There you go staring at me again

Watching my every move

Through those cute panda eyes that I find myself drowning in

Please stay away from me

I don’t know how much more of you I can take

My emotions are running wild right now

I’m afraid I’ll lose control again—

Afraid I’ll capture you and keep you all to myself

To hear your voice whispering my name as I plunge inside you

Your soft black hair drenched in sweat as I devour every part of you

You’re so sensitive maknae

The way you squirm and arch your back under my touch

The way you continue begging me for more…

Hell what am I even thinking right now?

I was drunk when this all began okay

This wasn’t supposed to happen

But maybe I’ve been lying to myself

Blaming the alcohol for my misleading actions

But you’re all I ever see now

You invade my dreams every night

The sound of your voice playing over and over in my head

Like a song I can’t stop hearing

I can’t think straight anymore

My mind and body are screaming for you

Even as I try to shut you out—

But I can’t.

Just hearing your name drives me insane.

You’re becoming an addiction to me.

I always meant what I said

“Maknae is mine” it’s true

But never did it cross my mind

That I would salvage myself in you

It’s so easy to pretend this never happened—

Walking by you day after day

But the way you look at me full of longing and despair

It kills me to the very core.

I’m being selfish, yes it’s true

I’ve distanced myself from you

In the hopes that this was just a trickery of the mind—

But no maknae

This is no trick, no illusion

My heart really is torn in two

I’m slowly dying inside

I can’t survive without you by my side

And yet I’m still running—

Running away from you, from the world, from everything

I’m filled with nothing but flaws

How is it that you still long to be my side?

Why maknae, why

I want to tell you to leave

Scream and shout at you until you do

But I just can’t bear to do that to you

You’re so precious to me it’s true

No I haven’t forgotten the nights we spent

Making love over and over again

How can I forget

The way you threw your arms around my neck—

The way you looked into my eyes and said

“I love you hyung.”

It was then that I realized

The one who has always understood me best was you

Perhaps I just didn’t want to admit it

But it was then that these bottled up feelings—

Feelings that I’ve been holding on to all these years

Came and consumed me all at once.

Maknae you don’t have to look elsewhere

Look only at me.

I’m giving myself to you

So please, take me as I am

Love me for all I’m worth

Please don’t let me go

We’ll always be leader and maknae

That’s a title we can’t change

But in secret we’ll always be

Loving each other behind closed doors

Lost in a love so special, so sweet

A beautiful secret to be kept

But even still

It will never change the fact

That I love you endlessly Seungri  

A/N: Just wanted to add that to my subscribers who have made requests, I am currently working on them but I will post them up once I finish Missing You, which is almost done.