lies did you tell this time?” Jaejoong took a seat and sits in front of him; Yunho chuckled then continue narrating,

“I told her that my father is running away from a loan shark, and my mother died because we have no money for her operation, and I travelled to Seoul only to be sold to the owner of this club and be the best host,”

Jaejoong laugh afterwards and commented,” are you planning to become a script writer?” he teased

“Do not laugh at me, I feel stupid right now, my body and brain is not functioning well,”

“because you hurt the woman that you love that’s why you felt the same, we knew how you suffered when you was force to left here and continue this work of your father, you’re father never own a big debt from the loan shark, because he is a well known gangster boss, you mother never died because you have no money, he died when you we’re born and you’re not a host since no one can afford you,”

“What’s your point?”

“You have all the power in this world so why don’t grab the thing or the person that will make you happy and contended,?” Yunho crook his brows, Jaejoong rolled his eyes at him

“You have all  the money my friend, it make the world go round whether every one denied it or not grab that woman what’s her name again?”

“Yuri, Kwon Yuri,,” he answered,

“I believe that there is something about that girl of yours, that makes her exceptional to all the girls that throw their body to your,” he sigh,” after all even gangsters deserve to fall in love,” Jaejoong advice hoping that it will hits his head

“You think so?” Yunho asked

“I know she will understand, she will not go this far is she didn’t , she will not remain this single all this time if she’s not waiting for you, she loves you and don’t be that stupid to hold back, grab her, that’s you’re style!” he cheered.

Yuri went down from his apartment, she’s about to grab a taxi when a black car stands in front of her, 5 men in their black suite came out and forcefully drag her inside, it was useless to fight since they are all gripping her tightly, until someone place a handkerchief in her nose that lead her to lose her consciousness

“Don’t hurt her or else boss will kill us all!”

Her head ache a little, she open her eyes to see a different surrounding, she’s in a different room, she sits up only to find that she was sleeping in  a comfortable white bed, it is indeed a very wide and elegant room that she only sees in magazine, but the question is why is she here? And who are the guys earlier,,

“You woke up,” she turn around, she knows that voice, only that voice can make her heart beats like crazy,

“What am I doing here?” she asked confuse, gazing straight at Yunho, who only wears a white t shirt and white pajama,

“You’re in my house, in my bed actually, and I ordered them to brought you here,”

“Why?” she asked clueless, Yunho walks near her and sits in front of her

“Why? Because of three reasons, you want to hear?” confuse , she still nods at him, ”one you’re mine, two you’re really mine and three you’re really really mine,”

“But why? You’re lying right?” she wanted to cry, afraid that she’s hearing wrong she gave up that this day will come, Yunho cupped her face

“I chose to stop lying, I can’t lie to myself anymore, I love you, you never left my heart, you never left my mind,” he captured her lips, he wanted her to feel how he cherish her, he can’t wait for her to realize that too, that he is now sincere and true on his emotion,

“And what am I doing in this big house?” she asked after breaking the kiss

“I own this,  and you will understand the real me as the day goes by, and from now on Everything I have  also belongs to you,,” with that he kissed her lips again, before they fully drown  on anything more than a kiss, they both heard someone cough,,

Yuri turns around to see the grandmother, who gave her the cash before,

“Grandmother, what are you doing here?” Yuri asked confuse, pointing at the old woman,

“Grandmother, didn’t I tell you not to appear too soon,?” Yunho complain, whining like a 5 years old,

“You know each other?” she question pointing the two of them,, the old woman laugh and break the tension,

“Let’s just say I help my moron grandson so that he will not die like his moron father,,” she answered, “nonetheless, welcome to the family,,”

Still not understanding what happen, the word that escapes was,

“Thank you,”

End June 11, 2012